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I AM Present
DESTINY IS A CHOICE
It's here! The ascension times are upon us. And both a simple and complex choice is at hand for us all.

We can choose Love or Fear.
If we choose Love, we also commit to loving ourselves, owning all of us in the process. Without this energetic shift within, we cannot fully shine as co-creative human masters and walk free in our sovereignty. This is also a prerequisite for 5th Dimensional living.
If we choose Fear, we remain in the cosy confines of the 3 rd Dimensional matrix. Here we don't need to confront our shadow selves or take responsibility for all of us. This choice naturally means we will also need to wait for the next cycle of ascension opportunity to come around again for us.
Ascending in physical form isn't a given. And an intellectual or emotional desire alone won't take you there.
Subsequently 'heaven' and 'hell' are both states of being right here on earth, manifesting through our very own consciousness choices.
And because of current collapsing timelines all is unfolding in greater polarity right now.

What are you choosing...?


ABOUT THIS BLOG:
Expanding our consciousness to make the leap into the 5th Dimension is an energetic one. My experiences and path of personal growth have shown the many boulders on the road to success. Fact is, it's difficult to accept and integrate truth within, if you're not aware of the subtle forces that oppose it and the Light. Ones which subsequently block us from choosing our highest possible lives/outcomes. And most often, without our conscious awareness or consent.
Therefore, some of the related components I'll be exploring will include: understanding our slave mentality and how to break free; our galactic connection to both STO (service to other) extra-terrestrials and STS (service to self) ET's; the ongoing psy-ops programming by the Illuminati to keep us at war with self and each other; how lower thought form entities feed off our power, keeping us fragmented; our Inner Earth family and the Lemurian/Atlantean connection; relationship mirrors to Shadow/Inner Child healing on the road to wholeness.
All this ties in with the coming revelations to be disclosed to humanity - who we really are, where we came from and where we're going...

In magic, madness and mystery!
Shellee-Kim

Monday, December 31, 2012

Ex-Satanist Details Illuminati Spiritual Plan

Morning All!

I would never give Henry Makow the time of day, being an obvious out and proud misogynist(who likely has also been overtly or covertly government psy ops exploited) of his ex Save The Males site. To know where he personally comes from in encouraging gender separation, you'd need to explore his past writings in some depth. But I came across this piece from there on Before It's News and must state my source.

Be that as it may, here's an interesting piece to highlight further manipulation of the mind via fear and confusion in the guise of being spiritually discerning in the Christian context.

Written by someone called Mastral (M-astral...really?) - the entire piece is an excellent example of the planting of further seeds of mixed messages in the minds of seekers looking to make some sense of the times we are in and what's immediately ahead for us. But we've come to know this perspective as typical of Christians pumping bible ideology and from evangelists that Mastral proclaims himself as.

Some of the be-lie-fs herein that should put you on Red Alert include Mastral's reference to:

'demonic spirits materialize in the guise of benevolent
beings' (a fear-based warning to ensure your hearts and minds are as closed as tight as possible when the planet's people ARE exposed to contact from benevolent space brethren?) twisting who and what ancient Egyptian mystery school members were about and the black and white approach to communicating with other dimensions. Including mixing in the assumption that spiritual gifts are 'classic occult tricks' (everything depends on the intention of the one communicating or using the gifts).

In the latter this is a biggie for Christians. The premise being that if you're in communication with beings from other dimensions, you have automatically opened yourself to possession by demons. Particularly if you've NOT given your life to Jesus Christ.

And although this author tries to convince the reader that this sort of communication is commonly aligned with blood sacrifices and drugs (established Illuminati practises), nothing like this actually occurs with those who commune with authentic Realms Of Light beings. Yet the author is intent on sending out contradictory messages to confuse here.
As with his reference to kundalini awakening also being 'demonisation'.

All failing to address the one important issue - that opening yourself knowingly or not to what I call the Darkies (on and off world varieties), lives in your own very unaddressed ego imbalances. And the very thing all Christians are notorious for ignoring because it means the taking back of personal responsibility and ownership of all parts of yourself. In direct conflict with Christianity which says giving your life to Jesus Christ along with all your 'problems' will take all the pain and suffering of your life away.
This ties in nicely with a piece I wrote a couple of years ago about what is at work when Christians 'give their lives to Jesus Christ'. Will repost this next time.

In my opinion, this author person is still very much knowingly/not a controlled Illuminati/psy operative employee - whether parading Christian be-lie-fs or any other.

See what you feel. And it would be great to have your comments for discussion.



And A Happy New Year to you all

Love Shellee-Kim

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Ex-Satanist Details Illuminati Spiritual Plan

(Portal earth, from Stargate)

The goal of Satanists is to eventually have demonic spirits materialize in the guise of benevolent
beings. A former Illuminati tell us how they will do it through the use of
rituals and dimension portals.
Marcos writes:


“Why would the elite spend hundreds of years studying these rituals, gematria, numerology, etc? Why do some spend their whole lives studying this crap ? If it didn’t work at all, they would just get tired of it and go spend their millions in Monaco.

Many witnesses say spirits really appear. I personally know people who have seen and even talked to them. Many are very down-to-earth people (a software engineer for eg).

We live in world where people worship a wall where water has formed an image of Mary or a toast with the face of Jesus.

I wonder what would happen if these spiritual apparitions become commonplace. People wlll need another explanation apart from the one given by the media, about the benevolent aliens.


[Editor's Note: I reserve judgement and present this material for discussion. I am not sure I agree that meditation and opening of chakras are demonic.]
by Marcos
(henrymakow.com)


A recurring theme in TV and movies is the concept of portals that send travelers from one dimension or universe to another.
For example, “Stargate” presented this concept as well as aliens and spiritual ascension.
Even the Smurfs wait for a specific celestial alignment in order to open a portal to our world.
A book, Rastros do Oculto, from Brazilian author, Daniel Mastral, may explain the recurrence of this theme in the media.
Mastral used to be a high ranking Satanist, bred specifically to lead the group in Brazil, but instead he turned to Christ and became an evangelical.
In the book, he states that occultism, magick and Satanism seek the opening of portals and communication with evil fallen angels, or demons.
The accumulated esoteric knowledge of the ages was passed down by demons in the form of rituals, in order to open these portals and alienate people from God, assuring their damnation. Misery likes company.
The author tells us that in Ancient Egypt, Satan promised an alliance to a few. These people, who became the Mystery School members, are known as the Brotherhood of the “Children of the Fire”.

According to Mastral, there are two kinds of portals: portals to the body and portals to Earth.
PORTALS TO THE BODY
Portals to the body allow demons to interact and control humans.
The most basic ritual is channeling, where a medium lets a spirit talk through his mouth, dispensing counseling and commands.
Blood sacrifices, symbols, music, drugs and special meditation permit a higher level of demonic attachment and consequently, more spiritual powers to the follower.
These powers are the classic occult tricks of divination, telepathy (in fact messages delivered by demons), creation of fire, telekinesis, etc. These are not enhancements on the individual, but merely deeds done by spirits to look like the person has “evolved”.
Much of the doctrine of chakras and the awakening of the kundalini spirit (total demonization) is in truth opening of bodily portals to demons.
More advanced followers can leave their bodies and perform astral projection, where they move around in their spirits, while their bodies are resting.
In this condition, they can also visit and interact with demonic spirits.
The whole hierarchy in Satanism depends on power and the level of the demon who is “residing” with the person, his protector.
Usually people with long family ties with the occult have the most powerful demons by their sides. Strong demons can indeed inflict disease and create accidents, and fights among satanists are common.
Fortunately, they can’t harm true Christians, who are protected by the Holy Spirit and angels from God.
PORTALS TO EARTH
Portals to Earth are more complicated. According to Mastral, reality is comprised of nine dimensions which overlap in space but are separated in practice.
He gives us the metaphor of an elevator. Spirits from more elevated dimensions can go down to lower floors, but no one can go up.
We live in the fourth dimension. Below us there are several powerful demons who have been imprisoned by God as judgement. Lucifer is the only evil spirit to visit the ninth and highest plane.
Some portals are temporary and some, the most important ones, are permanent. Temporary portals depend on exact timing and special alignment of the dimensions, and this knowledge is beyond our science or perception.
That’s why occultists obsess with numerology, gematria and astrology; for these are the tools that allow the calculations to be performed in order to profit from the portals to contact high level spirits.
THE NEED FOR BLOOD SACRIFICE

Evil spirits cannot manifest in the middle of Fifth Avenue. They need the strong energy created in blood rituals in order to materialize. But once the ritual ends, they must go. More stable contact can only be achieved through portals.

Permanent portals are the main objective of Satanists (they like to be called children of Lucifér, with stress in the last syllable).
According to Mastral, there are 90 of them, and 72 have been opened by the turn of the century. Nine more have been opened by 2006 and the last the last nine will be in 2013. The exact conditions for the openings of these portals are known only to few witches of the highest rank.
We can expect that they require huge amounts of human sacrifice and psychic energy. A great honor given to a Satanists is to be able to pass through one of these portals and meet demonic powers in their “home turf”. In this process, there is a temporal shift, with minutes on Earth meaning hours in the other plane (much like what happens in “alien” abductions).
The opening of these portals is the reason we have seen since the 1950s so many spiritual manifestations such as UFOs, light orbs and apparitions, sometimes in plain daylight.
Satan’s hope is that with the opening of the last portals, powerful demons from lower dimensions will be able to come to earth and eventually, interact with humankind. They will not present themselves as demons, but as benevolent aliens and evolved spirits of light.
HYBRIDS AND DNA
Mastral tell us that some human individuals are indeed empowered by changes in their DNA. This can happen in three ways: demonic sexual spirits (incubus and succubus) can transport semen among humans; a demon possessed man can fertilize a woman, or, very rarely, a couple can pass through a portal and have sex in the other side.
In all cases, the higher energy affects the embryo’s DNA in a way that makes it easier for the individual to interact with spirits and be a channel for more powerful psychic powers.

Normal people can’t stand perfect possession from high level demons, the body would die, and that’s why channelers are always exhausted after a “session”.

The Satanists’ goal is to eventually perfect a human who can stand a complete possession from a very high demon and exhibit powers never seen on Earth. This person may even exist today, and he will be the antichrist.
CONCLUSION
Mastral’s explanations match what we know about Satanism and Mystery Schools. Even if you don’t believe in this weird spiritual reality, you should be very concerned that our globalist elite does, and that they require human blood for their plans.
We live in the age of Alice Bailey’s Externalization of the Hierarchy, when centuries-old occult secrets will be revealed. The bad guys know that we know what they are doing, and we should expect open war soon.
However, this is not a material war; it is a spiritual one: we have God on our side and his holy angels to protect us. Mastral himself decided to leave the group when he faced the fact that demons could not touch Christians.
Satan knows he will be defeated, and wants to take as many as he can with him, while deceiving them with the promise of victory over God.
Ultimately, we have to remember Jesus’ words: “I am the Way [...] none comes to the Father but through Me”. God has given us a “portal” to a higher dimension and perfect evolution, through the sacrifice of His Son.
Fortunately, no rituals, sacrifices or slavery from our part is required. That’s the secret Satan doesn’t want us to know.
2012-12-28 10:06:11

Source: http://www.henrymakow.com/ex-satanist-details-illuminati-spiritual-plan.html


Friday, December 28, 2012

A Declaration Of Oneness Consciousness - Irvin Laszlo

I found this on RumourMillNews recently - a worthy reminder as we go into our new year!

Love Shellee-Kim

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The New Reality - A Declaration of Oneness Consciousness

Posted By: X_Hermes [Send E-Mail]
Date: Tuesday, 25-Dec-2012 06:26:11
This splendid declaration comes from Irvin Laszlo, the founder of the Club of Budapest and was circulated by e-mail a few weeks back. On this day of celebration - the first Christmas after the ending of the Mayan Calendar and all its significance for a change of ages - it seems highly relevant to contemplate these words. And Happy Christmas - whatever that means to you - to one and all! Xavier Hermes

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1. I am part of the world. The world is not outside of me, and I am not outside of the world. The world is in me, and I am in the world.

2. I am part of nature, and nature is part of me. I am what I am in my communication and communion with all living things. I am an irreducible and coherent whole with the web of life on the planet.

3. I am part of society, and society is part of me. I am what I am in my communication and communion with my fellow humans. I am an irreducible and coherent whole with the community of humans on the planet.

4. I am more than a skin-and-bone material organism: my body, and its cells and organs are manifestations of what is truly me: a self-sustaining, self-evolving dynamic system arising, persisting and evolving in interaction with everything around me.

5. I am one of the highest, most evolved manifestations of the drive toward coherence and wholeness in the universe. All systems drive toward coherence and wholeness in interaction with all other systems, and my essence is this cosmic drive. It is the same essence, the same spirit that is inherent in all the things that arise and evolve in nature, whether on this planet or elsewhere in the infinite reaches of space and time.

6. There are no absolute boundaries and divisions in this world, only transition points where one set of relations yields prevalence to another. In me, in this self-maintaining and self-evolving coherence- and wholeness-oriented system, the relations that integrate the cells and organs of my body are prevalent. Beyond my body other relations gain prevalence: those that drive toward coherence and wholeness in society and in nature.

7. The separate identity I attach to other humans and other things is but a convenient convention that facilitates my interaction with them. My family and my community are just as much “me” as the organs of my body. My body and mind, my family and my community, are interacting and interpenetrating, variously prevalent elements in the network of relations that encompasses all things in nature and the human world.

8. The whole gamut of concepts and ideas that separates my identity, or the identity of any person or community, from the identity of other persons and communities are manifestations of this convenient but arbitrary convention. There are only gradients distinguishing individuals from each other and from their environment and no real divisions and boundaries. There are no “others” in the world: we are all living systems and we are all part of each other.

9. Attempting to maintain the system I know as “me” through ruthless competition with the system I know as “you” is a grave mistake: it could damage the integrity of the embracing whole that frames both your life and mine. I cannot preserve my own life and wholeness by damaging that whole, even if damaging a part of it seems to bring me short-term advantage. When I harm you, or anyone else around me, I harm myself.

10. Collaboration, not competition, is the royal road to the wholeness that hallmarks healthy systems in the world. Collaboration calls for empathy and solidarity, and ultimately for love. I do not and cannot love myself if I do not love you and others around me: we are part of the same whole and so are part of each other.

11. The idea of “self-defense” even of “national defense,” needs to be rethought. Patriotism if it aims to eliminate adversaries by force, and heroism even in the well-meaning execution of that aim, are mistaken aspirations. A patriot and a hero who brandishes a sword or a gun is an enemy also to himself. Every weapon intended to hurt or kill is a danger to all. Comprehension, conciliation and forgiveness are not signs of weakness; they are signs of courage.

12. “The good” for me and for every person in the world is not the possession and accumulation of personal wealth. Wealth, in money or in any material resource, is but a means for maintaining myself in my environment. As exclusively mine, it commandeers part of the resources that all things need to share if they are to live and to thrive. Exclusive wealth is a threat to all people in the human community. And because I am a part of this community, in the final count it is a threat also to me, and to all who hold it.

13. Beyond the sacred whole we recognize as the world in its totality, only life and its development have what philosophers call intrinsic value; all other things have merely instrumental value: value insofar as they add to or enhance intrinsic value. Material things in the world, and the energies and substances they harbor or generate, have value only if and insofar they contribute to life and wellbeing in the web of life on this Earth.

14. Every healthy person has pleasure in giving: it is a higher pleasure than having. I am healthy and whole when I value giving over having. The true measure of my accomplishment and excellence is my readiness to give. Not the amount of what I give is the measure of my accomplishment and excellence, but the relation between what I give, and what my family and I need to live and to thrive.

15. A community that values giving over having is a community of healthy people, oriented toward thriving through empathy, solidarity, and love among its members. Sharing enhances the community of life, while possessing and accumulating creates demarcation, invites competition, and fuels envy. The share-society is the norm for all the communities of life on the planet; the have-society is typical only of modern-day humanity, and it is an aberration.

16. I acknowledge my role and responsibility in evolving a planetary consciousness in me, and by example in others around me. I have been part of the aberration of human consciousness in the modern age, and now wish to become part of the evolution that overcomes the aberration and heals the wounds inflicted by it. This is my right as well as my duty, as a conscious member of a conscious species on a precious and now critically endangered planet.

Ervin Laszlo



Thursday, December 27, 2012

Weird Sunlight In Brazil

Hello All!

While Russia/Siberia are experiencing -59 degrees celsius temperatures currently, the sun continues to demonstrate increasingly-weird anomalies.

Both bizarre and beautiful, watch this few minutes worth of a torch beam sunlight reflecting in numerous directions in Brazil. As we go on, we should be expecting further unusual anomalies and behaviour. So keep watching the skies with an open mind.

Oh, and don't forget to write off the shills/trolls' diversionary attempts to underplay and dismiss this where I found it on Lunatic Outpost. It's another heavily-infiltrated shadow global government site, despite (and because of) interesting news items found there regularly. Therefore, read with your inner discernment on alert.

http://lunaticoutpost.com/Topic-Weird-sunlight-in-Brasil?page=1

Strange Sunlight In Brazil


In magic, madness and mystery
Shellee-Kim





Monday, December 24, 2012

Kundalini Rising Symptoms by Denise Le Fay

Morning All!

In light of my yesterday's personal comments about recent symptoms, here's Denise Le Fay's take on what's been happening and why. I've often found her and Lisa Renee to be profoundly helpful to understanding, and therefore getting a more balanced perspective on this front. Although written some time ago, it is still most applicable.

As stated before, I don't agree with or relate to all that Denise puts out and who she chooses to follow, but this pertinent information doesn't fall into either of those categories.

Hope this provides you with both clarity and some solace.

Love

Shellee-Kim

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GUESS WHAT -THEY’RE KUNDALINI RISING ASCENSION SYMPTOMS


By Denise Le Fay



I see daily Search terms on my Stats page here from increasing numbers of people searching for information about why they’re feeling inner body vibrations; why they’re smelling smokey burning incense; why they’re having excessive inner heat (hot flashes) in their bodies that radiate outward and so on. I thought it was time to try again to help more people being activated now to better understand what they’re experiencing and why.
Over the years I’ve written several articles about the many Ascension symptoms, about Kundalini rising and its symptoms, and about the Rewiring of the Body and Brain. The bottom-line is that all of these symptoms, all of these unusual experiences are the same Process. They all are Ascension symptoms, Kundalini symptoms, because they’re one and the same thing.


What better, faster way to transmute all our lower frequencies and unresolved, polarized, suppressed, ignored, wounded, fearful, traumatized, unprocessed and unloved parts than the intense Alchemical firestorm that Kundalini rising is? Why would mass numbers of people around the world all be having spontaneous, unsolicited Kundalini rising now? Because of the planetary and species Ascension Process. Why is the Ascension Process happening now in our lifetimes? Because the cycle is completing and it’s time to break free and evolve out from under the multidimensional negativity and suppression.
To help humanity with this rapid and compressed evolutionary process, higher dimensional Light energies are repeatedly released in Waves of Light (think Aquarian energy waves GUESS WHAT THEY’RE KUNDALINI RISING ASCENSION SYMPTOMS ) from the cosmos, the Milky Way Galactic Center, and our Sun (via solar flares, CME’s etc.) to trigger humanity and Earth to integrate polarities, purge, transmute, and transform energetically. In other words, to evolve/ascend to a higher level of consciousness and being.

ASCENSION KUNDALINI SYMPTOMS
These symptoms can last for many years for many people. Other people go through them or only some of them in shorter periods. Fear not.

repeated intense inner body heat “hot flashes”, hands and/or bottoms of feet extremely hot, spine, back, head, entire body heat
extreme sweating with every Kundalini hot flash
repeated cold flashes, inner body cold spots, certain chakra areas turn cold for periods
inner body electrical-like vibrations, buzzing, inner shaking, slowly moving inner energy vibrations
extra electricity in your body, constantly getting zapped when you touch things
muscle spasms, twitching, itching, strange sensations on or under the skin, nerve sensitivity
pains & pressures in areas of spine, pressures so intense it blows certain vertebra out-of-place
mental confusion, inability to focus mentally, temporary loss of certain words, names, terms etc.
sudden mood changes, intense anger, frustration, sadness, joy, bliss, repulsion of all things negative
going a little “crazy” for periods
uncontrollably voicing your extreme anger & repulsion over all things negative
clairvoyantly seeing lights, seeing other dimensional Beings
smelling smokey burning incense when none is physically there
clairaudiently hearing non-physical sounds, voices, words, clicks, buzzing, unrecognizable sounds
sudden waves of nausea
sudden waves of dizziness, sense of falling, sense of tipping over, dropping through the floor etc.
sudden onset of or increase of allergies
sudden onset of chemical sensitivity
severe sensitivity to sounds, smells, lights, heat, cold, energies, other people, lower energies, lower consciousness etc.
sudden eating/food changes, craving more protein foods, needing very light foods, small amounts, eating at different times etc.
difficulty digesting all foods, inability to drink alcohol, take drugs etc.
phases of diarrhea, bowel sensitivities, bloating, pains & pressures
severe belly bloat, swelling in the gut & upper diaphragm area, the “Buddha Belly” thing
intense phases of pain in the head, pressures in the head, skull sore and bruised feeling
inability to physically be around people and/or large groups of people
inability to function, need for privacy & quiet to survive all you’re living through
hair falling out, breaking, not growing, weak undernourished hair
nightmares, archetypal dreams, lucid dreams
positive & negative psychic experiences, psychic attacks while awake & asleep
sudden unexpected out-of-body experiences
repeatedly coming awake at specific times of the night–3:00, 3:33, 4:44, 5:55 AM etc.
inability to sleep, inability to stay asleep
needing to sleep and get out-of-body during the day, exhaustion naps etc.
profound physical exhaustion, emotional exhaustion, mental exhaustion
body weakness, muscle weakness, lethargy, achy body, bones, joints
hyper states, restless, edgy, can’t relax, can’t rest or be comfortable, mind races despite exhausted body
extreme emotional phases, crying, weeping, mourning, feeling love for all beings etc.
glorious changes and expansions in consciousness, perceptions, quantum knowing things vs. linear thinking
major ego dismantling

There are many more symptoms but you should have a sense of how intense, strange and multidimensional most of the Ascension Kundalini symptoms are. What’s really important about all this is that it’s happening to you and to increasing numbers of people every minute of every day now and why. Again, fear not because it’s a positive sign of our compressed evolution, our expanding consciousness and all the positive things that naturally comes with it.

Denise Le Fay

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Sunday, December 23, 2012

Latest Bout Of Symptoms



It's been another round of a particularly gruelling several months on the symptom front for me. How about you? And I really can't say how much is the wave, personal or the Earth Mother in it's effects.
I tried posting this very innocuous para in bold below to godlikeproductions and promptly got banned again in the process!

So pleased to see this thread and read of more effects of the wave coming through!
Mine started last Wednesday, but was then followed by severe brow/chakra pain and heavies, causing me to just want to sleep and sleep. Though wherever I drove and walked on Wednesday I saw butterflies. Many of them and of various colours. They would almost fly into me or narrowly miss my car windscreen.
But yesterday, Sunday, I woke up with a clarity, lightness and an enormous joy in my heart. I thought it was from the clearing of something personal and a (re)connection I've been 'gifted' with in the last week/two. Although those could be helping, maybe it's more of the wave energies hitting and I'm still feeling it this am...long may it last! Can you imagine walking through your every day feeling this way?



For the past nearly 3 months I've been subject to a cycle of another wave of wacky symptoms. All driving me slowly beserk, as usual. The cycle began with hot and cold feelings around my heart, alternating.
And then seemed to extend out to around my physical body - like some type of force field - also changing between a cool/cold feeling, then alternating with heat. Often causing me to have hot flushes, wake up sweating and more.

Some on GLP had similar experiences last week, I think it was. All this was accompanied by cycles of days at a time where I was (and still am a bit) feeling like my nervous system is under attack...from within!
Some of those symptoms being a trembling/shaking (dropping and breaking lots) hand shaking and a terrible sense of nervousness (which I'm not usually at all) and regular heart pounding and fluttering at intervals.
Then, cyclically, I also experienced Each time a cycle of this ended, it would feel like a complete relief to return to an inner calm.

Also, something that continued throughout all this and still does to a lesser degree are energy surges of buzzing all different places on the body, but particularly at the place of my ankles/calves. That doesn't bother me much as it’s not too invasive and low key.

As per the opening paragraph above, Sunday 16 December was also accompanied by weird light pinprick sensations on my hands and arms that felt like I was being hit by a type of etheric ‘rain’ of some kind, for want of a better description. And then days of seeing double digits on the clock from early morning until late afternoon.
These could also be kundalini-awakening or raising symptoms. I'll post someone else's take on these shortly.

Also, any stomach 'bugs', runs or similar disorders: this is apparently a result of protons hitting earth - and us. And I also had the runs for a few days.

Your sharing would be appreciated and, I'm sure, helpful to others too.

With love
Shellee-Kim

Addendum: The very dense energy began shifting out for me on Friday a bit.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Active Participation by Creator Source

Morning All

There's something wrong with my blog functioning. And so wasn't able to reply to a comment on the recent Tara -Winds of Change (in Channelled Chats).

Annonymous asked 'what happens if the plan changes again'?

Yes, it's possible that it could. Given the ever-changing circumstances here on earth and what we collectively generate. And if it does...so what? We must become reliant not on outcomes-based experiences that sway us hither and thither, but rather on our own inner compasses to guide us through. That is what personal mastery requires of us. Whether events such as these come to pass, are delayed or altered.

In magic, madness and mystery
Shellee-Kim

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ACTIVE PARTICIPATION by Creator Source


Through Shellee-Kim


13/12/12

9.40 am

Good morning beloved. It is Creator Source. I wish for you to take a short message. Will you do so?

SK: Certainly.

Indeed. Let us begin.
Please allow yourself to look around you. What is it you see in your world currently? What is it people are be-coming? Are they appearing to be more connected with their inner selves or less so? Are you? And what of it? How and what is it you feel you can bring to the lives of those you touch daily?

You believe - many of you – that this is a waiting period. A time of passivity and of preparation for what is to come. Preparation it is indeed. But I say to you now that the type of preparation needed is the kind that best serves others at this time.

Declare yourself as the light workers and warriors you say you are by practicing the principles of Light and helping to guide others with it.

Your world has fallen amuck to the forces of ruination and many are stuck in the ever-deepening quicksands of their own making. Please do take it upon yourself to give them a helping hand up and out where and when you see opportunities to do so. And where appropriate to do so.

This is how best you can prepare at this time, in addition to self-reflection as a commitment and necessary tool towards your personal mastery.

I AM Creator Source.

Friday, December 21, 2012

Active Preparation by Creator Source

Active Preparation by Creator Source

Through Shellee-Kim

13/12/12

9.40 am

Good morning beloved. It is Creator Source. I wish for you to take a short message. Will you do so?

SK: Certainly.

Indeed. Let us begin. Please allow yourself to look around you. What is it you see in your world currently? What is it people are be-coming? Are they appearing to be more connected with their inner selves or less so? Are you? And what of it? How and what is it you feel you can bring to the lives of those you touch daily?

You believe - many of you – that this is a waiting period. A time of passivity and of preparation for what is to come. Preparation it is indeed. But I say to you now that the type of preparation needed is the kind that best serves others at this time.

Declare yourself as the light workers and warriors you say you are by practicing the principles of Light and helping to guide others with it.

Your world has fallen amuck to the forces of ruination and many are stuck in the ever-deepening quicksands of their own making. Please do take it upon yourself to give them a helping hand up and out where and when you see opportunities to do so. And where appropriate to do so.

This is how best you can prepare at this time, in addition to self-reflection as a commitment and necessary tool towards your personal mastery.

I AM Creator Source.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Winds Of Change by Tara through Shellee-Kim

15/12/12

9.55 am

T: It is I, Tara. Hello beloved friend. Can we speak?

SK: I’d love to.

T: Things are about to get moving now in no uncertain terms. Indeed, the mother’s time has come. Are you prepared, beloveds? Inside and out?

It has been decided on that very shortly we are to make our presence known, very openly. Your skies will be filled with our Fleet’s vessels and many will look upon this in wonderment, in bewilderment. This is a necessary next step in the current plan. There were several scenarios, but this is the one we have decided to go with. The one that would potentially have the most positive impact upon the people of your world. The Dark will, of course, try their hand at creating distractions and diversions through their attempted psy ops plans, which will not succeed.

Now, let us discuss your arrival here on ship. There are some of you who are to be called and brought to ship slightly earlier than planned originally. A pre pre-preparation, if you like. It has become necessary due to the ever so slight change in plans that you, the forerunners, will help to implement. (I get an image of water flowing outwards from a level, down to the next level and the next…signifying the start of and the impact on all who will receive this energetic flow of Light/information wave).

For this time period, those of you in this group are to be given certain tools that will help both in your discernment of those around you and in their upliftment. These are very precious gifts of a higher dimensional nature, as has already been discussed in other messages. THESE ARE NOT TOYS AND ARE TO BE TREATED WITH THE UTMOST RESPECT. ( SK: I get that this applies to a small group of maybe up to 30 people).

Now, on to something else. Many on earth now have a new chance, a new opportunity that wasn’t present a few months ago. Due to all that has transpired recently this has created an even greater ease of transition for the choices of those remaining. And equally amongst those who are leaving for their own destinations of choice.

What this period has accomplished is a greater removal of the dross which disempowers the minds of men. Although you may not say this, looking around you and in your general interactions with the world at large. When the moment of impact occurs this will become clearer to you. And the subtle changes that have been accumulatively taking place during this past period will now more visibly begin to be seen in how people begin to USE THEIR MINDS. This is partly what we were aiming for. And much pressure will be removed from you ones, as a result.

This is really most wonderful news for you all. And so it is with pleasure I have brought this to you today. The winds of change are indeed upon us now.

[SK: This is the first time Tara, who usually expresses with such a sense of humour that I’m constantly giggling at, has spoken with such seriousness and authority.]

SK: Is that all Tara?

T: Yes, that is all for now, my beloved friend. I am delighted to have had contact with you again. We do so love you all and are anticipating a most wonderful reunion with you. Until then…

I AM Tara

[We had a good chat after this and she reverted back to her ‘lighter’ Tara self ‘now that the heavy stuff is out of the way’. Not that I want to pigeon hole her, but still nice to know I’m not the only one around with more than one personality ;-)]

Saturday, December 8, 2012

In Our Skies


Some amazing pics of 'natural' sky phenomenon. And also follow the other links from here for more.

http://beforeitsnews.com/strange/2012/12/hands-of-god-appear-in-sky-2445884.html

Magic, madness and mystery
Shellee-Kim

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Apocalyse Is The Greek Word For Revelation - by Unknown

SK: An excellent overview of where we're at in the broader cosmic scheme of things, its impact on us personally and how we can use the energies to direct our highest possible outcomes...

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Here is the article I talked about. I do not promote fear, I promote trust, love, laughter, expansion.

Apocalypse is the greek word for revelation. It refers to the end of life in this dimension, the end of the illusion and the complete revelation of our vibrational, multidimensional identity. It is the dissolution and transmutation of the third dimensional vehicles that give a very fragmented and separated experience of life through the illusion of time and space. This dissolution concerns all entities existing in the field of our solar system, including the planets themselves.

Our solar system has been entering in an area that is in alignment with the central sun Sirius of our galaxy. (Candace: OUR central sun is Alcyone and there is confusion on his part here, as this is the WAVE but the article is good otherwise, although it wanders between photon belt and Wave. The wave is the cosmic fire, that appears in teachings, not photon belt or Milky Way energies which have other roles ) This astrological alignment means that, from now on, our solar system and thus the earth will evolve within fields that are in the influence of a form of Light that is very different from the physical light we all know. It is the Vibrational Light or Fire of the Holy Spirit.


This Light is the constituent of our vibrational, eternal and multidimensional identity. From the perspective of life in this dimension, this identity is known as our Higher Self. Yet it is our only real identity as all identities that we have been identifying with in this dimension were merely dreams in the time/space illusion and disconnected from the essence of Life (Unitary Realms). By essence, our vibrational Self does not know separation. It does not know distance, and sequential time.

Thus it is not subject to the law of action and reaction and karma. This functioning cannot be grasped by our mind that has been shaped and designed to work in the illusion of this time/space matrix. Yet, everybody IS this truth and has the potential to access it through the conscious awareness of the vibration, here and now. As we progress in the accelerated times of apocalypse, more and more people become living witnesses of that vibratory state that reveals itself in the individual ability to transcend the ego mind and surrender to the infinite depth of the present moment.

Positive initiatives now birthing all over the world to improve life on earth and manifest a new paradigm show an evolution of consciousness and the connection with positive feelings in many people. This evolution is a witness of the favorable changes happening in the individual and collective consciousness and energy systems. However, this evolution does not constitute or lead to the nature of the paradigm change brought about by the last stage of apocalypse : the cosmic wave and collective ascension. In other words, the revelation is not only the revelation of the human potential to co-create heaven on earth through healing, protecting, restoring, reconnecting, opening, etc… ; the revelation is not only the understanding of the evil nature of the global matrix created by the so-called civilized society. No, these are only relatively superficial preliminaries to the inconceivable event of the end of third dimensional life on earth.

The gradual increase of the exposure of the vibrational Light on the solar system and on the earth has been called Apocalypse or Revelation because it is the collective revelation of our true essence and of the nature of the illusion we have been trapped into. It is not a revelation that comes as an outside information but as a death of one level of experience of self and a birth of a new level of experience of self. The transmutation involved as a result of the final cosmic wave of vibrational light includes the end of the third dimensional earth as well as the end of our third dimensional bodies. However, this end of our third dimensional vehicles is a far more significant event than another cycle of death and birth.

On one hand, a majority of souls currently present on the earth is not ready for surrendering to the Light. Most of them have let themselves be trapped inside a matrix that superposes itself on top of the 3D time/space matrix and have lost all sense of connection with their divine essence. Immature souls of heavy vibrations will perceive the cosmic wave as an event external from themselves and will believe in themselves as being the victim of a catastrophe. Souls who believe in the cosmic fire as a punishment from the creator will experience it as such. As the intensity of the cosmic fire keeps on increasing exponentially, the support of their contracted vibrations (physical body and physical environment, astral body) will literally dissolve into what is then perceived as nothingness but is in fact too high a frequency for their perceptual ability.



Disorientation and the intensified facing of all the suffering and heaviness they carry will ensue. The Judgement is not a punition from an angry father but refers to the capacity of the consciousness to find vibrationnal support in the unitary realms and, if not, refers to the direct facing of all the contractions (fears and attachments) carried by the soul with no place to hide. These souls, not yet mature to explore their multidimensionality and intemporality, will have the opportunity to incarnate in this galaxy on other solar systems that are supporting third dimensional life until they are mature enough for ascension.

On the other hand, mature souls will have already faced and surrendered the totality of their fears and attachments before or during apocalypse and, if not yet the case, will be able to surrender the last shadows in the final blast of unitary Light. These souls will already be conscious of their intemporal body of light through direct consciousness of the vibration in the heart and the head as well as through consciousness of the vibrational “I AM” or universal Beingness. The cosmic wave will propel them in the fullness of their Light Body and will free their soul from all remaining ties with third dimensionality. This ascension of a soul into its intemporal Body of Resurrection has happened only very rarely on earth during the last cycle. Yet, the showering of the earth with unitary light is making it easier than ever to reconnect to Beingness and it opening the stage The cosmic wave will be a very special event as it will be where a high number of individual ascension processes merge into one.

Peak of darkness happens when the light becomes unbearable for the majority of souls that have no way to merge with it and integrate it at the level of their higher chakras. This explains the extremely chaotic state of the world right now that becomes each day more obvious despite desperate efforts by the matrix controlled media to divert the attention of the populace towards political power games, sport and show-business glamour. The climate crisis, violence and wars, economic destruction and inflation, food shortages, increased seismic and volcanic activity, environmental collapse,… that the world is now going through will keep on intensifying until the peak of the cosmic wave transmutes the whole chaos in its light. Personal efforts to improve the situation by trying to lower the amount of suffering that humans go through in this period are useless and represent a waste of energy that would be best used for the personal ascension process. Suffering and intensity is needed to bring the souls that need it to themselves.

Personal efforts to take care of others suffering usually comes from some levels of denial of one’s own pain, hidden in unconscious parts of the soul. Allowing the process of apocalypse to play out for the collectivity, including for mother Earth and its mineral, animal and vegetal realms, without feeding old reactive patterns of wanting to feel the victim or the savior is the challenge of many. If you feel the call for ascension, transmuting the reflexes of the dual consciousness that reacts to the dramatic events of the end of times will be a crucial part of your personal process. Indeed, opening up the consciousness to its natural non-dual perspective is a preliminary requisite for reconnecting with our 5th dimensional perceptions. The non-dual perspective invevitably means the letting go and dissolution of all emotions (grief, feeling sorry, anger, fear,…), judgments, interpretations and other reactive patterns. It will sound empty to the illusory personality when in fact, the non-dual perspective opens the space to the absolute fullness of our glorious Body of Beingness.

It is indeed the highest form of contribution to the collective ascension process to take the non dual perspective and focus on surrendering one’s own tensions and densities to the light. Standing in pure Beingness, some actions may occur through us, yet, we need to let go of all the identifications that seek to define ourselves through these actions, ideas & thougts, contributions, sharings and all other movements that occur through time and space in this dissolving matrix. It is necessary for us to let this level of interest and self definition dissolve to open the space to the consciousness of our true, vibrational self as this is the only vehicle that will take us through the coming wave.

Alternative scientific circles are now discovering elements of the multidimensional nature of Self. We can expect that these scientists or others will continue to go through major breakthroughs during the whole apocalypse period. It is nevertheless advisable to remain conscious that explanation and external demonstration is very different from Self-Realization. You can only Know what you ARE. Indeed, the disconnected mind can understand the concepts and this understanding can be used as a convincing factor towards surrender of that mind. Yet, this understanding, however accurate and precise, will not as such help the soul to journey through the cosmic wave. Channeling most of our attention and energy towards intellectual analysis slows the pace of the individual process of surrendering to the vibrational light. Thus, scientific discoveries and realizations are not an end in themselves but merely an optional first step towards surrender for the individuals that might be ready to ascend but are still stuck and identified with their mind. Obsessive need for intellectual understanding of the apocalypse and ascension process are tentatives from the mind to hide soul contractions linked to the need to control, to explain, attachments and fears of letting go completely. We need to realize and recognize that our 3D mind will only grasp a fraction of the universal understanding and that we will naturally and spontaneously reconnect to that universal understanding through full embodiment of our christed, vibrational Body of Beingness, without the intervention of external teachings. Surrender to the light is all that is required. It is easy and ecstatic. Are you listening to the mind that wishes to make you believe otherwise ?

It is to be expected that most of our so-called modern technology will be rendered useless by the vibrational light and astrophysical conditions several weeks or months before the final wave. Most of the infrastructure that currently provides energy, communication, food and transport to the populations will gradually or suddenly loose its functionality. This will represent a blessing rather than a curse and will free up much of the space and energy to be redirected inside in support of the individual ascension process. The intensity of the vibrational light in this period along with global food shortages will make the mature souls realize food as secondary or unnecessary while not any amount of food will be able to bring a sense of relief to the immature souls who will be trying anything to go back to a place of hiding from their unresolved pains. For the sake of your own individual process, don’t give much of your attention and energy to the manifestations of the dissolving matrix. Instead, let go of all the traces that matrix imprinted in your soul and turn all your attention towards your center. At the center of your being is the center of the universe and the vibrational light that is showering the earth is coming from that very center. It is both inside and outside of you, yet it becomes one and unique as you discover the essence of Beingness, I AM. True Life is waiting for you there…

Apocalypse is now. Prepare yourself and spend your time wisely by turning the attention inside and allowing the light (consciousness) on all your remaining shadows. No external preparations will help you deal with the wave of Vibrational Light that is currently showering the earth and which intensity will increase drastically and exponentially from today to the final wave, before the end of year 2012. Don’t build your house on the sand has never been more applicable than today. Stop building your reality with the help of the personal ego/mind self, even a positive one. Say goodbye to your life circumstances and develop your ability to bless its dissolution. Turn your attention/energy inwards and let “you” die… This message is not intended to generate fear and attachements but only to uncover these and enlighten them. They are weighing on your experience of life and that of the whole humanity, it is time to allow the consciousness to transcend them and move on.

Our collective ascension is the most beautiful event that can happen to us, and it is happening now. It is quantumly superior to even the transformation of our current 3D world into a place of peace, fairness, co-created beauty and abundance for all. This transformation will not happen and will not need to happen as we will instantly manifest such a world from a very different perspective, in different bodies, on a different planet Earth and in the context of very different physical, chemical and biological rules. The earth we will see will look profoundly different and will not carry the traces of the abuses that have been taking place in this dimension. We will no more know any kind of dependence nor any kind of separation, limit of form, limit of movement or limit of time. Freedom will not only be freedom from the matrix, but the absolutely free exploration of the unified field (the whole creation) as unified consciousness. As crazy as it might sound, you are invited to simply open your heart to the possibility that it might be true…

It is now time to surrender to the light, alone and together. Every individual will express this non-doing, vertical event through different activities and inactivities. Each and every circumstances can be used as a context of surrender and your focused intention will bring about the most supportive context, recognized through heartfelt resonance. You are thus invited by your own heart to design the remaining days of this separated life in a way that supports the reconnection to your own vibrations, as well as their acceleration and expansion. Very soon, we will find ourselves together in Beingness, celebrating the True Life through our pristine, eternal Light Bodies. As unbelievable as it might sound, don’t waste your energy believing it or not believing it. Instead, start living this truth now !


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Monday, October 29, 2012

Masculine Body Reconstruction - Lisa Renee

Hi all

You may already have read this, but I thought it worth posting in its entirety.
As the world and collective consciousness sink into a deeper state of chaos as the result of manipulations described below, it is especially important now to be able to identify what is happening to us and why. This way we can do the Identify-Locate-Repair-Remove of that which is not of our own creation, but an artificial construction, designed to take us down.
As if we all haven't got more than enough to deal with, right...? ;-)

But I am ever thankful to Lisa for succinctly outlining once more exactly what is at work and which affects our striving towards a FREE consciousness. There's a recommended, short practical exercise at the bottom also.

In magic, madness and mystery

Shellee-Kim

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Masculine Body Reconstruction 09 October 2012 18:40

October 2012

By Lisa Renee

Dear Ascension Family,

Today is October 9th which happens to be the birthday of John Lennon, of which I happily announce the celebratory synchronicity of changing the ES newsletter title from Lift Your Veil to "Shifting Timelines". Similarly to Mr. Lennon's activism and efforts to "Give Peace a Chance", as a Libran like myself, I submit our October Newsletter with some minor changes. We have "lifted the veil" long enough, and it is time for us all to come out of the veiled closet into greater transparency. Now is the time to get down to the group task and business and "shift the timelines" to planetary freedom. Hence the name of our newsletter and blog series, as our collaborative efforts are to protect and embody the GSF stewardship of which we have been entrained here within the ES Community, as "I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free!". Happy New Shifting Timelines to all, as sovereign and free beings in the eternal light of God Source. (Please note our podcast is late due to a family medical crisis and will be available sometime this week.)





The current strong geomagnetic storms resulting from recent solar activity have deep repercussions at the quantum level which greatly impact and shift the state of electromagnetism upon our planet. The increase in the solar wind interacts with the Earth’s magnetic field and the transfer of accelerated energy is placed into the magnetosphere. The magnetosphere is an important part of the Global Planetary Brain and is the inherent architecture that creates the many complex identities of the collective human mind. Its functions are directly responsible for what humans experience as a collective race identity along with an individual 3D conscious mind or ego self. (Please see the July 2008 newsletter, Magnetic Change of the Global Brain)

As these various input factors accelerate change from the pressure these quantum forces place upon the planetary core, the physics governing those forces start to change on the planetary surface. The geo-physics governing these forces in this dimension are shifting and as such, have a great impact on the state of electromagnetic activity. Clearly this has an impact on all human beings and creatures of this planet during this time. It especially has impact on the collective mental bodies and the way the masculine energetic principle embodies in matter and form.

Magnetic Dipoles and Jerks

Electromagnetism is the interaction responsible for practically all the phenomena encountered in our daily life. Electromagnetism manifests as both electrical fields and magnetic fields. Both fields are simply different aspects of electromagnetism, and hence are fundamentally related. Thus, a changing electrical field generates a magnetic field and conversely, a changing magnetic field generates an electric field.

The earth's core, through which its direct rotating current generates the magnetic field that we detect at the surface, does not keep pace with the outer “surface” crust. Geo-physicists acknowledge that the magnetic field has a mainly dipole structure that changes over time and moves in a significant westward drift of about one meter per hour. The magnetic dipoles are defined as the surface points in the Northern and Southern hemispheres where the Earth’s magnetic field is vertical. The magnetic poles move over time because of the earth core magnetic field has fluxes and changes. With these recent changes in the earth core there are abrupt shifts happening in the surface geomagnetic field, and this rapidly shifts the magnetic dipoles. Rapid variation impulses sourcing from the earth core to suddenly change the surface field is known as a “geomagnetic jerk”. These sudden changes to the surface magnetic field and their various speed and strengths, can be locational or global. This means certain areas of the earth have more radical shifts in the surface magnetic field than others.

Geophysicists reported that the earth’s magnetic field “jerked” in 1969 and acknowledged something significant happened to the earth core that radically changed the location of the North Magnetic Dipole. There is a connection between geomagnetic jerks and the speed and movement of the North Magnetic Dipole. This is relative to the known phenomena of the poles shifting at the end of this cycle, which they indeed have been doing gradually all along, however, not with the catastrophic effect predicted by some.

We are entering the timeline where the earth core is rapidly shifting the planetary magnetic field through the various levels of strength, speed and flux of geomagnetic storms and their larger events, geomagnetic jerks. (This is happening potentially in the field as a series of electron/proton fluxes that generate geomagnetic jerks in the next months.)

Massive geomagnetic change also means massive change to the Global Brain and therefore the individual human mind relationship to that brain. Who we think we are in our thought-forms, what we believe we are a part of, is largely defined by the (manipulated) magnetic structure of the Global brain. When the Global Brain changes our thoughts radically; we have a choice, do we adapt, or do we fall apart?

Magnetic changes at these levels will create and/or destroy at the same time. Magnetic changes at this level will also radically shift time and space as we know it. Our relationship to time (timelines) will be moved forward, as a skipping forward through time. This timeline we enter in the next 90 days is a massive change to our sense of identity, our life experience, what defines us, and everything we have ever known. We can consider this as a massive opportunity to change and adapt into a newer and more alive version of ourselves. However this liberation will come with its larger truth, nothing from the past old energies can hang on or stay with us. “Relax, Release the Mind. Be Neutral. Breathe,” is the mantra for all of us now.

Mental Deconstruction

As we learn about the natural cycles of Life, we know that to be recreated into something new, the current form and its foundation must be deconstructed. Resurrection illustrates that fact, for the alchemy of forces to work its miracle as a byproduct of God’s natural laws, we must die (ego death) to be reborn. This is transpiring rapidly now for many people, and it is amplified for the male bodies as the mental principle is synonymous with the male energetic principle. Whether male or female embodied, if one is over-intellectual or imbalanced in mental thought-forms, such as battling addictions, this time is absolutely brutal. We are so sorry for that confusion. This fact has been an emphasis for years now that the necessity to overcome the ego mental body addictions would become dire, and indeed it has. The death of the ego is the phantom death we experience as we face desperate darkness, and one must remember this is not the “real” self.

As the planetary magnetic field is increasingly disrupted, the majority of the collective mind consciousness fields also become extremely agitated. Along with many extra-dimensional forces acting upon the collective fields, the chaos becomes even more extreme. Additionally as the dimensional spaces (time vectors) collapse in the lower frequency fields, (1D-2D-3D) the impact creates a compaction and compression in the field at that level of frequency. As a result, the frequency of the (1D-2D-3D) collective mental bodies and where it was connecting to those frequency broadcast fields is undergoing rapid compression. The compression of these fields is necessary, as they are moving to the next higher octave system, otherwise called the future time field.

This literally changes the frequency levels of what our brain receives as impulses sourcing from the planetary collective mind field. It also severely reduces the parameters of the lower frequency that our brain and nervous system is used to connecting to as a part of our individual “thought-form”. So if we still have a sense of identity with thought-forms existing in the lower vibrations mentioned, those areas of our collective 1D-2D-3D mental body (personality matrix) are being compacted. This compaction is at such high level pressure, that without context, this feels like being pounded mentally with an energetic gavel over and over again, in the form of fearful, obsessive or looping thoughts. Because the physical body is elemental and being impacted by these same mental forces, the pressure may also be felt as intense symptoms in the body. This part of the lower identity is being pounded into submission to the higher frequencies, and is the process of mental deconstruction. (Ego Death) This is illustrated well in the Cycles of Life depicted in the Tarot card, Ten of Swords. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ten_of_Swords

It is important to remember that this symbol, as unpleasant as it is when it is acting upon our life, is about Mental Bondage. When the mind is released the bondage is removed, therefore the sense of despair stemming from the mental body and how that impacts our physical state, is only temporary. When we learn to let go and train the ego to not be in control of our mind, body and consciousness, we are freed from that bondage. That freedom is assured if one stays awake through the dark night of the soul when this level is being experienced as a part of the ascension process. Absolutely No One gets away from enduring this part of personal spiritual development, at some point in the process, so know you are in good company.

Defragmentation

The best way to understand what is happening to the lower mental bodies on the planet is to apply the context of a computer hard drive file storage system that requires a file maintenance defragmentation. This “defrag” process scans to find all broken links, fragmented or corrupt files, and organizes them in the most efficient way to recover and retrieve the hard data into usable formats. If the internal data is not repairable or usable (i.e. appropriate for the next stages of the evolution journey) it may be effectively deleted. This changes our life in a radical way, as things that were supporting the use of those old file systems, may no longer be there or available for continued use. This forces our transformation whether we like it or not. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Defragmentation.)

When great fragmentation occurs, as it has within these human collective lower mental body fields, the accumulation does not allocate enough “space” to store a complete “mental file”, but puts large gaps (holes) in between these mental body “file” units. (Otherwise compared to memories) Essentially what this means in the individual experience is people in 3D start to “lose their thought-forms”, or lose coherency in their thought patterns. If they do not know how to retrain how they think and process multidimensional reality, they can revert to more infantile or primitive behavior. (This is what happens with Alzheimer patients, the mental body fragmentation is so severe that the brain reverses its frequency pattern to pick up unconscious collective base thought-forms. Note the high rage present in the advanced deterioration of an Alzheimer patient. They are no longer an individual they are at the mercy of the collective unconscious mind in utter chaos. This is mental torture and torment.)

The place where their linear mental file memory is stored is either no longer there for retrieval, has been moved, or destroyed. This happens with short term and long term memory. Without spiritual ascension context to release the linear ego thought patterns, and clear its sub personalities and fragments, this can manifest as everything between bi-polar to manic episodes. The latter is when severe fragmentation of the identity of that being has occurred, which is also the result of possession and mind control manipulation. (The use of machinery to control the behaviors and thoughts of a natural person, creates destructive side effects to the brain and CNS.)

Lower Mental Body Compression

So as these dimensional spaces are being moved to the next higher octave in frequency, which overall reduces the amount of mental body fragmentation, the organization of the collective and individual mental body is being moved to a future time and space. This requires integration and efficiency of matched vibrational thought-forms that are coherent with the new higher octave space. This is very similar to a reformatting of our internal hard drive and performing an upgrade to our personal software. This higher octave does not support the lower frequency thought-forms (programming) and will require the re-patterning of the thought-forms from linear formats to circular formats. This means in all of the ways we have been linearly programmed to “think”, problem solve, perform critical analysis, make decisions, go from point A to point B, is over. We have to learn how to process data in our mental body in a completely new way, and we are being forced to transform now. This changes our perception of reality where we must be in the “now presence” at every moment. The now is a circular format.

The parameter of frequency that existed as a “plane of existence” (a time/space location) within a spectrum of broadband is compressing, therefore, shrinking. As it compresses, the particle or matter present in that space undergoes a departiclization process to transform into a substance base unit (mole unit) that can be assimilated into the higher octave frequency spaces that are replacing that specific parameter of frequency.

This is happening to our physical reality now and impacting all of our bodies.

The mechanics of the planetary ascension process are fundamental to the known and unknown physics governing these spaces. These energetic spaces are changing therefore the physics governing those spaces in time are changing. The lower dimensional spaces (1D-2D-3D) that are currently undergoing compression are being assimilated in order to effectively “roll up” into the higher dimensional spaces. A part of Universal, Galactic and Planetary Ascension is the merge of the particle and anti-particle double. The anti-particle double merging with the particle dimensions are 1D merge with 15D ( red is merging with pink), 2D merge with 14D ( orange is merging with light gold) and 3D merge with 13D ( yellow is merging with Aquamarine). Many of us are sensing more of the Aquamarine and Aurora lights in the physical etheric layer spectrums, from the change in magnetic field. This is also the causation behind the new female principle source energies present in this physical dimension.

This means when a person is operating their consciousness at the lower mind frequency and is attempting to access a place in that field as it is “shrinking”, they will have a direct experience of that “mental body compression”. That will most likely be sensed as frustration, confusion, blockages, burdens, identity conflicts, a descent into insanity, etc. For those still operating at this mental level at base thresholds, they can be thrust into the unconscious collective fields of chaos to be used by the controller fear agenda. The culling of that agenda presses on, and as we observe it with compassionate witnessing, we are able to support and help those caught in its jaws. Being informed while observing the drama neutrally, without entanglement, is many times the best choice. We all have the power within us to make the choice of freedom from mental bondage, therefore total freedom from this controller agenda. However, we may observe unpleasant side effects of such agendas on our human family, as a part of the transformation upon us. Many ailments are surfacing as disease patterns based on deep rooted fears and blockages in the main energy centers of the body. Heart and Lung disease exacerbate with a closed or blocked heart chakra, Diabetes and Kidney disease exacerbate from unresolved social pressures, fears and anxiety, Circulation issues in the extremities are meridians disconnected from life force.

Staying with our meditation practices, holding inner core strength and fortitude in our devotion to serve the highest expression of Love for all, is a great service to this planet.

First Contingent Males

There is a group of males on planet that have the potential to be catapulted into a new consciousness stratosphere of being freed from the insidious mind control in lower dimensions. They are experiencing a great relief and the beginning of feeling freedom over the lower mind and base desires. This is like the feeling of a great burden being lifted off of the body and mind. These in effect are the planetary Rod Holders, the ability to merge with the vertical and horizontal fields of the earth. Portions of these males hold a relationship genetically to the Michael families, the Seraphim and Nephilim hybridization histories. Aurora Guardian hosting of the rehabilitation of Seraphim based genetic healing has been met with some success. It is this group that heralds the Masculine Body Reconstruction as it is now a template available in the planetary field.

The split soul begins to undergo the departiclization process in the lower dimensions of where it existed in order to be assimilated into the higher octave consciousness. Simultaneously the timelines are being accessed of the causation of monadic reversal and monadic harness which greatly impacted the infiltrated collective masculine field, the Golden Eagle Network. (Based in the Middle East) These timelines are known as the time of Metatronic reversal where the electron fields descended into heavily distorted patterns, splitting the Monadic bodies apart. This also split the mental bodies and fragmented them into diseased states. This splitting of the Monadic bodies was kept in place by a double looping, or bi-polar geometry structure which would siphon life force. This structure is also in the Golden Eagle Network and keeps that structure operating as a bi-polar geometry, which directly impacts the brain and mental body of all human beings. The Monadic staff would break apart and fragment before any assimilation or integration of the spiritual bodies could take place. Much of this was the result of terrible wars and killing through the abuse of technology, such as the current Armageddon software program, that occurred in the higher dimensions. As these timelines become present on earth, certain manipulation may be present to suppress the males based on these “Armageddon” memories. This is a war program with an “Enforcer to Protector” mind control. It’s a twisted game to trick the male to believe he is protecting his domain, when he really is enforcing the rape and killing of his own family members.

If these feel relative, while becoming aware of such mental or emotional states, applying Forgiveness will alter the timelines. Ask Forgiveness of yourself and to any other you may feel genuine forgiveness towards. Do not allow guilt or shame to be held in your body, immediately move through that feeling with applying Forgiveness to the situation, event or the person. Congratulations to all of our males who are enjoying a new sense of freedom in their bodies that will only continue to get stronger.

Stay Awake and Informed

As we become more familiar with the negative alien (NA) controller game on earth, it is clear that the divide and conquer strategy is used to create external distractions based on fear. Not only is the ascension mechanics and E.T. involvement kept from the public, so is the use of pyschotronic technology aimed at the masses. This strategy is continually used to capitalize on the mass confusion of mind control and yield the results that serve humanities destruction. Since there is so much confusion in the collective planetary mental bodies based on these magnetic changes, which change the brain state, there are recent attempts to capitalize on that confusion. We all have unique soul memories (conscious memory but mostly unconscious) of those experiences that have been repeated events in this timeline “played out” again and again, during these end times stemming from the “Atlantian Conflict.” Global events are used to stimulate certain destructive mindsets, behaviors and emotional states in the human beings “unconscious memories” on the planet. Remember that in every situation, no matter how dire it appears, we can each be empowered to shift the event and its field residue into a positive and empowering stance. When we are informed and awake, we can progress with living and returning personal sovereignty to our selves, and live as that example for others.

When a person is mentally unstable they are more vulnerable to manipulation and possession. Mind control scripts and their string commands are being used to sweep and locate unstable people (such as severely wounded males) to act out and spread this “program” to infect more people with a sick or imbalanced mental state. Large events of gatherings are a perfect terrain for executing these kinds of triggers into the field. However we have noted several attempts of NA’s to personally come to implant the male through the attempt to corrupt them through direct manipulation of unhealed feelings of guilt, shame, sexual issues or anger. This has been occurring during sleep time through manipulation of disturbing dreams or while in lucid dream states. Implanting the spine, tailbone and neck are the usual places to hijack the nervous system. For those of us in the Indigo and Star families, it is important to understand this program is artificial machinery, inorganic and is being used in the planetary field. The vulnerability is that “collective viral program” influencing or interfering with our personal natural bodily and nervous system processes.

It is that group specifically, that I want to share this larger awareness of events , as we do not have to personally feel the level of despair, suffering and pain this program has intended to inflict on all it is designed to ensnare in order to disrupt personal balance.

Mind Control Scripts

First, be aware that a pyschotronic technology being used in some places in the field to capture males to install a Mind Control (MC) Program with Viral loaded Scripts. If you are a conscious and awake male you are like a prize possession they want to corrupt. They do not want our males to reconstruct into their new mental bodies, where they will be freed from mind control programs. If one is disciplined in their ego this will be a mere annoyance and easily overcome with conscious participation. The secondary influence this has is on a mental body (either male or female) that is undisciplined and the result is your thoughts will feel chaotic with intense anxiety. I have included some information below to better understand scripts, so that if you feel this has influenced your brain and nervous system, to be aware of and observe it for what it is, without fear and without taking it personally.

There is a tool to IDENTIFY – LOCATE – REMOVE – REPAIR any MC program or script that has been loaded (unconsciously) into your nervous system.

Post Hypnotic Commands in Mind Control Scripting

This is a type of psychotronic warfare aimed at the Autonomic Nervous System. If you are feeling especially depressed, messages of suicidal acts, hopeless, and related negative feelings, please know this is not organic and is a scripted messaging system placed in the planetary fields, and aimed towards those of us building, strengthening and anchoring this Aurora Guardian and Indigo Shield. These hypnotic commands may be introduced while we are asleep, so be aware and secure your sleep time space. There may be importance when you wake up to pay attention to how you feel and immediately clear any residue imprints from impacting you throughout your day.

Please so not let this disturb you, bring your mind back into the peace of knowing that you can dismantle and destroy any script virally loaded to impose on your nervous system. Further dis-identify with these feelings and emotional states, as not a part of the real “you”, it is the inner child / body that is feeling it, as it picks up the broadcast from the larger field of this network.

It is good to feel the emotion of the experience, however if the feelings are descending into extremely negative and painful states that are increasing, rather than abating, then one may have a positive affirmation that a script is loaded and influencing your body. Sustained states of hopelessness, despair and depression are not good to maintain, we must learn to shift that feeling off of us, and clear its impact from continuing to interfere with our highest purposes.

If this is resonating with you, please consider the following support offered from our Guardian Teams:

HGS CLEARING PROCESS

OPEN SESSION COMMAND:

1. CALIBRATE with the 12 D Shield and recite the Unity Vow (the standard ES practices)

2. Ask the Question of God self – Do I have Mind Control Scripts loaded that need to be Cleared from my body? IF YES, CONTINUE.

3. Beloved God, Guardian Families of Aurora, Please Identify, Locate, Remove and Repair the following:

4. Terminate Mind Control Programs and their Loaded Scripts

a. Terminate Posthypnotic Commands

b. Terminate Posthypnotic Suggestions

c. Terminate REM Deprivation Programs from my required SLEEP PATTERNS to function optimally

d. Terminate Script Identifier

e. Terminate Script Locator

f. Terminate Script Trigger

g. Terminate Script Content

h. Terminate Script Time Code or Duration Code

5. Please Repair All Systems and reboot my 12 Tree Grid to the Ascension and Aurora Guardian Code Sequences. Correct my Spine and strengthen my Coccyx through my Spinal Cord and leading into my Brain. I am God. I am Sovereign. I am Free.

6. Please generate Master Number Code if needed to lock down Repair Sequences.

7. Please clear all related Memories and their Influences from my Central Nervous System, Brain through the Inner Levels, In Between Levels, and Outer Space levels. (The goal is to remove these memory imprints and their residue from your nervous system, where they started.)

8. End your Session and thank the teams as appropriate.

END SESSION COMMAND

In closing these are amazing times where we get to view and participate with the quantum leap in consciousness while co-existing with a great variation of consciousness perceptions and experiences. While a huge part of our task is liberating ourselves from mind control and healing our emotional body, we are reaching a time of catalytic breakthroughs. Stay the course with shielding practices while working to increase your skill with meditation and mental discipline to quiet the mind. This is the key to maintaining sanity while the collective fields let loose in chaos, as they are now.

From the center of the tornado, we send our love and gratitude to all of our awakening males on planet, with love and appreciation.

I appreciate your patience and participation with the use of these tools as you feel empowered and guided to do so.

Until next, stay in the luminosity of your Avatar heart path, be kind to yourself and each other.

Love, Lisa

Additional Integration Tools

Father, Brothers and Husbands Blog

http://www.energeticsynthesis.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=1424:fathers-brothers-husbands&catid=61&Itemid=100

Mental Body Tools and Antidote to Mind Control

http://www.energeticsynthesis.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=1339:mental-body-tools&catid=85:clear-negative-ego-cat&Itemid=133

Inner Child Body Healing Treatment

InnerChild_BodyHealing.mp3

To be applied when the body is in shock, trauma from emotional grief to feel safe and supported in spiritual connection. Learn how to build the city four square architecture in your personal field and build a strong spiritual foundation of support. Work with the Aurora and Diamond light Harmonics to re-encrypt your residence and space, remove and seal harmful portals. Clear primordial imprints of shock, rage, abandonment, unworthiness, betrayal, the seed fears of humanity. Heal psychological blocks and the body in order of priority. (40 minutes)

The Guiding Four Pillars

1. Ask and Inquire on the Way of your God-Self and its purposes.

2. Listen, learn the language of God Self and take action on the guidance of your God Self.

3. Develop your Inner Connection to God Self that supersedes all reliance on the External Connections or perceptions of reality.

4. Life a Life congruent to your God Self and its purposes, and that it serves as an example to others

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Matters Of Importance - Monjoronson

23 October

Matters Of Importance

by

Monjoronson through Shellee-Kim

(Started 10 October)

It is I, Monjoronson.

SK: I don’t have a lot of time, but do have some.

M: Indeed. Shall we get to it then?


SELF-RELIANCE

Tonight there are several things to discuss. The first we would like to address is the question of self-reliance. This is the state of relying upon one’s inner Self and compass for guidance. In the coming days, working with self-reliance will be crucial and is most definitely a prerequisite to your success.

How do you know when you are in a state of self-reliance? The voices, thoughts, opinions and even objections of others are all filtered through your own inner self first. And before you formulate your response and your own opinion on a matter or situation. Then you will know exactly what feels right to you and be able to accurately express this. Once you are able to do this, you will be in a greatly clarified position. And one which is easily able to detect manipulations – the subtle and overt varieties – in your world. It is up to each one of you reading these words to work on achieving this very important state of being. It is a passport, if you like, to raising your consciousness. For your world has been so shrouded for so long in mire and darkness that the truth of all things, including yourselves, is that far removed from you.

ENERGETIC STABILITY WITHIN

Now, I would like to move on to the issue of energetic stability within. What do I mean when I say this? Energetic stability is the manner and means in which you are able to access higher dimensions, yourselves and be in a position to properly discern the world around you. And yes, it is much interlinked with the above on self-relliance.
Everything is connected with everything else – this you know. But if we, for the sake of this writing, look at energetic stability separately, we would see it as a means of achieving through being anchored in your own personal field. And how do you achieve such?

One of the ways to do this is by becoming increasingly aware of the emanations of others, your world and mostly, yourselves. By emanations, I mean the emotional and psychic frequency of others. The idea being that you will then learn to separate yourselves from their emanations. For many find themselves unknowingly succumbing to that which does not belong to them. Thus leading to all sorts of jarring in the field. In turn, this becomes a major cause of energetic instability in you ones. And, it is spread, like some contagion, with great consistency.

Being energetically stable is being properly and truly anchored to your own bodies and the earth. Many try to achieve this by the external practice of a ritual, expecting this alone will produce the same results. It will not, as energetic stability can not be got under control by the discipline of the mind and will alone, but by a process of engaging all of yourself and your awareness in the task.

19 October (cont…)

SCRUTINY

Next I wish to address the question of scrutiny. Let us look at this topic now. Scrutiny is not something many on your surface world desire. It is perceived often as being something one should turn away from. As if the very results it brings may frighten the enquirer into a stupefaction. Or worse. Force the enquirer into a new state of awareness from which there may be no return. Therefore, to the average person on your planet, holding anything (subject or issue) up to the light of scrutiny is not a comfortable concept.

Yet, in order for the soul to progress and development within the form to be made, scrutiny of both one’s external world and one’s interior one are essential to this kind of development. How are we then to break through such barriers and make the subject of scrutiny one which is more palatable to ourselves and the masses?
Indeed. What those who are desirous of progress ought to do is to first get to a comfortable level with the very things that bring you some level of discomfort. As soon as you feel the discomfort, the alarm bells that will ring as a defence mechanism will be an indication your are travelling on the right road. Getting comfortable and relaxed around scrutinizing subjects or issues, or indeed oneself, is a process – not any kind of overnight success story. As with the growing of all aspects of consciousness.

Once you have broken the barrier of making the first tentative steps towards familiarity with scrutinizing something and exercising your mind muscle, as it were, you will have cracked through an important aspect of the Self; welcomed in a portion of it. And in so doing, invite more opportunities in for further scrutiny. You will have succeeded in breaking through the fear that has locked the ability to scrutinize away from yourselves.

HIGHER SELF NON-COMPLIANCE/ALIGNMENT

Next I would like to address the issue of non-compliance. Now, here we have a dichotomy. On the one hand, the state of non-compliance is one which results in being out of alignment with your Higher Selves wishes for the life. On the other, we have very much the universal law of free will allowing exactly such on this free will planet, which is respected and honoured at all times. The dichotomy rests in the fact that while you are here to enjoy a free will experience, your objective is to also do the will of your Higher Self in order for the progress of yourselves at the eternal level. So this is something of a conundrum and the reason why so many wished for the earth experience in the first place. There is no greater school in the universe. This is known far and wide.

In order to obtain the maximum out of both in the most constructive manner, it is necessary to constantly be evaluating where you are and who you are. Neither of which most of your population are inspired to do. In fact, this couldn’t be further from the minds of most. So what is the solution to providing this balance for yourselves? You could start by testing yourselves daily to see if you are on the ‘right’ path. But being on the ‘right’ path first denotes that there is more than one path possibility in your internal and external lives and that you do have a choice as to which road you go down. Not unlike choosing which ice cream flavours at a parlour you may wish to taste. Each has its own unique flavour, but perhaps certain ingredients or flavours in some will agree more or less with your physiology than others.

The easiest way, then, to discern and find balance in this conundrum is to ask for guidance from your Higher Self and then to LISTEN and take ACTION when the opportunities subsequently presents. This is the difficult part for most that eludes many. This could be anything from a simple (or not so simple) changing of a mental attitude and making a new inner choice to a decision that is more obvious as a change in the life. The subtlety of the workings of all this in a very base world like yours is an enormous challenge.

You can muscle test these for answers, work with a pendulum or other secure means if you feel less assured of your ability to discern within and hear your inner voice clearly on such matters.

I AM Monjoronson wishing you well in your preparations and regarding you all most highly.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Mid October Incoming Energies

I know this is more than a week old, but may help shed a little light in retrospect!

In magic, madness and mystery
Shellee-Kim
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Major Incomming Energies Friday Oct 11th – by James Gilliland at ECETI
Source: via email
Major Shift for Friday Oct 11th

Many are feeling waves of consciousness and energy often coming in between 3 and 5 in the morning. This is a great time to be creative and receive inner guidance due to the psychic turbulence at an all time low and the creation energies at an all time high. This is orchestrated and assisted by Masters, Saints and Sages as well as spiritually and technologically advanced off worlders and ultradimensionals. There are energies coming in as we align with Galactic Plane affecting the Sun, which have a major impact on humanity and the Earth. These influxes of energy affect the bioelectric fields around the human and Earth body, initiate weather changes, earthquake and volcanic activity. There is a lag time as these energies move down the vibrational continuum to the denser physical matter. It could be 2 to 5 days.
It is imperative that we become self aware, observe what is surfacing, any sadness, anger, judgments, or anything blocking us from unity consciousness and holding our own space and center as a loving, joyous, powerful manifesting God or Goddess. It is also imperative that we do not jump into the dramas of others or into reactionary mind. There is a major effort seen and unseen especially within the media to perpetuate fear and division—even War. Observing this without attachment is imperative and do not fear observing and addressing these matters, there is a time to speak, a time to observe.The awakening and healing of humanity and the Earth is well underway. It is increasing exponentially and there will be major social, economic and physical Earth Changes as part of this process. Many are in-between two worlds, some are taking the downward spiral, others are taking the upward spiral. It is never too late to take the upward spira,l choosing to live in harmony with each other and the Earth. It is all about self-awareness, personal responsibility, and choice. These energies are great amplifiers of what some would call the good and the bad. Time to release the past and that which no longer serves you.

Be well,
James Gilliland
www.eceti.org
www.bbsradio.com
www.worldpuja.net

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Confessions Of A Paid Shill

As we meander our way through the minefield of this plane with it's many pitfalls, it's imperative to keep reminding ourselves where and how we leak our essence; give away our power.
Something as seemingly-harmless as engaging on various news or other forums can have a powerfully detrimental affect on our psyches. Erring on the side of caution, we see the disinformation and psychological operative programmes are out in full force, with seemingly more shills around than ever before. And even some harmless banter where we air our opinions, may not be that at all --in the wrong hands!
To prevent more of our own precious power being replaced by confusion or worse, take the confession below to heart. And remember its author's story the next time you engage on any forum. Conspiracy fact: the war on terror is against our very minds and souls. And these below are some helpful tell-tale signs that we may protect ourselves better.

On that sombre note
Go forward with a discerning mind and heart

Love
Shellee-Kim
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Source - abovetopsecret.com/forum

Pay for Comments – Confessions of a Paid Disinformation Internet Shill
3rd October 2012

By ExShill -Reposted from ATS Forums

Note from WuW:
Government trolls. Disinformation shills. Call them what you want, they are real.
Every day at WuW, we see “comments” submitted on our articles that are blatantly composed by trolls. Lengthy, well written comments designed to steer the conversation in a pro-government, pro-status quo direction. They pose as readers and first-time commenters, but post essay length commentary quoting “expert” government research on a range of topics, question those who question the government line, and urge us to believe in the path chosen for us by our trusted leaders. If we believe them, everything is and has always been ok. No further questions need to be asked. Those who do are paranoid.
Site moderation is something we take very seriously at WuW. We offer a platform for different voices and opinions to be expressed, and it is therefore quite rare that we suppress a reader’s comment from being posted on the site. But we’re not stupid, and we won’t let our site be undermined. We know government trolls and paid disinformation shills are real, and we can pick their work a mile away. It has a certain… quality. And they prove us right! The troll comments we supress are often re-submitted, again and again, word for word, from a variety of reader aliases and email addresses.
Like I said… we’re not stupid.
This is the story of a man who, due to economically hard times, accepted a job as an internet disinformation shill. After only 6 months, he resigned. He was no longer was able to look himself in the mirror.
…..I am writing here (ATS Forum) to come out of the closet as a paid shill. For a little over six months, I was paid to spread disinformation and argue political points on the Internet. ATS was NOT one that I was assigned to post on, although other people in the same organization were paid to be here, and I assume they still walk among you. But more on this later.
I quit this job in the latter part of 2011, because I became disgusted with it, and with myself. I realized I couldn’t look myself in the mirror anymore. If this confession triggers some kind of retribution against me, so be it. Part of being a real man in this world is having real values that you stand up for, no matter what the consequences.
My story begins in early 2011. I had been out of work for almost a year after losing my last job in tech support. Increasingly desperate and despondent, I jumped at the chance when a former co-worker called me up and said she had a possible lead for me. “It is an unusual job, and one that requires secrecy. But the pay is good. And I know you are a good writer, so its something you are suited for.” (Writing has always been a hobby for me). She gave me only a phone-number and an address, in one of the seedier parts of San Francisco, where I live. intrigued, I asked her for the company’s URL and some more info. She laughed. “They don’t have a website. Or even a name. You’ll see. Just tell them I referred you.” Yes, it sounded suspicious, but long-term joblessness breeds desperation, and desperation has a funny way of overlooking the suspicious when it comes to putting food on the table.
The next day, I arrived at the address – the third floor in a crumbling building. The appearance of the place did not inspire confidence. After walking down a long, filthy linoleum-covered corridor lit by dimly-flickering halogen, I came to the entrance of the office itself: a crudely battered metal door with a sign that said “United Amalgamated Industries, Inc.” I later learned that this “company” changed its name almost monthly, always using bland names like that which gave no strong impression of what the company actually does. Not too hopeful, I went inside. The interior was equally shabby. There were a few long tables with folding chairs, at which about a dozen people were tapping away on old, beat-up computers. There were no decorations or ornaments of any type: not even the standard-issue office fica trees or plastic ferns. What a dump. Well, beggars can’t be choosers.
The manager, a balding man in his late forties, rose from the only stand-alone desk in the room and came forward with an easy smile. “You must be Chris. Yvette [my ex-co-worker] told me you’d be coming.” [Not our real names]. “Welcome. Let me tell you a little about what we do.” No interview, nothing. I later learned they took people based solely on referral, and that the people making the referrals, like my ex-colleague Yvette, were trained to pick out candidates based on several factors including ability to keep one’s mouth shut, basic writing skills, and desperation for work.
We sat down at his desk and he began by asking me a few questions about myself and my background, including my political views (which were basically non-existent). Then he began to explain the job. “We work on influencing people’s opinions here,” is how he described it. The company’s clients paid them to post on Internet message boards and popular chartrooms, as well as in gaming forums and social networks like Facebook and MySpace. Who were these clients? “Oh, various people,” he said vaguely. “Sometimes private companies, sometimes political groups.” Satisfied that my political views were not strong, he said I would be assigned to political work. “The best people for this type of job are people like you, without strong views,” he said with a laugh. “It might seem counterintuitive, but actually we’ve found that to be the case.” Well, OK. Fine. As long as it comes with a steady paycheck, I’d believe whatever they wanted me to believe, as the guy in Ghostbusters said.
After discussing pay (which was much better than I’d hoped) and a few other details, he then went over the need for absolute privacy and secrecy. “You can’t tell anyone what we do here. Not your wife, not your dog.” (I have neither, as it happens.) “We’ll give you a cover story and even a phone number and a fake website you can use. You will have to tell people you are a consultant. Since your background is in tech support, that will be your cover job. Is this going to be a problem for you?” I assured him it would not. “Well, OK. Shall we get started?”
“Right now?” I asked, a bit taken aback.
“No time like the present!” he said with a hearty laugh.
The rest of the day was taken up with training. Another staff member, a no-nonsense woman in her thirties, was to be my trainer, and training would only last two days. “You seem like a bright guy, you’ll get the hang of it pretty fast, I think,” she said. And indeed, the job was easier than I’d imagined. My task was simple: I would be assigned to four different websites, with the goal of entering certain discussions and promoting a certain view. I learned later that some of the personnel were assigned to internet message boards (like me), while others worked on Facebook or chat rooms It seems these three types of media each have different strategy for shilling, and each shill concentrates on one of the three in particular.
My task? “To support Israel and counter anti-Israeli, anti-Semitic posters.” Fine with me. I had no opinions one way or another about Israel, and who likes anti-Semites and Nazis? Not me, anyway. But I didn’t know too much about the topic. “That’s OK,” she said. “You’ll pick it up as you go along. For the most part, at first, you will be doing what we call “meme-patrol.” This is pretty easy. Later if you show promise, we’ll train you for more complex arguments, where more in-depth knowledge is necessary.”
She handed me two binders with sheets enclosed in limp plastic. The first was labeled simply “Israel” in magic-marker on the cover, and it had two sections .The first section contained basic background info on the topic. I would have to read and memorize some of this, as time went on. It had internet links for further reading, essays and talking points, and excerpts from some history books. The second, and larger, section was called “Strat” (short for “strategy”) with long lists of “dialogue pairs.” These were specific responses to specific postings. If a poster wrote something close to “X,” we were supposed to respond with something close to “Y.” “You have to mix it up a bit, though,” said my trainer. “Otherwise it gets too obvious. Learn to use a thesaurus.” This section also contained a number of hints for de-railing conversations that went too far away from what we were attempting. These strategies included various forms of personal attacks, complaining to the forum moderators, smearing the characters of our opponents, using images and icons effectively, and even dragging the tone of the conversation down with sexual innuendo, links to pornography, or other such things. “Sometimes we have to fight dirty,” or trainer told us. “Our opponents don’t hesitate to, so we can’t either.”
The second binder was smaller, and it contained information specific to the web sites I would be assigned to. The sites I would work were: Godlike Productions, Lunatic Outpost, CNN news, Yahoo News, and a handful of smaller sites that rotated depending on need. As stated, I was NOT assigned to work ATS (although others in my group were), which is part of the reason I am posting this here, rather than elsewhere. I wanted to post this on Godlike Productions at first, but they have banned me from even viewing that site for some reason (perhaps they are onto me?). But if somebody connected with this site can get the message to them, I think they should know about it, because that was the site I spent a good 70% of my time working on.
The site-specific info in the second binder included a brief history each site, including recent flame-wars, as well as info on what to avoid on each site so as not to get banned. It also had quite detailed info on the moderators and the most popular regged posters on each site: location (if known), personality type, topics of interest, background sketch, and even some notes on how to “push the psychological buttons” of different posters. Although I didn’t work for ATS, I did see they had a lot of info on your so-called “WATS” posters here (the ones with gold borders around their edges). “Focus on the popular posters,” my trainer told me. “These are the influential ones. Each of these is worth 50 to 100 of the lesser known names.” Each popular poster was classified as “hostile,” “friendly,” or “indifferent” to my goal. We were supposed to cultivate friendship with the friendly posters as well as the mods (basically, by brown nosing and sucking up), and there were even notes on strategies for dealing with specific hostile posters. The info was pretty detailed, but not perfect in every case. “If you can convert one of the hostile posters from the enemy side to our side, you get a nice bonus. But this doesn’t happen too often, sadly. So mostly you’ll be attacking them and trying to smear them.”
At first, like I said, my job was “meme-patrol.” This was pretty simple and repetitive; it involved countering memes and introducing new memes, and didn’t demand much in-depth knowledge of the subject. Mostly just repetitive posting based on the dialogue pairs in the “Strat” section of the first binder. A lot of my job was de-railing and spamming threads that didn’t go our way, or making accusations of racism and anti-Semitism. Sometimes I had to simply lie and claim a poster said something or did something “in another thread” they really hadn’t said or done I felt bad about this…but in the end I felt worse about the possibility of losing the first job I’d been able to get since losing my “real” job.
The funny thing was, although I started the job with no strong opinions or political views, after a few weeks of this I became very emotionally wedded to the pro-Israel ideas I was pushing. There must be some psychological factor at work…a good salesman learns to honestly love the products he’s selling, I guess. It wasn’t long before my responses became fiery and passionate, and I began to learn more about the topic on my own. “This is a good sign,” my trainer told me. “It means you are ready for the next step: complex debate.”
The “complex debate” part of the job involved a fair amount of additional training, including memorizing more specific information about the specific posters (friendly and hostile) I’d be sparring with. Here, too, there were scripts and suggested lines of argument, but we were given more freedom. There were a lot of details to this more advanced stage of the job – everything from how to select the right avatar to how to use “demotivationals” (humorous images with black borders that one finds floating around the web). Even the proper use of images of cats was discussed. Sometimes we used faked or photo-shopped images or doctored news reports (something else that bothered me).
I was also given the job of tying to find new recruits, people “like me” who had the personality type, ability to keep a secret, basic writing/thinking skills, and desperation necessary to sign on a shill. I was less successful at this part of the job, though, and I couldn’t find another in the time I was there.
After a while of doing this, I started to feel bad. Not because of the views I was pushing (as I said, I was first apolitical, then pro-Israel), but because of the dishonesty involved. If my arguments were so correct, I wondered, why did we have to do this in the first place? Shouldn’t truth propagate itself naturally, rather than through, well…propaganda? And who was behind this whole operation, anyway? Who was signing my paychecks? The stress of lying to my parents and friends about being a “consultant” was also getting to me. Finally, I said enough was enough. I quit in September 2011. Since then I’ve been working a series of unglamorous temp office jobs for lower pay. But at least I’m not making my living lying and heckling people who come online to express their views and exercise freedom of speech.
A few days ago I happened to be in the same neighborhood and on a whim thought I’d check out the old office. It turns out the operation is gone, having moved on. This, too, I understood, is part of their strategy: Don’t stay in the same place for too long, don’t keep the same name too long, move on after half a year or so. Keeping a low profile, finding new employees through word of mouth: All this is part of the shill way of life. But it is a deceptive way of life, and no matter how noble the goals (I remain pro-Israel, by the way), these sleazy means cannot be justified by the end.
This is my confession. I haven’t made up my mind yet about whether I want to talk more about this, so if I don’t respond to this thread, don’t be angry. But I think you should know: Shills exist. They are real. They walk among you, and they pay special attention to your popular gold-bordered WATS posters. You should be aware of this. What you choose to do with this awareness is up to you.
Yours,
ExShill