RELATIONSHIPS THE EI WAY: Breaking The Ties That Bind

We both felt an immediate attraction and knew there was something worth exploring. That was the mutual feeling we had about each other the first time my ex and I locked eyes.

 And what was my ex doing at the time? Being cradled in the lap of an ex! On querying this later I was told: ‘they were just good  friends…’

Yeah, right!

When the time comes, we publicly declare our intimate relationships null, void and very over. But women in particular are notorious for not knowing how to break up. Read: masochistically prolonging emotional suffering.

The all-consuming time, energy and pain of the process most of us put ourselves through when the end is nigh is often a spectacular drama of our own creation.  We direct our own many miserable scenes, until the moment we finally decide to bring that curtain down. 

After all, how many times does it have to hurt seeing our ex partner involved with his/her new love before we are willing to let go and free ourselves?  Just like our ex has. 

Making the physical departure out of someone’s life during a break-up has little bearing on the slow psychological departure back to emotional health each of us has to make. Unless, of course, you’ve gradually been making that departure for years under the radar while you’ve purportedly been ‘content’ in the relationship?

But whether you’re the dumper, the dumped or it’s a mutual arrangement, you cannot escape the process. If you’re the dumped, you’ll likely be in shock and denial initially.

From my own experience, I’ve realized ending an important, intimate relationship of whatever length means being willing to go through the five stages of loss – denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. But not necessarily in that order, because it’s always such a personal and individual process. 

Be conscious of what you are feeling as often as you can, because getting stuck in any one of the stages could spell danger. If that’s the case, you’re likely unwilling or unable to move through the entire process towards your healing. And you may need some help at this point.

If you’re in a situation where one or both parties don’t possess enough emotional maturity to sit down and talk things through amicably, you may want to count this as a blessing instead. Why? Although more painful in the short run, in the long run this is far better for your de-cording process.

For your what?

I’ve come to understand that a third, very real energetic entity is forged when you enter a relationship with someone.  These are the energetic cords, the ties that bind us to each other. And due to its subtle but powerful influence, it is often the force that is the most difficult to dissolve. However, it is one that you need to begin dismantling as part of your quest to return you to you.

 You may like to see them as invisible strands or fragments  of your own being or power that you gave away to your beloved.  During a relationship’s good times most women want nothing more than to be bound  as it produces the feeling of caring and being cared for.

 But after it’s over, these are the cords that pull on you, creating the emotional pain when those charged feelings of longing, regret and past/future fantasizing, amongst others, come up for you.

An unhealthy symptom of cording post the relationship, though, is the all-consuming obsessive feelings it triggers.  Most humans feel incomplete within themselves. And cords are how we contract to ‘feeding’ each other psychically, emotionally and energetically. Though this agreement usually takes place unconsciously, it’s always a two-way street even if it appears differently to you. From a soul/Higher Self perspective, you wished to experience all you are.  When I’m working on dissolving  cords in my own life I constantly  see them as a separate but connected third entity, in existence both internally and externally.  

De-cording is all about pulling back your own essence into you once again. Sometimes, it could be for the first time ever in your life, depending on your history before this. There are several ways to do this, but personally, I find the power of intention works the best and quickest for me.  Before I discovered this, it once took  me almost as long as the life of a relationship itself to fully release an ex, healing and freeing myself.

Years ago, someone who could actually see cordings between people said: ‘Imagine fine tubes criss-crossing between people currently in relationship, between the dead and the living and between ex-lovers. It’s like a zillion mini-highways constantly moving between humans’.  Even if you can’t see these, it doesn’t mean they’re not there, keeping you energetically fragmented until you decide you want to do something to retrieve those lost parts of yourself. 

Of course, there’s always a payoff for not wanting to release/retrieve cords and holding onto the past. And clearly why so many do. Going into a memory of what was between the two of you – no matter how distorted you may have allowed time to recreate it – can still produce that warm, fuzzy inner glow.

You may find yourself years later and in another relationship still quietly pining for your old love.  Confirmation enough that the cord to that person was never properly released/retrieved when you originally parted company. Even though you entered a new relationship.

Not letting go is also a great mechanism for dealing  with hurt (or not dealing with it) by being automatically unavailable to vulnerability, and thus from further potential hurt.

And while I constantly encourage those I see to work with the ‘feeling is healing’ approach, sometimes the pain is just too overwhelming and some people do succumb to denial.  You know, ‘everything’s fine’ and ‘I’m totally over the relationship now’, etc. When this happens, as one psychologist puts it, the feelings have to come out ‘sideways’. This can result in all manner of denial symptoms from the start of addictive behaviour (drugs, gambling, fitness) to numerous escape tactics or mental disorders such as depression or anxiety.  In an attempt to numb out all feelings, you’re creating an extra load of issues that will also, sooner or later, need to be dealt with.   

It is okay to allow and feel loneliness, sadness, anger and all those other emotions deemed ‘negative'. In fact, it really is the wisest way forward for your personal healing.

As spiritual teacher and author of The Seat of the Soul, Gary Zukav says: ‘your soul speaks to you in the language of emotions’.

[Mail me if you’d like me to share my intention formula on this with you]

DIARY OF A CRAZED ASCENSIONIST: Fire, Clouds and Ships

Dear Diary

First things first. Feedback: I finally thawed out…permanently. Yes, my body did catch up with summer! And yes again...even the cicada head buzz has take a holiday break. And it all happened a few days before my recent birthday. Everything suddenly changed.  My solar plexus and I  have been in an excited state of anticipation ever since.

Repeated messages from the IF’s (invisible friends) were telling me it was my happy ‘re-birth day’. But not only that. This was to be the ‘first day of the rest of my life…’

And that same synchronicitous wish came in from two others on my special day!

Friends and family made sure I was suitably indulged and at dinner that night – with the help of friends as a catalyst – I had an enormous conscious breakthrough.

A clear wisdom screamed at me at how I had been standing in my own way and what was needed to resolve this ancient, self-created obstacle in my path! Hence, a couple of evenings later (without knowing of the official gateway opening) I felt the serious urge to purge through the cleansing element of fire.

 Although I don’t generally do rituals, I’ve done the fire ritual numerous times over the years. Scrunched up bits of paper with intentions pertaining to the issue/person are thrown into a nice outdoor fire. Burning them in the bathroom basin with a candle flame works equally well in cold weather. Or if you’re seeking complete privacy.

Was I glad I did it! Afterwards I felt hugely relieved, cleansed, freed up. It was then I felt the IF’s encircling me in a ritual of their own.  I can’t really describe it well, but there was a potent sense of circles within circles both opening and encasing me.  As always, I asked for a sign that it had been a successful release and was shown a being with enormous wings in the clouds, just before the sky darkened.

That night – and for the first time in forever – I left my outer security gate leading to my front door, open. Not something anyone does voluntarily in uber-security conscious South Africa. And for good reason. Although I realize my level of protection is great,  I still take some precautions.

I smiled when I saw this the next morning: a definite letting in of the new and true and letting out of the old.

Cloud formation messages and visions are coming in as fast and furiously as the wind speed this week. And it was just the next afternoon I was shown a potent vision in the  clouds. It was an animated one of my future partner (twin flame?) and I. It was an incredibly harmonious moment between us, while chatting and giggling.  And because I’m also clairsentient, the sensations and feelings of the exchange jumped out at me the most from the clouds.

This all happened in just a few seconds and was the cherry on the cake of an hour and a half’s worth of one of the best colour and light cloud shows I’ve seen in the sky yet!  This year I’ve seen the most sensational rainbow colours emanating from clouds close to the sun.  One I saw in October had to be the most exquisite.

 I was lying in my garden under my Brazilian pepper tree cloud-gazing, as I often do. Finishing up the session, I got up to brush the grass off me and glanced in the general direction of the  sun, now hanging quite low in the sky.

It was a slightly breezy day and I had my sunglasses on.  Then I saw it…distinct and thick, vertical stripes of pastel rainbow colours in a cloud immediately under the sun that had ‘bled’ through to its neighbouring cloud. I couldn’t believe it. It was dissipating fast; too fast to get my camera set up. 

Now none of this is able to be seen with the naked eye.  The lense of the sunglasses needs to be present to see the rainbow spectacle with clarity. And the other discovery I made was that not everyone can see them, apparently. I was on the beach with four other female friends once when this occurred. Two of them could ‘see’ and two couldn’t.

In any event, I’ve now seen this around a half dozen times or so. It’s occurred for me mostly during the late afternoons/early evenings and varies in the patterns it produces and the duration. Sometimes it disperses, as above, within a few minutes. And other times it’s as if the sky or cloud or time has been frozen in space and it just seems to last and last…

Weather experts would have us believe they are either circumhorizontal arc, iridescent clouds (usually accompanied by an actual rainbow) or sundogs. The latter, they say, is seen when the sun’s high in the sky and produces a rainbow effect. Untrue in my experience, besides my intuition shouting ‘no’.

People around the globe have been seeing and photographing these with increasing intensity for the past couple of years. One person even saw a rainbow ‘ball’ sitting on a group of clouds which changed colour and intensity and lasted for 15 minutes!  In general, real clouds (read: 3 D) don’t hang out for longer than a few minutes, so… I believe these are our star friends making their presence known, playfully and inspirationally. 

And then there are the far more plentiful cloud ships. Short of putting yourselves in any kind of ditzy danger, like I have a tendency to do by gazing upwards way too often when walking, it’s pretty amazing what you can see up there.

Sometimes I’ve seen cloud ships disguised between other cloud groupings, while at other times they may be in the form of just a single cloud, perfectly ship-shape on a blue sky day floating innocuously past.  Others look like obvious disguises to me – like when the sky is littered with the mini, swirling variety. But it’s mostly my feeling body that I rely on to confirm  that what I’m seeing is not of our world.

Here’s one taken outside my house at sunset a few years ago. The sky was cloudless except for this ‘ship in disguise’.

I’ve spied and/or ‘felt’ star ships numerous times in my environment during the past decade or so. Apart from in my dreams, that is.  Ships have featured in them fairly frequently. A couple of years ago I had a series of dreams involving them where sacred geometries were dropped out of the silent ship’s bottom in slow-motion style. Gently and quietly, some dropped slowly through my and some other people’s crown chakras and left the most pleasurably calm feeling.  That day I nearly had a car accident because my eyes were glued to the sky all day – waiting for something to drop from it!

In 3 D ‘reality’ (well, you know what I mean)  the largest one I ‘saw’ was a decade ago when I lived on a farm 40kms outside town. The drive up the west coast passed Koeberg – Africa’s only nuclear power station– which was about halfway home.  It was night and my partner was driving.

Suddenly I looked up and was taken/went into the next dimension and ‘saw’ this huge ship. Like an ultra violet light glow, it was lit up similarly in a muted emerald green glow.  And I knew it was there  overseeing and protecting any potential catastrophes from happening at Koeberg.  Perhaps it was even permanently stationed there. I never saw a ship again on that road in the year I lived there.

In this very valley I’ve also seen a smaller, circular scout-type ship once.  I was excited about something I was writing which involved star ships in some way. I jumped up, went to my window, looked up and there it was!

Rainbow clouds and cloud ships aside, I think we’re way more protected than we know-individually and collectively. And asking Commander Ashtar who oversees millions of ships to provide some protection when needed has become second nature.  I started this a while ago during a time of car troubles. Now I have the sense that a beam from above locks on my car when I attune to and desire this. I’ve felt so safe this way in many a post-party drive home over the mountain pass.

In magic, madness and mystery

Shellee-Kim

Gold's Rush

GOLD'S RUSH

Shellee-Kim Gold

Shellee-Kim Gold is a freelance journalist who has contributed to more than 50 publications. It was the unique South African psyche that called her home after traveling across 43 countries. One of her quests is trying to comprehend the relationships Capetonians have with themselves and each other. Shellee-Kim’s spare moments are spent rating cappuccinos and planning escapes from the city.

A couple of friends of mine from sedate Scandinavia made some telling remarks about Capetonians’ collective driving fury.

Their observation was Cape Town drivers had ‘some kind of crazy rage that began when they turned their car ignitions on and ended when they arrived at their destination’.

They’ve been here many times over the years and have had good opportunity to watch us evolve (devolve?) on the roads over the years.

Being subject to - or perpetrating - road rage in our city has become par for the course as motorists. Can you think of a driving experience when you didn’t encounter the aggression of drivers preventing you from entering a lane, tailgating, cutting you off or making obscene gestures and hooting?

This, for instance, is one of my frequent road experiences. Different man, different car, and I bet it’s yours too.
In the red Golf with tinted windows, a dressed dashboard and a naked, noisy exhaust, the male driver has just seen fit to overtake me on a double-blind mountain pass bend. Almost creating a head-on collision with an oncoming truck and uncreating himself, in the process.
Now I’m alongside him at the next set of robots. The sick puppy is sitting as smug as sin behind his wheel. Presumably because he beat me to the lights by a whole 20 seconds. Clearly, the satisfaction he feels must have been worth trading death-defying moves for.
If I had cared enough to say something, I imagine his likely response would have been a series of expletives, possibly followed by the threat of physical abuse!

Out of 10 countries surveyed, South Africa was Number One in a 2005 Synovate survey on road rage. In 2007, 50% of people experienced aggressive behaviour on the road.

We’re a country filled with Mad Maxes - the character hell bent on road revenge from the movie of the same name. Local wannabees are quick to reach for their sports bats and proceed to smash the brains out of their perceived opponents. And drivers who are the wrong-doers are the likely ones to fire the first attack.
Not unlike when you politely ask your neighbour to remove his dear doggy’s doo-doo from the lawn and you receive a torrent of abuse in response.
As John Salter, the director of Synovate said “The greatest form of defence is attack and the middle finger given by a perpetrator is the norm.”
One perpetrator who jumped a robot and was confronted by a fellow driver, phoned into a radio talk show to proudly announce he had got out and smashed the victim’s side window in response. ‘What is making us all so angry’, the host asked?
Here’s my theory. South Africans mostly express road rage from the safety of our cars. Clearly we lack the courage to do otherwise. The same courage and demonstration of our personal power needed to deal with the many ways in which we allow ourselves to be victimized elsewhere.
It may be the dog’s ceaseless barking next door that we tolerate endlessly when we really want to address it with the neighbour, but don’t due to fear. Or being made to wait in hopelessly long queues, only to be told 20 minutes later we’re in the wrong one. We’re fuming inside, but choose to adopt the ‘understanding’ response. Or when we, as customers, are delayed while civil servants/shop assistants/businesses decide their personal conversations or other work has priority over us. We’re seething within, yet choose to smile instead. Inappropriate self-censorship is everywhere.
All those layers of suppressed fury must spill over and go somewhere, TV shrink Dr Phil would probably say.
And so the unexpressed becomes expressed when we take to our lethal weapons on wheels. Playing Russian roulette on our roads is high-risk. But sadly until we give ourselves permission to speak out to the relevant person at the time and without fear, it’s obvious we’re not settling for anything else.

DIARY OF A CRAZED ASCENSIONIST 2: Buzzing, The Breakdown and Boundaries.

There’s a strange kind of hush, a stillness, that’s fallen over the earth and her people. In spite of the usual cacophony of white noise generated by our many human activities. Can you feel it?

It’s as if there’s a giant collective cross-species inhalation that the very trees, flora, fauna and even humans have taken (Include birds in that: they’re eerily silent down here).
And we’re waiting for the exhale…and all it will bring.

Besides that, I personally feel as alive as any good member of the living dead might! The body I thought I knew has recently gone zombie on me, turning icy cold. I feel as if I’m resident at a weather station in the north pole.

Feeling permanently freezing has left me frantic. And it’s especially beserk to be taking a hot water bottle to bed nightly, considering the current average summer temperature in Cape Town is around 30 degrees Celsius in December.
Yet, this is an iciness that comes from somewhere deep within, refusing to thaw. Other than if I sit directly in the hot sun for a while, that is. After retreating, I’ll remain warm for around 10 minutes. After which I find my body temperature quickly descending again into what feels like sub-zero conditions. Purplish-blue lips, shivering and all.

This started at roughly the same time as the incessant, deafening high-intensity pitch in my ears a few weeks ago. It all began with a pretty benign buzz last year and my ears kept blocking up when this symptom first sounded. Just like when you’re traveling high-altitude in an airplane! Maybe that’s all it is. A consciousness equivalent of travelling high altitude. But since then its descended ( or should that be ascended?) into a shrill ringing.

Anyway, I call it ‘having my cicada moments’. Cicadas are African bugs that live on trees. Male cicadas call to the females with this ring. It was a homey, familiar sound I really missed when I travelled. When I returned, I would frequently head for spots in nature for the comfort of that sound.
Now they’ve migrated, it seems, to…inside my head! Their ventriloquial quality makes it tough for humans to pinpoint the sound’s origin.
Meaning: half the time I don’t know whether the sound’s emanating from in or outside my head. Something a psychiatrist would easily label ‘delusional’, ‘paranoid’ and ‘schizophrenic’, I’m sure.

To make it worse, every week or so I’ve noticed the pitch moves up an octave.
Is it any wonder, then, that I’ve wandered around – even in public – banging on my head and ears for it to stop, please, just for an hour! Muttering and mumbling as I roam aimlessly up supermarket aisles, forgetting entirely what I’d come for. Or worse, standing dazed, fixated by a fruit cake!

You occasionally also get some nice vertigo/drunken wobbles thrown in with this one, too. In addition to extra clumsiness: this past period has seen me smashing plates and glasses with the frequency of a bazouki dancer in a Greek restaurant.


Pleading, begging, coercing, even bartering attempts with my IF’s/the etheric Himmler Squad have proven pointless!

One thing I can tell you is the overt Chinese torture methods of old ain’t got nothing on this subtle stuff!


To think, if I gave all of this rewardless life and the ascension path up tomorrow I’d probably be able to find a job with the National Intelligence Agency. Investigation and interrogation methods would be my obvious speciality, given my experience and background.

Naturally such a choice would strike me off the New Earth/Ascension roll in an instant. And would lay waste to thousands of years, lives, cleared karma and preparation for this one. So it’s a totally ridiculous thought.

Talking karma clearing, it really feels as if the chickens are coming home to roost now. It’s becoming increasingly-evident through the splitting off of realities.
Separating realities of consciousness and the humans that are inhabiting these various realities/worlds are yielding interesting results, so far. There’s an all-pervading sense of a breakdown of old systems – collectively, institutionally and within the individual. I can feel the defensive brittleness in people, the fear and panic. Everything is seriously surfacing into the conscious mind for an opportunity to clear now. As I channeled it from Alcyone in July here (http://goldsalchemy.blogspot.com/2009/07/crumbling-of-masks-by-maceldoran-from.html).
Of course, only free will dictates ;-) whether this opportunity will be used for personal expansion or not.

Because we are such a disempowered lot in this country who accepted censoring forever and have now become self-censoring (doing all the work for the Dark Side Controllers like well-behaved sheeple and without even realizing it!), it manifests as way more passive aggression here, for instance.
Like people pushing your supermarket trolleys out of the way with their own, instead of asking you to move it out of the way. Or happily? Accepting verbal abuse by service providers as consumers, allowing the self to feel more disempowered. Then, to compensate, getting safely behind the wheel of our cars for a potentially-deadly vent. South Africa came out tops from 10 countries surveyed on road rage conducted a few years ago. See more about this and my theory on a disempowered culture in one of my newspaper columns here.

But the discomfort within is a universal symptom currently, as I understand it. So I’m curious to know how you’re all experiencing this within your own countries and cultures.

The mass ‘breakdown’ only means the all-important quality of being boundaried with others is even more essential to work with. Being a fully sovereign being means exercising your personal boundaries as often as is required.

When you express this, what you are telling yourself and the world translates to: I honor my own self enough to bring your attention, .……(name of friend/foe/stranger) to your unacceptable behaviour/action/words of (name the incident) involving/towards me.

I’ve found this way easier to do with people I know. But the boundary-setting I’m finding the most challenging are the few projections emitted by strangers I’ve interacted with lately.

A manifestation of the various worlds we are inhabiting now is producing a being ‘rubbbed up the wrong way’ feeling. Two years ago when the splitting off of realities first became evident to me, I went ‘invisible’. People looked right through or past me, as if I wasn’t there. But once I got used to it and took the necessary steps in being ‘seen’ particularly while driving for obvious reasons, it was all ok. Even advantageous sometimes.

But now that the heat’s being turned up – energetically-speaking – everyone’s getting poised for the changes ahead. Invisible or not, the more integrated we are within when they do happen, the better. In the meanwhile, I’m continuing the walk between worlds.
Even if I do feel like a cross between a tipsy trapeze artiste and a ventriloquist’s doll a lot of the time!

In
Magic, madness & mystery
Shellee-Kim

DIARY OF A CRAZED ASCENSIONIST: A Taste of Things Past?

25/9/09


Treading a path to surviving and keeping up with the stellar blasts now hitting earth - and us - at an astronomical rate is fraught with difficulties. Don’t we all know it!

Your emotional, mental, spiritual and physical bodies are pounded on an almost-daily basis. And when that ends, there’s always the post-sleep filled activities, clearings and ‘experiments’ to look forward to. Just last week, for instance, I re-entered my body into wakefulness a fraction prematurely to find and feel my neck gland buzzing and pulsating wildly and painfully. It almost felt separated from my body somehow and was accompanied by what sounded like an etheric high-frequency chainsaw sound. How etheric lab rat is that? Not to mention B Grade horror movie! The sensations were literally shocking.

All in all, the entire journey is like being on a permanent roller coaster ride – only with way more nausea and vertigo-inducing dips than exhilarating peaks! Luckily, though, we can take small comfort in knowing there’s an established group of us masochists global wide, all suffering simultaneously.

Experiencing the odd ‘good ascension day’ as I’ve come to call them, is absolute bliss when they do happen by… though far and few between.
On these days I go crazy in the most delicious ways I can conjure up. But a common activity [mostly because I’m just so incredulous that it’s a ‘good’ day] on those days is to get very physical and dance that joy back into/out of my very bones! Very grounding.

Now ‘good’ days are to be utilized in the extreme. There’s (solo) joke sessions with my feline family who can’t join in on my hysterical giggling, of course. But I’m pretty certain they’re having a telepathic giggle with me. Or at me, at least. And yes, on those days they also double up as audience members when I boogie! They’re basically great all-rounders who morph (willingly or not) into the playmates I need when I need them. Not to mention being the feline equivalents of masochists themselves, as I’ve often told them! Particularly given the enormous amount of anchoring and clearing work on me they do via my team of invisible friends (IF’s) almost nightly. *Sigh* Well, we all choose our paths…

Of late, yet another series of cosmic activations have knocked my socks off…again. For close on two and a half months my four cats have been paw-glued to various permanently-agonized points around my neck, head and upper back/shoulder area every single night. I’ve all but crawled through my days, willing night to fall fast. Despite the above, there still does remain some peace in unconsciousness.

The neck story: I was told this was clearing, in part, of slave programming from the 6th and 7th dimensions and entity removals. And then had dreams where I’ve coughed up the critters in huge balls of sick-green slime. Between this and the usual myriad of other de-light-ful symptoms I’ve also completely lost my sense of taste of late.
And my sense of smell. Basically, my ears, nose and throat are being worked on in some mad and major way.
Stabbing pains in the inner ear, burning and singe-ing on the outer one and waking up choking and spluttering are just a few of the joys of this round in the wrestling (with Self) ring.

Yes, it seems like I have my very own devoted team of Himmler-like ENT etheric torturers, cosmic specialist doctors who are thinking up some mega-creative ways of tormenting me further, even in sleep.
I can’t begin to tell you how many times I’ve fantasized about living in a nuthouse. This way the incessant cycles of madness, magic and mystery and the accompanying crazy symptoms could all be shared under a single roof. Can you imagine it? All of us moaning, groaning, sobbing, shrieking and emitting the odd beserk-tinged laughter…collectively!

Fact is, this planetary group of us that elected to, are pushing the boundaries continuously in upgrading/downloading, integrating and releasing aspects of our Selves.

I woke up one morning sometime in mid-September and my body odours had seemingly disappeared overnight. Literally free of bad odours. Yaaay! I thought, a day or two later after seeing this was a permanent fixture. No more expensive and harmful deodorants! But then it dawned on me. I’d also been tasting peculiarly when eating food. I immediately put this down to the after effects of dental anaesthetics for a couple of days. I’d taken far more poison than the usual amount in a recent four hour dentathon of an appointment!

It was not a good feeling when I realized all food tasted of nothing-ness to me. That’s an understatement, actually. Because for someone who loves their food as much as I do, this was devastating. It’s not that food tastes bad – as in tinny, synthetic or anything like that – it’s just (even more tragically) that it all tastes like nothing; hollow and devoid. There was a very vague sense of the consumable being sweet or salty. Not unlike when you have a cold. Now just imagine that ongoing experience for months – without the runny nose.

On the plus side: I’ll now be forced to eat to live rather than vice versa; savings could be fairly large; a raw food diet (yuk!) can finally become a real and neutral (literally) option.
On the minus side: potentially never being able to savour the explosive flavour fest of a Thai Green curry again  ; the sensual experience of food is no more; can it possibly be that the pleasure of the eating out ritual may never again be?

I have to confess: this is not the first time during this Ascension process a part of my physiology has gone AWOL. It’s happened before. I cried in frustration and threw a few tantrums. Of course, none of it helped until the process was complete, in its own time. It took three months for my nervous system to re-adjust then. So perhaps I’m being the drama queen all over again and just need to have a lot more patience and keep a lot less food in my kitchen cupboards in the interim.

You know what never ceases to amaze me? That we actually chose this seemingly-eternal madness as part of our planned pre-incarnational contract. So of course we take full responsibility for all of it. Or perhaps I should just say I do. My own conscious ascension process has been in the making for a decade now. Or 25 years if you start from my awakening and seeking years. This amounts to half of an average lifespan. And that’s the maddest part of all, in my opinion. Along with my compulsion to stay on track with it, that is.

But rumour has it that, in fact, my ‘real’ life is soon to start. And yes, hopefully then all of this will seem like nothing more than the memory of a distant nightmare. One of record-breaking length.

In
Magic, madness and mystery
Shellee-Kim

[Next time in Diary of a Crazed Ascensionist: Buzzing, boundaries and babies].

"All I can be, I haven't become. All I can do, I haven't done. How far I can reach, hasn't yet been reached. I am a work that hasn't been completed."
T.D. Jakes

Morality Vs Ethics by Lady Nada with Shellee-Kim Gold

10/11/09

We are pleased to have been invited to speak in this manner once more. It is truly our pleasure to do so.

This one has been pondering over the title of this communiqué for a time now. And we have said that there is indeed a difference – often times a marked one between the expression of these states: morality and ethics.

While morality is often times defined by one’s society, culture and conditioning, ethics is a state of practice which is based more on personal and internal alignment with integrity. We would say morality, because it is rooted in the externals of a society, is often a behavioural-based and learned state, rather than an internally-felt one.

In this regard, the expression of morality could be said to come as a result of numerous motivations, including guilt and fear. However, sometimes ethics and morality do combine to create an integrity-driven experience and expression. This is the natural state of expression for the Hu-Man (higher man), which humanity is currently evolving into. Success depends on how much of the accumulated fear-based expression the individual has been able to clear.

One would be at their most authentic where the practitioner possesses a good deal of internal balance. This usually first means a fair bit of observing the self in action and re-action. And then being willing and able to discern whether a re-action is being driven by the negative ego or the higher self.
Accurately identifying and accepting the differences is rather crucial as this all goes a way in determining your commitment towards living a life that is more ethically-driven and in integrity.

Have you observed how desperately people will fight to defend their brand of ‘truth’ in the name of morality? Often it will trigger such an emotional response in the one doing the defending that they forget themselves and may verbally attack the one challenging them. Although this may often be put down to ‘the heat of the moment’.

But regardless of how quickly composure is returned to these ones, the observer has seen the expression here has been motivated by intellectual/mental restraint (negative ego) rather than a genuine energetic acceptance, allowing and tolerance (higher self) of the person and situation.

Where morality becomes confusing and should be excellent pointers to you all along the way, is where it, as a mental construct, becomes superimposed in a sometimes-rigid manner that doesn’t allow for much life expression outside of this code. Whether it’s employed as a personal value held dear or used to maintain a particular viewpoint/justification on a subject or philosophy.

Often morality rules with an iron fist when fear remains the dominant underlying state within. An excellent example of this being the morality that is touted in your world’s major religions, each with their own prescribed moral codes. And, as above, because it is more often based in fear it has not the capacity to be in a state of true compassion, tolerance and acceptance much of the time.

Forcing yourselves behaviourally to appear to be compassionate and accepting doesn’t really cut it, either. Although these are states many impose upon themselves. And one where, because you may not actually feel the qualities you would like to be seen to be projecting, you would be prone to sometimes behaving opposite to that which you state or imply is your moral code.
Thus giving rise to what your world calls hypocritic behaviour, which in turn produces guilt. And this serves no one at all. So you can see the pressure you place on yourselves is exceedingly high.

For those that have managed this, living in and practising integrity is a natural part of ethical living. Which is not to say that one doesn’t fall or struggle, merely that at a particular point in one’s evolution and when enough within has been integrated, the tendency in oneself is to swing back naturally into the camp of love, honour and honesty. With self and then all others.

How is it you can bring these seemingly-similar but often divorced states into greater alignment with each other?
We would suggest becoming aware of that which you feel particularly strongly about when it comes to your ideas and expressions of what you identify as your moral code.

Even, and perhaps particularly, those who identify strongly with New Age teachings, philosophies and belief systems. For it is the psychological-emotional dynamics behind both New Age and your world religions that can produce an-often morally inflexible approach to life. And subsequently in interactions with other beings.

Perhaps those who would make progress most easily would be those who can be flexible about their moral code. This is not to say that one doesn’t care enough about it, but rather the emotional attachment to such a code would then be far less binding and restrictive. And one that is more readily able to support inner expansion.

Becoming energetically in synch first requires becoming conscious of that which is out of synch. Asking others with whom you share intimate or close bonds for their perspectives of you to be shared honestly and with kindness would be one courageous way in which this can begin to be recognized.

It is these subtle but profound misalignments within humanity that are exactly the sorts of states needing to be examined on the path towards mastering the Self.

If overlooked or written off as insignificant, humanity then continues to be distracted from the real path at hand during these amazing times of personal opportunity. And continue to allow more of the negative ego or anti-Christ within, as this one likes to call it, to flourish unchallenged.

These times essentially are about coming into alignment with your higher self as driver of your being. And so this transformative process is unavoidable if your choice is to become sovereign, co-creative beings of the New Earth.

It is precisely in the next 'now' moment that all is to finally unfold upon your plane. And the more prepared you are within, so will it all be easier to handle in your external living.

We thank you for being with us after this lengthy absence. And we honour each and every one of you on your journey. May you go forward with peace in your hearts.

LADY NADA on The Coming Earth Realities

A Channelled Chat with Shellee-Kim Gold/April 09

Good day beloved ones. A new time is upon us. A time where many will be in a position to begin fulfilling that which they came to earth to fulfill. The energetic waves that are currently cracking earth open are having the most powerful effect on everything that lives.
Stellar waves of immense proportion are acting as catalysts to allow for both humanity and earth’s shift into an entirely new way of being. This manifests as the power of tremendous change.
In the human experience, this change can be perceived to be ‘good’ or ‘bad’, depending on the inner preparations made thus far and depending on the resistance or flow to and with such change, as it occurs. Call it an etheric whirlwind, if you like.

We speak of this today, beloveds, due to the state of chaos we see on earth. There are many around who have a sense of doom and gloom. They are ones, who at some level, are holding steadfast to this notion. Even if it is not conscious. Because ‘better the devil you know, than the one you don’t’ for these ones. The change required to free themselves of fear is something these ones have not chosen for this lifetime.

Others yet again may deeply understand the nature of fear intellectually and are in the process of trying to free themselves of it. This would be another grouping.

Then there are those for whom the beliefs of certain moral and ethical values are priority, fixed and chosen – whether these be of the religious or New Age group varieties. It matters not. For, in truth, the same dynamics and relationship with the Self exist across them all.
And for these ones, the more often things go ‘wrong’ in the life, the more energy and attention is placed on the ritual or philosophy as a means of finding salvation for the Self.

And then there is the Heaven on Earth grouping – those who have held steadfast to a path of shifting the Self from the inside out. These ones have done their inner work sufficiently, and raised their vibrations enough to enjoy what this dimension will shortly be offering them. These are ones who have, in many instances, made the greatest sacrifices in their lives.

As a result, there are numerous factions of humanity now in the process of separating from each other as a result of those states which their consciousness currently occupies. All of these are based on past choices made or not, beloveds.
In a way, therefore, there are several dimensions of existence both splitting apart and formulating right now upon the physical earth.

And so we see many will live alongside each other but be occupying vastly different dimensions. What this means in practical reality, is that some will perceive grand new happenings on earth, such as those occupying the 5th and 7th Dimensions, while for others it will literally go over their heads, as it is simply not their reality. Those who’ve chosen the higher dimensions will also witness happenings of a denser nature playing out on earth without it affecting them negatively.

An example for those whose reality is the 3rd and 4th dimensions might be people you know ‘disappearing’ around you. Now you see them, now you don’t. Due to collapsing timelines, beloveds, nor will it be a case of missing someone who is not there. As in many instances, it will feel as if the ‘missing’ person never existed in your reality. As strange and contradictory as this might sound to you now.

Explaining this is not designed to sow seeds of fear or division in any way amongst the population of earth, beloveds. Rather, it is an outline of things to come so that ones might be given the choice to prepare accordingly.

We say there is no path chosen that is better or worse than another. This period on earth affords a rare opportunity to crack out of the shell of fear or live within its cosy, but confined space until the next cycle of opportunity comes forth.

Each timeline/dimension will bring forth exactly what has been chosen by inhabitants of the respective groupings. And so the Creator and Universal law is always fair, completely honouring the free-will decision of each one. And this is exactly why you all chose the experiences you have on this jewel planet.

And so we would like to say that your earth experience and reality is, indeed, a subjective one. One that is entirely based on your own creation of it. And although you have heard this many times from many sources in the past, we put a slightly different spin on it today. By saying it is not what you do, think or practise alone that determines the outcome of your reality and subsequent dimensional existence, but also whether you are able to match this with the intention of your Soul Self.

Life on earth is about to become very interesting. And although many are suffering upon it, there are many that look on from our realms who would wish to be in your shoes for the experiences and opportunities it offers at the level of soul growth.

Important to know is that there is never any judgement on your choices and our support from the Lighted realms is merely a thought and request away. That never changes. In fact, many more potential helpers from the Lighted realms gather round at this time to be of service to you. We do need for you to understand, however, in accordance with the law of Free Will, that we cannot come to assist until requested by you.

With great upliftment and love during these exciting earth times, it is I, Lady Nada, saying thank you for your time and attention, and bidding you farewell.

Encounter With An Inner Earth Hu-Man

A piece I wrote quite some time ago for an Inner Earth support group:


In 2001 I began 'hearing' voices inside my head in a telepathic manner. I was convinced I was ready for the local mental institution! During a moment of spiritual despair at home and not long after that, I had a visitation by off-worlders.

In exactly the same way as the Star Trek movies show how people are 'beamed up' into the starship, so it was in the same way that two beings appeared under my kitchen spotlights. A tall, blond, Nordic-looking man in a Star Trek-style royal blue body suit and a shorter, dark-haired woman in a red body suit beamed in and just stood there.

They just appeared and disappeared. It lasted no more than 10 seconds and no words were spoken. At first I thought it was Adama, high priest of Telos, but later had a stronger sense it was Ashtar. Especially after I familiarised myself with his work some more. The woman was less distinct. But I reckoned if that was Ashtar, she may well have been Athena.


It all happened so quickly, but the impact on me, my faith and renewed sense of direction and purpose was profound. Although I'd been exploring new age spirituality for more than 15 years and was finding it increasingly-unsatisfactory, what this experience started for me was the beginning of re-connecting to my galactic/5d Self.


I then began being guided to various websites - with each one shocking me into a recognition, a knowingness and resonance with the energy and info that was coming through each. From Sheldan Nidle to Ashtar channellings, the Nibiruan Council and then to numerous other, including ascendpress.org. But when I got to Dianne Robbins, channeller of Inner Earth beings, and followed up with two of her books, there was such a profound resonance I began crying and couldn't stop...

Early on during all of this I began chatting to a female guide. Eventually, I got it that her name was Kundara. And I believe she's my sister/someone very close to me from the inner earth. One time I was sitting in a forest with an etherically-developed pyschic friend. Kundara was there with us and for the first time I began seeing visions of myself with my inner earth family surrounding me. I was lying on some type of thin bed in a room with everyone saying goodbye - with very mixed feelings - as I volunteered to leave there and be born into this surface lifetime. The memory of that made me cry and cry...again!

In the interim, I made another discovery. I had been exceptionally close to a woman a few years younger than me for a short time in 1994. Angela and I had shared a deep soul connection. She died a few years later of cancer. But the puzzle pieces only fell into place a year or two after contact with Kundara. It came to me one day that Kundara had, in fact, been Angela - now assisting me from the dimension of the inner earth!

A little while after this, Kundara introduced me to my brother - Bohar. His energy was totally different from hers - upbeat and hysterically funny a lot of the time. He was never without a joke. I always felt so joyous during and after we'd chatted. Kundara's energy by comparison was always calm and serene and she always talked with a 'collective' voice.

In December 2005 I had yet another incredible experience. I was at a restaurant with my mother when this preppy-looking, curly dark-haired man walked in. He sat at the table directly next to ours, sitting alongside me. I couldn't guess his age as much as I tried. He looked 'regular' and was dressed in shorts, a T-shirt and sandals, December being our summer here.

I was so drawn to him and knew I knew him. I tried to sneak many, many looks at him without him seeing me and desired nothing more than to start a conversation. The inside of his right wrist had an interesting tattoo that looked just like an I Ching symbol. I drew it on a piece of paper right there.

I'm usually easily able to speak to strangers, wherever I find myself. But the oddest thing in this situation is that I couldn't talk to him, almost as though something had paralysed me on this level. It was as if some electromagnetic force field had been set up between us, preventing words from exiting my mouth, even though I could think them up easily enough. When he first came in to the restaurant, he came up behind me to get the newspapers on the shelf above me. And something was checked/adjusted in my crown chakra at that point, I believe. He hovered there way too long.

I found myself asking questions to him in my head and telepathically receiving answers from him. Practical things of interest to me such as how he coped with the vibration on the surface, had he had to have some adjustment made to his physical self to 'fit in' on the surface, what did he do to prevent our 'poisoned' food affecting him badly, etc. He telepathed by return that he swam in the surface sea often to cleanse himself and he did some silent ritual over the food before eating to raise it's vibrations. He ordered a feta salad, by the way. I believe they're vegetarian in the inner earth!
During all this I kept saying to my mother: 'I'm sure he's from the inner earth' over and over. She'd heard the concept from me before, so knew what I meant.

Eventually, he got up and left first, without a single word having been exchanged between us. I spent the entire rest of the weekend devastated that this familiar stranger and I hadn't actually had a verbal exchange. My friend asked her guides and got that it wasn't needed and would interfere negatively with my growth at the time. She was told this man had indeed been Bohar! She also said I was the 'last stop' on a round-the-surface-world trip for him to make contact with a group of us. He was apparently on some kind of reconnaisance mission. I'm curious to know whether it was non-verbal communication with those others, too. Did anyone experience anything similar at the time (December 05)?

I was totally excited when sometime just after that experience I discovered Aurelia Louise Jones's channeling with a master from Shamballah called Zohar. I just knew there was a connection between us all. But still don't know what it is, although I do have a definite resonance with Shamballah as a city.

Early last year, I saw a 'star' transform into a moving star/ship in the night sky in my garden (UPDATE JULY 09: I've now seen four of these, with one doing a special 'performance' for me). It travelled so fast, it took all of 30 seconds to cross the entire length of the sky, until it passed in the direction of the moon and just faded from naked eye vision. I couldn't move or speak properly I was so thrilled to see this sight!

It was also a short time later in early 2006 I was asked to choose three gifts by the Galactic Fed/Inner Earth. This was as a result of apparently graduating or passing some trial/initiation - and was a gift of thanks (aka a reward!). I later found out that at around the same time, another channeller in the United States was offered the same thing. Was anyone else out there offered the same thing at the time?
Not that any of the gifts have manifested in this dimension for me yet, by the way.

This has been a small portion of my weird and wonderful experiences related to Inner Earth Hu-Mans that you may find of interest.
Since then, I've had many more subtle and overt experiences. They've just become stranger and stranger while journeying towards the Diamond Doorway. The starting place of entry to the Inner Earth being none other than through our very own hearts...We are indeed what we have been waiting for!

The Crumbling of the Masks by Mac/Eldoran from Alcyone

Channelled by Shellee-Kim Gold

Everywhere you turn people are feeling vulnerable. This is to be both a comforting and disturbing period you are entering simultaneously. Because, as the metaphorical masks crumble away on your outer skins, your inner truths of who you really are, are revealed to you.

This energy now upon you acts swiftly in its capacity to cleanse. The cleansing we speak of is one where all that has been hidden and suppressed is to be brought to the surface of both your minds and hearts on a personal level and to the forefront of your world. Individually and collectively these are the beginnings of the clean sweep period.

It will be uncomfortable for many who have successfully buried parts of themselves to date. This energy is so vast and powerful in its capacity to cut through and uproot that which exists at core, that there can be no more playing games – with ourselves or each other. It is a time for truth in all things to be revealed to you all.

With these series of revelations much will change. There are many who are so unprepared for this vast global clean up, that they will resist against all odds to protect themselves from having to face themselves. For these planet dwellers, this inner battle will produce tortuous minds, at constant odds with itself. But the human will is a powerful tool and mechanism for enduring such conflict.

Those who choose to allow these schisms to surface without resistance to this sweeping change, will be in a far better position to create new and better ways of being and expressing in the world.

Many of you sensitive enough will feel an urgency in working with these divine energy gifts. Although not necessarily a comfortable ride, it will give all those choosing it the opportunity to heal further of themselves and accelerate their mastery. A state that you all came here striving towards achieving. It is in expressing your true sovereign nature that great shifts can occur for all of humanity. Even if it is something that is only being achieved by the few.

This is a time of new beginnings, but not before the old has completely fallen away. And so we say these masks that have held you from yourselves are now literally peeling off to reveal the layers of truth beneath. You can no longer hide from yourselves. Know then that more intense feelings of anxiety and fear and subsequently more people being diagnosed with ‘mental disorders’ will be a natural result of resistance to this.

Think of this period upon you as one, which by divine grace, has been offered you as a boost for your growth. This is a time that has long been awaited – both by yourselves and us here in these realms.

In closing, it is only left to say there are some of you who feel there is nothing that needs doing. But it is true to say that access to Heaven/a Heavenly state of consciousness is something that does need to be earned. It doesn’t automatically just happen to all those desiring it.

You Are Your Brothers Keepers - Channelled 24 May

Through Shellee-Kim Gold

Goodday beloved people of earth. I trust you are flowing well with the changes now starting to make their presence felt in your world.
Today I would like to address the qualities of integrity, ethics and morality in human expression.

We have noted that there is much consternation about the state of your world. When you have those at the top of the food chain on your world encouraging the qualities of greed and dishonesty, its not really much to wonder about.
Yet, away from the grasp of the Dark controllers of your world, it is still within your own power to shift your consciousness.

Many have been sent to your realm to help you with the beginnings of this great vibrational change and time. Yet there is much work for you to accomplish, which we are unable to do for you.
I am talking here of what it means to be a truly upstanding citizen and human being.

What is the point of working yourself out, as you are all doing, if you do not consider your brothers and sisters in the process? I’m particularly speaking of those many less fortunate, ill, vulnerable and those without a voice.

How much or little do you feel that your fellow man is your responsibility? Why is it that so few continue to do the work of so many – as in the work of charitable practices and causes? Your personal upliftment is not only about you, after all. You are a single society, a single humanity. And while the Dark has instigated numerous measures to continue to poison you with prejudices against each other, it is time to see through this also.

You cannot be a spiritual being having a successful human experience without the morals and ethics that go along with that. And many of the voiceless need your assistance. This is not to say: go rushing off to join the next movement for or against some cause, become an activist or turn into a guilt-riddled individual and open your purse at every turn and without discernment. Or to accept someone’s energy into your space if they’re soliciting against your will.
This is to say: the more you are aligned to your soul selves, the more naturally and equally these qualities will manifest through you. Opening yourself to the needs of others becomes exactly how you would like others to open to you in your own hour of need. As sensitivity is needed to view your life by outsiders to truly empathise with it, so this is the exact quality needed for you to view the lives of others.

It is no good preaching heaven on earth to others or being inspired in listening to others speak of this, when it is not accompanied by an honest desire to be of service to others. And not just in the way that you have perceived your service should be. I’m speaking here not only of those who are involved in healing work of one type or another. Or those who see themselves as Lightworkers in whichever manner they practice expressing this.

I’m speaking here of opening to and activating one of the most essential and natural parts of yourself. Not practiced or contrived, but being truly aware of the needs of others.

Giving unconditionally has often been confused with giving as a means of bartering. ‘If I do or give that then such-and-such will come back to me because I’m creating ‘good karma’, you might say to yourself. Or you might long ago have set up an associated belief with this and so do it rather automatically now. Or you might restrict this type of interaction to certain situations and people. And perhaps outside of such contexts, empathizing and being sensitive to the needs of others might cease to exist for you.

I would rather draw your attention to truly trying to put yourself in the person’s shoes who’s standing in front of you and addressing you – whoever they might be, wherever it may be and whenever. It matters not whether they’re an individual clothed in business garments or a ragged, homeless one. What is it they’re feeling? Without defensively rejecting it outright, can you try to be there with them in that, without taking on what belongs to them? Or developing a judgement about them?
This is the art of true empathy. It is not driven by anything except the desire to be of service and of help to other humans, outside of your regular sphere.

It, like much else in the human understanding and expression, becomes complicated due to humans’ fragmented selves. And so we compartmentalize and assist others where and when it suits us and depending on whether they fit into the boxes of our definition of deservedness.

To care for others in the way you look out for yourself is the way forward. And what all societies and civilization wishing to go forward into a state of collective harmony do do.

It is unfortunate that many feel that their brand of giving leads to a more spiritually-rewarded life. True ethics, morality and integrity lived from the (whole) heart of humankind has the power to be an infectious force for such collective good.

As you grow into this natural state of being and expressing, by your interactions and re-actions with those in need can you monitor your own abilities at being in a state of authentic empathy.

Living true ethics, morality and integrity are as much a natural part of your soul self’s expression as breathing to survive in the physical body is.

Q & A: Star Ships, First Contact by Ashtar- May 2009

Channelled through Shellee-Kim Gold

This is Ashtar of the Ashtar Command Fleet of Starships.
You on earth are what motivates many on my side: to see all of you on Earth raised in vibration to our level.

SK: SPEAK OF THE COMMAND’S SHIPS PLEASE
There are thousands of ships working with me and under me. Each with their own speciality. Although some have a similar speciality, no two are identical. Like the beings that work and live upon them. Our ships also are living ‘beings’, each with their own ‘personality’. They are of our creation and so a little of the essence of us creators would naturally permeate them. And we subsequently treat our ships with honour and respect, as we do each other.
They are made from a sophisticated material your people have not yet had much exposure to (except for certain government’s employees. It is light weight and impermeable at the same time. Life within our ships operate according to frequency bands.

SK: MEANING?
Certain activities promote a particular frequency to match particular activities which puts the participant in complete harmony with the operation/leisure type being experienced. This promotes maximum efficiency and experience.
Although we do not work within the space-time constraints you do in linear time, although we do also like to work, live and rest in cycles. We find this has a beneficial effect on our temperaments.

SK: COULD YOU HELP WITH CLARITY HERE. I’VE UNDERSTOOD THAT ONLY SHIPS OF THE LIGHT AND UNDER THE AUSPICES OF THE GALACTIC FEDERATION WERE ALLOWED ANYWHERE NEAR EARTH AT THE MOMENT, SO AS TO PREVENT ANY FURTHER INTERFERENCE WITH HUMANITY. YET, THERE’S REASON TO BELIEVE THERE ARE SOME FLOATING AROUND OUT THERE THAT ARE NOT STRICTLY OF THE LIGHT AND CONTINUING TO INTERFERE WITH HUMANS.

We are aware of your recent investigation and subsequent confusion. Such is a great lesson in discernment. For there are wolves in sheep’s clothing still chancing their luck. The ship in question is a renegade vessel in your solar system.

SK: BUT DOESN’T THIS CONTRADICT THE RECENT GF LAW, THAT NONE OF ILL INTENT COULD GET NEAR EARTH ANYMORE?
Yes, this is so but there are some who are ‘contracted’ to play out a role with earth humans and so we’ve not been able to remove such ones. Having said that, we have been able to bar the entry of those who recently wished to force themselves upon you, to their benefit and not necessarily to yours.


SK: WHAT’S YOUR INVOLVEMENT IN THE EARTH MISSION?
Well, the preparations for this have been underway for a very long time as you measure it, but only recently have we stepped up activity, much of which you’re not conscious of.
Our involvement is to ensure your smooth transition to full consciousness, in order for you to begin building your global society anew. All changes will begin from within you.

While our many ships will be bringing forth gifts that will assist you in the smoother functioning of your world, it is up to you to implement these changes. It will also be your responsibility to root out those who would wish to use these for ill-gotten gains.

We would again like to remind you: the grand upliftment known to you as Ascension is not a single event resulting in a ‘perfect’ expression of all individuals in an instant. It is a most gradual process and one where the wheat from the chaff on your planet will continue to separate.

Ascension is not designed to shift matter overnight. For what would the purpose of the many lessons that abound during such times then be? Having said that, there will most certainly be the removal of the big players whose commitment to the dark has caused the reign of terror on earth. This will mean an enormous obstacle in your path will be removed. Then your decisions can be made in a far freer environment. In this space nothing can hold you back, if you so choose it.

This is not to say there will not be mischief-makers that would wish to claim certain powers for their own. But these ones will eventually not be able to withstand the ever-increasing vibration on earth. And intentions will become the very thing that both sustain and causes the downfall of surface earth humans.

SK: ABOUT FIRST CONTACT?
There will be a surge of interest between us and the people of earth - activity and interaction to promote the ideas of humanity and earth as galactic members and what it means to you all.
This will be followed by the introduction of ‘galactic’ gifts, we will impart some training and more personal interactions with numerous ones, including those ‘family’ members amongst you. Then there will be some of our crew who will wish to remain amongst you for their own learning and growth as the frequencies/abilities to sustain them grow more favourable on earth.

SK: IS THIS TO TAKE PLACE AFTER STASIS?
Yes. But that is just the start. We wish to state for the record that we are not here to ‘save’ you or do the work for you. There is to be no magical solution that many hold fast to the idea of. We will be making contact to offer assistance and aid to a dying world. And to give you a leg-up, so to speak.

There will be many amongst you that will work consciously with us to bring forth great wisdom to your world and its people. This year of 2009 marks a turning point, and one from which there will be no return.
Many illusions will continue to be shattered on the surface –personally and collectively- and this is most certainly in the best interests of your various soul path choices.

SK: CAN YOU ELABORATE ON HOW THIS WILL MANIFEST COLLECTIVELY?
In every sphere of human endeavour will there be revelations about the ‘truth’ behind things. For example, who really pulls the strings in global economics, governments and politics and why.
And why your world’s history has been so manipulated over time as to present a very different picture than that which actually occurred. And, very importantly, your off-planet genetic origins, amongst many others.

Also, you’ll be educated about the real contents of the foods you eat and how the health/medical industry (and related pharmaceutical companies) can really be called the ‘death’ industry, as their vested interests have been in keeping as many as possible ill and therefore dependant on their drugs in order to maintain some functionality in the world. We would like to say this is certainly not promoting true health for the masses.
It is unfortunate that many currently do not think for themselves sufficiently to understand the manipulation taking place. Instead most buy in blindly to what is being told them by the media.

In fact, your planet has already been given many technologies towards your healing and health. However, this been stolen and suppressed by certain governments for their own gain and to meet requirements for their own agenda.

Now is the time once again for you on earth to be given the opportunity to reclaim your personal power. But you must rise up to receive this.

There is a world awaiting such as you’ve never known, even in your wildest imaginings. One which opens up a whole new vista of experience for you of the most adventurous kind. Exciting times are almost upon you.

Self-Determination by Krishnamurti - April 2009

Channelled by Shellee-Kim Gold

When we speak of self-determination we speak also of choices made on all the levels of your being. We speak of desired choices, but those not yet made. Those dreamed about that never really find that satisfactory outlet of and for expression.

What are we talking about here? We are talking about the ability to expand and explore consciousness via constantly making the choice to choose the high road. The high road as far as your soul’s concerned, that is.
The high road is always the soul/Higher Self/soul group’s greatest life objective and achievement.

Now it may bear no relation whatsoever to the human personality with all its frail ego shortcomings. Because the personality’s ‘high road’ may be a version vastly removed. So how does one know whether one is aligned to the soul’s high road? By asking yourself certain vital questions, my friends. Let’s start with: Is doing this work, being in this relationship giving me that deep, inner satisfaction I desire and providing contentment?
And how do I extricate myself, what steps do I take, if this is not creating these feelings of contentment within?

Of course, I am not including those whose suffering in such situations is brought about by their own past creations. I am talking here of karma. In this case, until the agreed upon time is up or the lesson learned and integrated, no amount of conscious pulling away will assist or change your circumstances.
And granted, it is extraordinarily difficult to discern the difference between the two (fear and karma) when you haven’t done much exploring in the first place.

But it can be done- and must. The former denotes a place of ‘stuckness’ if you are not feeling contentment. Yet, it is not one where you are caught up in a web that becomes stickier if you try to move. Quite the opposite – it is one where if you placed just a little energy into it, would come clear apart.
However, the latter is a rather stickier web. One which becomes stickier as you try to free yourself from it. Unless your karmic contract is over.

Tonight I am not speaking to those who find themselves in contract with another, a group or relationship of any kind. These ones cannot be considered free entirely. And therefore not altogether able to freely choose and self-determine.
I am speaking to these one who have ensured their own ‘stuckness’. Those ones for whom the comfort zone of the relationship/job has become more like the comforter. That which provides a nice, warm and cosy feeling of protection when you go to sleep with it.

But, beloved friends, it is also one that can keep you in a drugged and drowsy state of acceptance also. Are you with me here? It is to these many people who’s fear of moving forward acts as the anchor in life.

By not exercising self-determination, this is not freeing you or accelerating your life’s objectives in any way. Do you realize this? Do you realize you will leave your bodies and will have one main wish? That you took that opportunity when it came around to better advance yourself, or seized that moment which could have provided you with deep fulfillment. But there was always risk involved, as your personality, ego and subconscious perceived it, and so you stopped yourself.

Now, let me tell you. The most ardent desire of most souls who have left the earth plane after a lifetime, usually possess regrets and a desire to do it ‘all over again’. And so we do –over and over and over…

But why should this be? When all we need do to determine ourselves is face who we really are. And do what we, our souls/higher selves, set out to have us do in this lifetime.

Yes, easier said than done. For the human mind and psyche is a complex affair.
What can we do to better acquaint ourselves with its trickery? We can begin by observing our reactions, firstly, to anything new or different that life throws at us. We can watch our emotional responses and begin to familiarize ourselves with how we feel about change.

This is an excellent starting place. Another thing pertinent to how you feel about change is to see how comfortable or not you are about changing your mind on a particular belief or subject.
Watch to see exactly how your body re-acts and the emotional responses your conversations with others brings. If you are capable of continuing the topic in a manner where you feel contained (nor surpressed) within, you are not threatened. If you feel yourself to experience an emotional charge of the negative variety – be it anger, fear, outrage or any other type of resistance – you will obviously be re-acting as one who is threatened by the exchange. Now it is up to you to explore exactly what it was that upset you, and why.

All this should begin to give you some idea of your level of flexibility and oppenness or not when it comes to shifting your personal limiting patterns.

Evolution is not a race, beloved people. Yet, lifetime after lifetime is spent running around in circles regularly, chasing your own tail. And, upon reviewing the life, it is most often FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real) that is the major setback for not having fulfilled upon the soul self’s intentions. You see, this can mess all plans up for the life.

Shellee-Kim Gold works with the process of EmoAlchemy as a tool to resolving personal obstacles, activating DNA codes and accelerating personal integration to survive the current Earth times. Using this to help transform her life for the past decade, she is assisted in helping others with channeled information from the Ascended Masters, galactic embodied beings and those dwelling in the Inner Earth.

Email: goldalchemy@gr8.co.za

The Shifting Sands of Drifting Time(lines)

THE SHIFTING SANDS OF DRIFTING TIMELINES

I was in my garden contemplating the stars one evening at the end of January, when one of my Gags (galactic ascension guides) began giving me the following info: ‘Because you have chosen a particular timeline, other timelines will start collapsing around you now’. Whaaaat? I wanted to know. ‘Although it doesn’t make much sense right now, you will begin feeling as if the past 17 years have been little more than a dream (or a nightmare) as you begin your journey on this new timeline’.

And while I’m not aware of any new timeline, what I was aware of even before January is a sense of time both speeding up and slowing down alternately. Depending on my own states of perception, life since the start of this year has felt both like a year has already passed in some instances, as well as just a single month in other instances.

But since I returned from a travel assignment at the end of the first week in June, things have been getting and feeling a whole lot stranger. Going alone (and I usually travel with a partner) was profound in itself until I realized there was an entire inner journeying that was to accompany me on this solo outer one! And that’s why all my regular travel companions had seemingly let me down.
In short, I was to have one enormous release through a very physical experience and in complete solitude, I was told after the fact. And apparently one which my HS (Higher Self) needed to have me offload very far away – like 450 kms - from my own home! Well, mission accomplished…

Yet, a few days after arriving home and in the early hours, I was woken by an urgent masculine voice practically shouting at me (to get my attention?): ‘You have left the 3rd dimension’.

Two or three friends were concerned about me and my physical? Safety during that week, but didn’t know why. It also then made sense as to why I had been so freaked out by the possibility of dying on our permanently-crazy roads on that trip. I had even instructed my cat-hating mother about what to do with feline family, should I be leaving this dimension, I told her. I seriously felt like I was about to leave, but perceived it as we so often do, as a physical death. When, in fact, it was a dimensional departure.

Several days after that dream, I came across confirmation via someone else’s channeling on how we, collectively, were leaving or had left this dimension! Always an enormous relief and affirmation when this kind of synchronicity happens. And it does – often.

I’ve just never been able to get my head around the concept of timelines, but something’s now starting to gel within. I’ve long understood how we humans have ‘cut up’ time into past/present/future for our own ease of living in this dimension, to the point where we’ve shot ourselves in our collective foot, by so doing. And subsequently limited ourselves in so many ways, as a result.

So here’s how I’m starting to understand timelines: you energise a particular path/timeline by feeding it energy, passion/desire and intention. Once you stop feeding it and no longer focus on it or outgrow it, that timeline can fade out, bringing forward another one. And yes, one that may not contain that tall, dark stranger who the psychic you saw last year predicted. Probably because she/he was seeing a timeline that you no longer needed or stopped feeding energy to.

Remember that movie The Butterfly Effect? And how many timelines and subsequently different outcomes each story/person possessed? Everything seemed to depend on which person’s choices dominated in the group that determined all of these. I would add that each of our ever-changing choices is what does or doesn’t shift our own personal timelines.

Anyway, suffice it to say, my inner landscape has been feeling both moggy and muggy since my trip. However, this sinking-in-a-consciousness-of-quicksand feeling, with a sense of nothing to hang on to, has escalated in intensity during the past few days.

On Saturday (day before the Solstice) I switched on my computer at 2.22! But..and here’s the weird part, the clock reversed back in time by a minute the next time I glanced up. And then innocently proceeded forward as usual. Or how about receiving text messages (many) minutes before they’re supposedly sent? Or this? When I looked at the time this morning it said 9.43 am. Great, I thought, I’ve got 15 minutes to prep for my call, happening at 10am. When I glanced up at it again it was…9.20am!!

This has happened to me before – 12 years ago. A whole other story, but the gist of it was this: I was on a trip on a particularly notorious stretch of road with an ex partner. And time literally disappeared, got gobbled up into some black hole for 45 minutes. When we 'returned', two songs on our tape had passed – the equivalent of 10 or 12 minutes - we resumed our chat and signboards continued announcing how many miles remaining to the nearest town. It was like we had left that dimension temporarily while we were still chatting. We both immediately felt completely ‘spaced out’ and needed to stop and ground ourselves with a drink. The spaced out feeling continued well into the evening for me, with a long hot soak not even properly restoring me.

That night at the hotel we were eerily served confirmation of our extraordinary experience. There had been an enormous car accident earlier, we were told, involving a pile up of numerous vehicles. And it involved the very spot and time we should have passed it. We would have been caught up in the middle of this mega-accident had we not expanded/contracted our time-space experience on that bit of road at that specific time. Albeit unconsciously and with the help of a team of IF's (invisible friends). Assuming the entire incident wasn't orchestrated by them in the first place. We were both shocked to the core, yet also unsurprised.

So, if time-space as we know it is in the process of collapsing, I suppose the following would also stand to reason. I’m having increasing difficulty (the past couple of weeks) in identifying where the majority of my thoughts/emotions/psychic feelings/sensations are coming from. I ask myself: Was that feeling one I received in a dream or somewhere else? Was that thought one I heard coming from my guides? Did I read that somewhere or did I think that myself in one of my many daydreams?

What I’m saying is I’m starting to feel that the whole mish-mash of my once separately-identifiable energetic bodies is being suctioned into this current quicksand consciousness of mine, like one indiscernible blob. Scary, but exciting stuff! Mostly because I know this moggy, murky state can’t stay this way, but has to be becoming something else…
Either that, or I have it all wrong and this really is the first sign of early dementia.
Well, I’m off to my photographic club meeting. And guess what tonight’s theme is? Departure!

Happy riding those stellar waves
Shellee-Kim

The Coming Earth Realities by Lady Nada 19/4/09

A Channelled Chat with Shellee-Kim Gold

Good day beloved ones. A new time is upon us. A time where many will be in a position to begin fulfilling that which they came to earth to fulfill. The energetic waves that are currently cracking earth open are having the most powerful effect on everything that lives.

Stellar waves of immense proportion are acting as catalysts to allow for both humanity and earth’s shift into an entirely new way of being. This manifests as the power of tremendous change.

In the human experience, this change can be perceived to be ‘good’ or ‘bad’, depending on the inner preparations made thus far and depending on the resistance or flow to and with such change, as it occurs. Call it an etheric whirlwind, if you like.

We speak of this today, beloveds, due to the state of chaos we see on earth. There are many around who have a sense of doom and gloom. They are ones, who at some level, are holding steadfast to this notion. Even if it is not conscious. Because ‘better the devil you know, than the one you don’t’ for these ones. The change required to free themselves of fear is something these ones have not chosen for this lifetime.

Others yet again may deeply understand the nature of fear intellectually and are in the process of trying to free themselves of it. This would be another grouping.

Then there are those for whom the beliefs of certain moral and ethical values are priority, fixed and chosen – whether these be of the religious or New Age group varieties. It matters not. For, in truth, the same dynamics and relationship with the Self exist across them all.

And for these ones, the more often things go ‘wrong’ in the life, the more energy and attention is placed on the ritual or philosophy as a means of finding salvation for the Self.

And then there is the Heaven on Earth grouping – those who have held steadfast to a path of shifting the Self from the inside out. These ones have done their inner work sufficiently, and raised their vibrations enough to enjoy what this dimension will shortly be offering them. These are ones who have, in many instances, made the greatest sacrifices in their lives.

As a result, there are numerous factions of humanity now in the process of separating from each other as a result of those states which their consciousness currently occupies. All of these are based on past choices made or not, beloveds.

In a way, therefore, there are several dimensions of existence both splitting apart and formulating right now upon the physical earth.

And so we see many will live alongside each other but be occupying vastly different dimensions. What this means in practical reality, is that some will perceive grand new happenings on earth, such as those occupying the 5^th and 7^th Dimensions, while for others it will literally go over their heads, as it is simply not their reality. Those who’ve chosen the higher dimensions will also witness happenings of a denser nature playing out on earth without it affecting them negatively.

An example for those whose reality is the 3^rd and 4^th dimensions might be people you know ‘disappearing’ around you. Now you see them, now you don’t. Due to collapsing timelines, beloveds, nor will it be a case of missing someone who is not there. As in many instances, it will feel as if the ‘missing’ person never existed in your reality. As strange and contradictory as this might sound to you now.

Explaining this is not designed to sow seeds of fear and division in any way amongst the populations of earth, beloveds. Rather, it is an outline of things to come so that ones might be given the choice to prepare accordingly.

We say there is no path chosen that is better or worse than another. This period on earth affords a rare opportunity to crack out of the shell of fear or live within its cosy, but confined space until the next cycle of opportunity comes forth.

Each timeline/dimension will bring forth exactly what has been chosen by inhabitants of the respective groupings. And so the Creator and Universal law is always fair, completely honouring the free-will decision of each one. And this is exactly why you all chose the experiences you have on this jewel planet.

And so we would like to say that your earth experience and reality is, indeed, a subjective one. One that is entirely based on your own creation of it. And although you have heard this many times from many sources in the past, we put a slightly different spin on it today. By saying it is not what you do, think or practise alone that determines the outcome of your reality and subsequent dimensional existence, but also how you are able to match this with the intentions of your Soul Self.

Life on earth is about to become very interesting. And although many are suffering upon it, there are many that look on from our realms who would wish to be in your shoes for the experiences and opportunities it offers at the level of soul growth.

Important to know is that there is never any judgement on your choices and our support from the Lighted realms is merely a thought and request away. That never changes. In fact, many more potential helpers from the Lighted realms gather round at this time to be of service to you. We do need for you to understand, however, in accordance with the law of Free Will, that we cannot come to assist until requested by you.

With great upliftment and love during these exciting earth times, it is I, Lady Nada, saying thank you for your time and attention, and bidding you farewell.

Shellee-Kim Gold works with the process of EmoAlchemy as a tool to resolving personal obstacles, activating DNA codes and accelerating integration to survive the current Earth times. Using this has helped transform her life during the past decade. Shellee-Kim is assisted in helping others with information from the Ascended Masters, galactic embodied beings and those dwelling in the inner Earth. While she has not yet mastered bi-location, all that’s needed to keep her going is the thought of a cosmic cup of coffee in a starship with her inner Earth brother!

Email: goldalchemy@gr8.co.za

The Value Of The Dark - St Germain

A Channelled Chat with Shellee-Kim Gold

Good morning beloved people. It is a great honour to speak with you this day. There have been many hiccups of late around the time of ‘events’ beginning on your plane.

We would like to speak with you a little of these delays, so that hope and fortitude might be conveyed to you. It was not foreseen the Dark would put up this level of resistance to the changes they had been forewarned about. This, combined with people turning a blind eye and a deaf ear to their activities has resulted in the course of action shortly to manifest.

We see there is no other option for the way things now need to play themselves out. A choice has been made unconsciously by humanity as to how the final hand will by played. It is not one we would have wished for you. However, it is one in which greatly accelerated learning and understanding will transpire. And it is these lessons and subsequent soul growth you are after in the experience of duality. We of these realms are allowing this because we believe it is never too late to awaken and there is much to be gained from the coming experiences for each of you.

The Dark in physical and non-physical embodiment are on a course of annihilation, but this does not stop any of their last-ditch efforts to take the ship down with them. There still remains some belief that they are able to change the course of events by their actions and their version of ‘power’, but this is not to be. In the meantime, it is business as usual for the majority of you.

We wish to draw your attention now to the many wolves in sheep’s clothing walking amongst you. These one are to be found in every sphere of human activity – from business and politics to those in the helping professions, including those offering spiritually inclined services. You see, there are many who consciously walk with the Light, but unconsciously have given over to agreements with the Dark. And so there is a dichotomy at work. Most of these are in complete unawareness of that which walks with them and operates through them. And we have seen this occurring more intensely in recent years.

How and why does this happen when someone is consciously practicing working with Light principles? While there may be a commitment to work with Light consciously, the many other aspects of each human being are at play etherically, in other dimensions and in parallel existences. Remember, ‘you’ are just a small portion of the total ‘you’ that exists. And agreements made without your conscious understanding and permission are entered into by you ones with many who wish not to see the success of your Ascension on earth. Without the conscious understanding of that which exists etherically, the parts of you that are involved and the constant interaction you are having with other dimensional beings is never brought to the surface of your conscious mind for either recognition or clearing.

The danger here is many on Earth have in the same recent time period experienced psychic occurrences, telepathic channeling abilities, spiritual gifts and a multitude of other new healing abilities come forth. You, who have experienced this, have assumed all of this must be of the Light. However, this is not necessarily so. And we see you ones accepting what comes to you, usually without any questioning as to it’s source. The mass manipulation of the Dark has seen to this. Humanity’s and many Lightworkers good surface intentions fall by the quayside and to unconscious and subconscious harm when all parts of the Self are not ‘owned’ consciously.

Being multi-dimensional beings and only being able to access a small portion of your entire, huge selves is part of this dilemma. However, with application of certain techniques you Lightworkers need not be led by the nose ‘down the garden path’ by those who wish to feed parasitically off your Light, ensuring you remain at a denser vibratory rate.

The Dark feast off your own unresolved unforgivenesses, amongst other things. Of Self and others. These emotions act as open doorways that they can easily latch onto within you. Healing and releasing those parts of you means these doorways will no longer exist to tempt them in.

Understanding the vastness of your energy and as and how it interacts with other dimensions and beings is hugely important in your experience of duality on earth. For you are here to heal through synthesising all these many hidden aspects of your Self.

One of the ways in which fragmenting/giving power away can be noticed is through the ‘sudden’ onset of such ailments as mental disorders, where feelings of vulnerability and dysfunction threaten to overtake a once reasonably-stable existence. Instead of using this a clue to understanding what may be occurring with other dimensional entities, many of you prefer to numb your minds and psychic centres so you feel no more ‘negative’ e-motion (energy in motion).

Such an action works well in the favour of the Dark for they can continue parasitically leeching off your energy field without you suspecting much at all, with your attention diverted to and bound within the symptoms.

Another tell-tale sign of having unconsciously invited the Dark in is the subtle encouragement of divorcing yourself from your feelings. Anyone who tells you your feelings – be they ‘positive’ or ‘negative’ as per your value judgements of such on earth –are of no significance and to let them go (ie suppress them) is telling you a bald-faced lie. And is certainly not aiding your soul progress in any way, but rather helping you retard it. Of course, you have allowed this by trusting that person and choosing to give your power to them in the first instance.

Beloveds, it is through the very act of feeling your feelings as often as possible that you allow for a recognition, an acceptance and a subsequent healing of some of these divisions within to occur. It is also through feeling your feelings that we are able to reach you and assist you more easily.

Denying yourselves of acknowledging your pain is doing yourselves a great soul disservice. And so the Dark use ones themselves that have not healed of their own traumas, but rather stuffed them out of sight (and out of mind?). It is often at the time of, or shortly after, great traumas have occurred in these ones lives that they find themselves in possession of these new ‘gifts’.

The Dark are well-versed at striking at exactly the most vulnerable moments, and in so doing fool the recipient into a false sense of healing also.

Difficult as it is in duality to know what lies beneath the conscious mind, we urge you to use your discernment at all times. Be aware of who is asking you to ‘let your emotions go’ and why, who is telling you that hope and faith are all that are needed to survive the coming times, and who amongst you talk of using passive techniques such as meditation and ‘being positive’ alone to grow.

While meditation is excellent in moderation, as with all things, we would rather you chose to explore the very parts of you that frighten you and that make you feel the very emotions that you would rather run from.

It is this acknowledgement of the uncomfortable emotions that show your Higher Self and your guides you are willing to grow yourself to the next level. I repeat: there can be no growth for those who deny ‘bad’ feelings. Life in the polarity of living in Earth’s duality is about embracing all parts of you to bring about true balance. Not to split off further parts of your psychic and emotional bodies by denying their existence and inadvertently inviting the Dark in.

It is in embracing and integrating the Dark that an energetic shift into greater balance within occurs, resulting in more peace and an increase in your Light quotient/further activated DNA.

Note: The ‘Dark’ refers to both negative and lower thought forms we possess, in addition to actual entities.

Shellee-Kim Gold works with the process of EmoAlchemy as a tool to resolving personal obstacles and imbalances, activating DNA codes and accelerating integration to survive the current Earth times. Using this has helped transform her life during the past decade. Shellee-Kim is assisted in helping others with information from the Ascended Masters, galactic embodied beings and those dwelling in the inner Earth. While she has not yet mastered bi-location, all that’s needed to keep her going is the thought of a cosmic cup of coffee in a starship with her inner Earth brother!

Email: goldalchemy@gr8.co.za