I AM Present

I AM Present
It's here! The ascension times are upon us. And both a simple and complex choice is at hand for us all.

We can choose Love or Fear.
If we choose Love, we also commit to loving ourselves, owning all of us in the process. Without this energetic shift within, we cannot fully shine as co-creative human masters and walk free in our sovereignty. This is also a prerequisite for 5th Dimensional living.
If we choose Fear, we remain in the cosy confines of the 3 rd Dimensional matrix. Here we don't need to confront our shadow selves or take responsibility for all of us. This choice naturally means we will also need to wait for the next cycle of ascension opportunity to come around again for us.
Ascending in physical form isn't a given. And an intellectual or emotional desire alone won't take you there.
Subsequently 'heaven' and 'hell' are both states of being right here on earth, manifesting through our very own consciousness choices.
And because of current collapsing timelines all is unfolding in greater polarity right now.

What are you choosing...?

Expanding our consciousness to make the leap into the 5th Dimension is an energetic one. My experiences and path of personal growth have shown the many boulders on the road to success. Fact is, it's difficult to accept and integrate truth within, if you're not aware of the subtle forces that oppose it and the Light. Ones which subsequently block us from choosing our highest possible lives/outcomes. And most often, without our conscious awareness or consent.
Therefore, some of the related components I'll be exploring will include: understanding our slave mentality and how to break free; our galactic connection to both STO (service to other) extra-terrestrials and STS (service to self) ET's; the ongoing psy-ops programming by the Illuminati to keep us at war with self and each other; how lower thought form entities feed off our power, keeping us fragmented; our Inner Earth family and the Lemurian/Atlantean connection; relationship mirrors to Shadow/Inner Child healing on the road to wholeness.
All this ties in with the coming revelations to be disclosed to humanity - who we really are, where we came from and where we're going...

In magic, madness and mystery!

Monday, August 14, 2017


14 August 2017

So you want to serve others and help humanity to awaken and heal and have better choices before them?

But how will it impact others if you’re still not 100% clear and anchored in your own God self? Can you still serve and, if so, will you have any of the desired positive impact that God requires of us?

I asked this question again recently, being one who falls into this exact category myself and heard:

‘You were born to serve others and serve them ye shall. Whether ye are currently experiencing your own self-imposed woundedness or not, there comes a time where all will rise together as One, that all may feel the impact. There will be no ‘ifs’ or ‘buts’ about it, but rather a rising which feels somewhat automatic. Though there will be nothing automatic or mechanised about it, it will feel as though a switch in you has been turned on and you will feel compelled to do and be what you came to the planet to do and be.

Hard as it might be for some of you to envision this, based on where and how you currently perceive yourselves or don’t in terms of your consciousness, your true Selves know all and will guide you accordingly. Even as you struggle in your day-to-day existence twixt your True [God/Higher] Selves and your little selves - with all manner of scenarios and seemingly endless inner looping in your mental and emotional landscape.

There is much work yet to do, though some may have convinced themselves it is all over (for them) even before it’s all begun. Not the case, of course.

All reach the collective and personal pinnacle shortly.”

What I was musing over initially…again, was how it would be possible to reach the hearts of people when we’re not yet fully anchored in our own. Oh the irony and contradictory nature of life in duality! That’s no new question to
me, either, over the many years of my own inner journeying and seeking.

Seekers seek. It’s what we do. But a time must come when we stop the seeking and step into the finding; the Beingness of our GodSelves, the Truth of who we already are. We have spent all these years seeking and preparing just so we could re-member ourselves again…and reunite.

If I use the word seeker in conversation now, even as I did way back when all this began for me, I still find that whether they’re of traditional religious stock or New Age, folk are largely still attempting to ‘sell’ me their spiritual wares. They still seem determined to convince me their guide, guru, teachings or latest techniques discovered ARE the answer/s to what I seek. It doesn't bother me anymore as I have a comfortable way of dealing with it now. It seems everyone seeking has the keys to enlightenment, or so they would like us to believe. Without any hypocrisy, I used to do the exact same thing!

When I lived in Japan for a short time, a German guy had just taken me to meet someone at his spiritual group. He kept repeating: ‘Now that’s what true enlightenment looks like’, referring to the foreign woman friend and facilitator of the Zen Buddhist group. I’d only just met him and was debating with myself whether I wanted to connect with them again or not while living in Japan. Frankly, I couldn’t see what he was talking about regarding the ‘enlightened’ woman...

But that was many years ago. And what does 'greatness' or 'enlightenment' mean to me now? Nothing more or less than one who walks with their inner God 24/7.

More importantly, can I and we acknowledge that WE are ALL great and wondrous beings in terms of our origins to even have made it here on planet, in the first instance? We must be to have been selected to come here, even though the agreement was to remain in a state of amnesia (for most of us).

But that act or state of enlightenment/Oneness needs us to accelerate it - through our ever changing perception. Starting with how we perceive ourSelves. The more we see ourSelves as gods and goddesses, the more we identify with our God Self and the more we see ourSelves, others and things for what they truly are.

So I may have a perception or judgement (never to be confused with what I previously wrote about doing the essential assessing for discernment purposes) about what I think the act of becoming One with God or becoming enlightened is all about. Because it's not been within my realm of experience in this body or life, my perceptions of it remains a mixture of speculation and some memory of the 3/4 experiences I've been blessed with the past few years. In these 24/7 joy-infused permanent states, one of which lasted nearly two months, I thought I came very close to knowing Oneness.

But a couple of decades ago and in my New Age Neurotic days :-), it was a much hazier, distant concept. And all in my head, really. The thing is, even then in my flitting from one new teaching/group/product/therapy flower to another, I could quickly tell who wasn't enlightened. If I had some emotional investment or an attachment there, then it still never usually took longer than a month or two to reveal to me. Basically, my HS must have been working very hard. There were subsequently a few dangerous situations and narrow escapes from numerous of the self-proclaimed enlightened.

The New Age and I had a permanent parting of the ways, though, in my early 30's. Eventually I was kicked out of yet another group for challenging the facilitator. Nobody wanted to hear about our multidimensional nature, our galactic brethren then or the inhabitants of Agartha, the Inner Earth communities. They wanted to sit and stew in blaming past lives for their current one and sacrifice Truth for being ‘positive’ exclusively. And they definitely didn't want to talk about God.

I've understood more about what Oneness/enlightenment is by knowing what it's not. That's the story of how my life's unfolded - learning more about who I am through experience by discovering what I'm not. This process of elimination started young. I knew what I didn’t want to do after school and knew I didn’t want relationships/family in the ‘regular’ way. I realise now those choices and others like it were merely to open me to other more important choices on my path that my HS was impulsing me to.

While my inner knowing has grown over the years, it seems like my actual growth may have stood still recently, though God would probably beg to differ. Except I don’t think he begs, as such, at all. I’d say the last few years for me have felt more like the movie, Groundhog Day, than anything else.

So if this grand ad-venture has been a failure and I’m going to know Oneness only through shrugging off this fleshly outfit, then I can be at peace with that. On the other hand, if by some miracle of mercy and wonder I am to know this state permanently while still in this form, then I re-joy-ce!

We intend. We consciously desire to reach Him within us. Our intentions and goodwill and efforting apparently do count for something. The thing is, do any of us really know for certain what we are choosing at the deeper levels of our being? And how aware are we of the predatory mind's hidden unconscious be-lie-fs that conflict with and hinder the moves we make to let go, heal, grow and expand daily?
And therein lies the rub…or does it?

Either way, this Oneness is God's great gift to us all; something very beautiful and special that we can all look forward to experiencing. Whether we're conscious seekers of Enlightenment/Oneness or not.

Music comes in the form of Tashi’s theme, from the movie Samsara.

Samsara is really recommended viewing if you like epic foreign culture movies and dont mind subs. It's got a minimalist script and expansive cinematography and it has a kind of poetic wistfulness that permeates, aided by spectacular mountain scenery. Besides, the chief character Tashi, who goes off in search of life experience after growing up as a monastery monk, has such an alluringly pure, childlike innocence about him. It was a joy to watch this film and days later it still lingers. Here it is with English subs:

Friday, August 4, 2017


I'm not going to explain again and bore you about why I've recently not been able to post weekly – but suffice it to say if I DON'T –know that I'm encountering troubles of one type or another with my tech.

I started this topic below just after I posted the last message and am finally able to post the whole piece now, after intermittent computer access. It's definitely not something new by any stretch of the imagination, but it's been concerning me again. I still see a lot of new and old seekers continuing to give away of their power here and there; to this thing and that; to this one or that.



Discerning clearly is one of the greatest tools we can possess at this time. Actually, at any time. Within both ourSelves and others. And especially apropos those who set themselves up as Wayshowers (whether or not they refer to themselves as such), guides,teachers, healers or readers.

Attractive, charismatic personas who bring easy understanding to complex matters, warm and convivial healer folk, the channelled messages brigade and those who become magnets to others for providing speciality knowledge that many currently hunger for, all bear an extra burden. If they wish to remain uncorrupted, that is.

Integrity,ethics and the Laws Of God become corroded in a well-intentioned person all too often. For these momentous times it's also worthwhile mentioning that wherever the God complex is NOT running the show within individuals, the anti-christ is jumping in for the kill, creating all manner of destabilising scenarios. Mostly without the knowledge of the individual being 'used' – and primarily designed to weaken the resolve of an individual or group. So these are particularly precarious times energetically.

Human consciousness still remains heavily programmed with the unnatural urge to seek validation from authorities outside of our very Self, giving our precious God power away, which is the purpose of the programming. It's still more comfortable for many of us to defer to another human being or another's body of work rather than to worship at the alter of our personal inner God until we are able to glean something of the answers we seek.
So let's familiarise ourselves a little with some of the current characteristics of both the Authentic and Inauthentic Wayshower as per my own observations:


Open Sharing

AW's will almost always want to openly share of their wisdom, knowledge or information given them by their own inner source. Generally, you won't find them 'precious' about their material. Helping or serving humanity in this way comes naturally. They want to make what they bring forth is as accessible as possible to others that it can be of benefit. A good mark of this openness is that it's often extended to the Wayshower themselves. By far in the majority, I've found they are personally unafraid to include speaking of their own vulnerabilities or troubled histories. Often I've noted they use these sharings as an example and a means to reference whatever the current subject under discussion.


AW's may well speak authoritatively, but there's often a glaring absence of the 'I know it all as I'm the one with the answers, not you'. So if your Wayshower welcomes being questioned or challenged without getting defensive – on their work or personally - this is altogether a good sign. It's also the mark of a person who has developed emotional intelligence, where empathy is the overriding response, rather than ego smallness. Which generally makes them even more accessible to helping others also. Admitting to mistakes goes hand-in-hand with this, demonstrating they don't believe they're above/below anyone else.

Deferring To The Heart

Most AW's prioritise coming from the heart as much as possible in their sharing of information. They know that their God within/Higher Self IS the authority and agree to be a conduit for healing/conveying information in this manner.

Money for Services

This is a touchy one for many – another programme within humanity which goes along the lines of 'if it relates to a spiritual practise or teaching, then it's of God and should be issued free. Unless the Wayshower survives on the donations of others or is comfortable enough materially to be able to give it all away for free ( which would presumably be a tiny majority), most need to create an income from their offerings, particularly if their commitment is a full-time one. I know of two people who are materially-comfortable already. While the one travels the world offering sought-after free spiritually-growthful seminars, the other, a healer, doesn't want to offer anything free as she feels it undervalues her. She's not too busy.

I feel God will create the support structures here; determined by the intentions and motives of the individual in as far as they're doing His work. What I've found is that many of the AW's will often be flexible in this department. They may charge to access a forum, but then much of their material would be free. Or if they're healers of one type or another and you're dirt poor but are genuinely in need, they are more often than not willing to assist you, anyway.

In Service to God=Serving Humanity's Best Interests

How do you know whether the AW is in service to God and not primarily to him/herself? For starters, look out for the AW referring to God/Higher Self, Creator and constantly giving that ultimate authority the glory, rather than themselves. At the very least, the AW will demonstrate or express that they are a conduit for Him and His will. Spiritual teacher Myrtle Fillimore (1845-1931) here:

Try going beyond the narrator's voice to discover how you feel:

or read the words of the Impersonal Life book without distraction here:


In Service to Self/The Darkie (Reptilian) Agenda

By contrast, this can sometimes be pretty difficult to discern. Because many a time, these ones know not they are NOT being motivated by God within them. Though you could obtain more information in a net or physical encounter with the person, sometimes words are all you have to go on. These are some typical anti-christ characteristics used: language/concept inversions, omissions, obfuscations (Truths with untruths mixed together),trickery that moves an audience away from God as the highest authority, leading the mind astray that creates more separation within, subtly feeding the ego (Easing God Out). Also, a good tell-tale sign here is the eyes – do they look or feel 'dead' rather than truly peaceful/centered?

Late 19th century author of The Radiant I Am, Emma Curtis Hopkins, appeared to say all the right things, on the face of it. But she kept replacing the word 'God' with 'Good' (due to peoples' resistance to the word God, she claimed), said 'I am ruled by my...divine ego' (which she says "...is the 'Jesus Christ' in you"), said '...it shall rule with an iron fist' (related to the I AM, if I remember right). She also spoke of '...the man child who will rule all nations with a rod of iron'. A quote of hers goes thus: "What was that which was not born when you were born, has never been interested in anything you have done while you have been on this planet, and will not die when you lie down?". I know what I feel. See what you feel here:


Popular celebrity guru, Teal Swan. She says 'humans are evolving towards polyamory' Really? Some suggest she's an MK Ultra psychopath. She could even be a synthetic, a liquid crystal hologram clone run by a reptilian, like an inordinate amount of other VIP's out there I've researched-hence the lopsided image of her on this site. Ex followers and ex husband, Sarb Swan's take here:


[her 'story' complete with half-naked porny-style pic of her]


Shrouded in Mystique

You may have initially been attracted to what translates as an aura of 'mystique' surrounding someone-and consequently become a follower of such an IW. In my late 20's I remember falling exactly for that in Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh (aka Osho – another CIA-run 'guru', who's corrupt doings were later brought to light). He almost seemed to cast a collective hypnotic spell over his audience when he spoke his poetic 'wisdom'. Words at the end of sentences containing the letter 's' would be drawn out sybilantly, for extra snakey-like charm effect. We're often limited by our senses in making accurate assessments about others, instead of following feelings/the heart. Be aware and objective enough therefore, to see beyond the feel-good factor of the charismatic persona!

Challenges Unwelcome

If your spiritual teacher or guide is comfortable intellectually in discussion on whatever the subject, but struggles in resistance when his/her students want to engage more personally and start healthy questioning, this is a warning bell. If reactions to personal challenges suddenly transform into a need for attack in defence of his/her little self, rather than displaying an emotionally-intelligent response, know the person hasn't yet done enough of the inner work to guide others in a balanced manner. Depending on your needs and where you're at, this may or may not detract from what's being presented.

These last two aren't specific characteristics as much as overrused psy ops warfare methods which produce Inauthentic Wayshowers :

Disinfo Agents As Consciousness Authorities

As the darkie agents run amok for their shadow governments everywhere at this time, I did a bit more research on one of their 'campaigns' recently. The objective of the Chakra Removal campaign was to convince as many spiritual seekers as possible to remove their chakras, their God-given portals for expanding consciousness. It appears it began around 2011, maybe earlier, with paid agents offering to remove peoples' chakras. Shadow government's choice of employees was beyond weird as some IW's promoting this emanated mental disorders or addictions quite visibly, as I was able to sense. Anyone that sees auras will better clarify that. Even if you can't feel them out, what else to look out for in similar scenarios with suspected IW offerings? Research everything and anything about the person/offering BEFORE making any rash decisions. As importantly, use other peoples' experience of and with them to guide you. The net is littered with agents posing as both whistleblowers and individuals/groups purporting to work for the Light/God.

Personally, I'm just getting over my current nausea after discoveries about Lasha Darkmoon aka Nina Rosenwald, who's work I previously admired greatly. She funded more than $1 million in 2013 alone towards the Islamaphobia campaign. Imo and others, she's a glaring tranny man[ie a member of the Zio gender inversion brigade!] confirming where he/she stands.



Starseeds Used Unconsciously as IW's

This one may be the hardest of all to swallow. But this is the most subtle form of mind control that perpetuates at this time on our planet. The programmes exists to confuse the mind, to divert, to create separation scenarios within groups/individuals and include targeting Starseeds and Lightworkers - especially those who may be particularly influential or have a large following in order to take them down. We know of 'sleepers' being used in acts of terrorism. bursts of outrage coming from others for no seemingly-apparent reason and we've heard of gaslighting. We also know that many Lightworkers are protected by God and our IF's (invisible friends and family). Yet, apart from those very, very few on this planet who have cleared all their emotional baggage that no doorways within are ever open to the anti-christ to potentially work through them, everyone else is at risk emotionally and spiritually - to some degree or another. Unity between people who stand in their God sovereignty are likely THE most frightening group on earth right now for the darkies.
So while most of us may not think of ourselves as Wayshowers or anything other than seekers of God and Oneness, in relation to the majority of the world's population, Wayshowers are what we are. Yet we may still unintentionally behave Inauthentically. While we even have a baby toe in ego's door, such is bound to happen, making us vulnerable to being 'triggered and used', until we are wholly anchored in the Heaven of our God Heart. Getting conscious asap so we can clear more of ourselves for God to work through us is the answer.

Blessings of peace in God to each one of you.


My music choice today is with the Lighted Lira, our local Afro jazz queen, called Listen :

Thursday, July 20, 2017


[A quick note to apologise for no posts for the past couple of weeks. Another case of MEGA interference and another computer down my side. This followed several of my comments on public radio on topics such as surveillance and remote weaponry used on the public, the Holohoax and more]

20 JULY 2017



Aaah – dearly beloved friends and family of Earth:

What a pleasure it is to come to you at this time; at this most important juncture in the history and future of your world. A most propitious time it is – for every soul on planet Earth has the good fortune and privilege of being here at this particular moment in time.

Each one of you have chosen it thus. For both your own experience as One with God, as well as what you can contribute personally to those around you, and collectively.

Each leaves their etheric footprint and no life is wasted, no matter how dire it may seem to be from the outside. Whether judged by the person him/herself or by others. For life presents as per your view of it, as per your perspective which includes deeply-ingrained memory and belief. And this too you have experienced.

For you ones on planet who have consciously chosen a path devoted to seeking God and living his life within you, there are multitudinous surprises awaiting. Yes, of the most delightful kind! *smiling*.
Long has it been awaiting you and long have you prepared for such times and experiences.

We, your families, friends and loved ones, are all here by your sides to fully participate and help you along into this period of great personal expansion – back into that which you already are and ever have been.
You will know the fullness of all that you are and the many gracious gifts of God that each of you have been holding within, awaiting this period. Wonder of wonders! We are thrilled for all of you and all that is to flood forth that will be your new mainstay in life.

Glory of glories! How divinely-anointed you all are, our dear beloved children of God and Earth. You have worked well toward that which comes to you now and are fully deserving of it all. KNOW THIS, deeply within you.

It can be no other way. For you all have fought the good fight and are emerging intact, though somewhat battered and bruised, so to speak. Emerging and rising once again into your divine heritage – the gods and goddesses that you are!

And so it is…
The time is nigh.

We wish you all the magnificence that you already are and we are delighted to be participating in the journey along with you.

You are the prizes for Earth and her people; the great [as yet] unopened gifts. Like the Russian matryoshka dolls, with layer upon layer of gifts, in turn to offer humanity who come shortly to drink of your sweet waters.

We are proud…so very proud of you all.
Great love and blessings upon you be, now and forever more.

I AM EM, HS of SK, as ONE we are.

This is exquisite for my current musical choice:

Sunday, July 2, 2017


1 July 2017

By Shellee-Kim Gold

Knowledge is Personal Power; Personal Power Leads to Your Sovereignty

Yet another South African journalist dies. Her name was Suna Venter. She was one of numerous journalists to die this year so far, not unlike many countries around the globe.
Just like the recent death of journalist Sarah Kershaw, who used to work for the New York Times. She exposed the CIA's MK Ultra operation, digging into survivors stories. Or investigative journalist, Liam Scheff, of 911, HIV, Fema, fracking and the CIA, amongst others. After dental work, he began experiencing a 'drill' and a 'siren' noise permanently in his ears, which eventually drove him to suicide.

A handful of journalists who died from natural causes or 'medical' complaints? Hardly.

In my opinion and from my observations, Suna's death was the work of Deep State and the mainstream media mafia. She, along with seven other journalists working for the SABC stood up in resistance to the government-run corporation. They were unhappy with the fact the organisation was choosing to stop airing footage of so-called violent protests.


During the past year Suna was shot at, was on the receiving end of threatening phone calls, her flat was broken into and she experienced other harassment. I also believe she suffered harassment from electronic or psychotronic remote devices, which led to her untimely death at the age of 32.

Officially, she was diagnosed by a doctor as having developed 'Broken Heart Syndrome', causing rapid heart muscle weakness. She eventually died in her flat from A so-called broken heart. But unofficially, I'm pretty certain she was targeted with a remote device. You know, the kind that are activated from a distance. These might be any one or more of sonic, scalar, bioelectromagnetic and/or DNA weapons using sonic radiation or EM that are all undetectable.

If she was the type of person that had researched such things, she might have carried a metal sheet with her to place across her chest. This acts to deflect weapons aimed at the heart and which could have saved her.

Here's a description of how the heart is attacked with such weapons

Speaking from experience: the remote heart attack weapon can attack from a distance, invisibly; can send immense amounts of energy directly to the central chest region, creating a sense of congestion, pressure, and an impending heart attack; can send pencils or pulses of directed energy and subsequent pain sensations from above onto the left-side of the chest; can send pulses of directed energy from behind, near the spine; can send pulses of directed energy from underneath, near the left side of the chest, going up under the ribs; can send pulses of energy into the chest region also from the right-hand side of the chest.


Deep State's 'silent weapons for a quiet war' include these in the CIA's 40's or 50's leaked document of the same name to the public. Basically, they've been refining their weapons for decades. One MD. a Finnish doctor, Rauni Kilde was given cancer by one of these devices. She was a global speaker on mind control, UFO's and reincarnation. She said her cancer was the result of beaming technology and scalar waver. Within 6 weeks she was dead. But not before sending a note to an annonymous person/friend, confirming how she had been hurt by a doctor in hospital.

Back to our local Suna. Either way, 'heart problems', cancers, radiation burns, thyroid-related illnesses and much else can all be 'given' to the targeted individual (TI) from many metres away. Or through walls, from helicopters/planes and satellites, amongst others.

Then, additionally, there can be the poisoning of gas or/and one's water supply in the home. These are just a fraction of Deep State's 'silent weapons'.


Add to the mix the joys of synthetic telepathy. The same devices or waves beamed from towers used on religious zealots who 'hear God'. Or those who think they're channelling all sorts of beings from the Lighted realm – especially the ones at the top of the galactic and celestial hit parade.

Many poor souls are fed continuous streams of abusive verbal garbage by this telepathy, have all sorts of nasty thoughts superimposed on their processes and live in a state of continous mental harassment.
Implants can be transferred into the system physically or etherically. Through a handshake, via drinking water or dental work – as in Liam's case above, I believe, or can be transferred etherically through a handler or an unconscious 'agent'.

Their effects are too many to mention, but suffice to say, they work on all levels of the body and mind. See this diagram:



Then there's Tinnitus, as it is medically known – which is continuous ringing in the ears. I would say that Tinnitus is in fact scalar mind control and a remote neural monitoring system combined. Many, many TI's complain of these ear/sound frequencies or ear ringing. For some people, the frequencies get worse when they make some type of personal progress. TI's thoughts, dreams, emotional states and frequency levels are constantly being monitored and TI's are therefore tracked. This, apart from regular dream insertions and their superimposed thoughts disguised to look like your own.
At the extreme end are the mass murderers, serial killers, lone gunmen, many of whom state they heard voices telling them to do their respective heinous deeds. Or they say they heard God tell them to do it. These ones were also likely set up with other programming prior to these events. Sleeper cells, I think they're known as.

You know your own mind. So test yourself on these, if you suspect this is what maybe happening to you.

Depending on who's being targeted, there could be any amount of mental, emotional and physical symptoms brought on by a wide range of devices, used for various purposes. Though all share the same thing in common: to attempt to destroy the lives, bodies and minds that they beam their weapons to.
Their objective is that you, one way or another, take yourself out.
Unless you're important enough in their perception to be a more serious threat like some of the abovementioned folk were.

However, if you don't accept this and choose to survive, they'll try to make your life as nasty as possible. They may ensure you are removed from your place of work and do all in their power to make sure you can never find work again. They may prevent you posting on the internet or being able to reply to jobs, while simultaneously randomly preventing the sending/receiving of your email. Ditto Skype and your cell phone. Other tactics may be to prevent payment for work that's owed you, accessing many companies. Or perhaps they might just massacre the hard drive of your computer altogether so you have minimal access to the net.

This all might sound dismal, but...there's always a loophole.


Even if you have made a contract to experience this at some level for whatever the reason, you still have the power of choice in your response. This is your free will gift from God.
Once you give in to fear – especially if you are gang-stalked or subjected to psychic/spiritual attacks – you have opened the door wide to these agents. FEAR=False Evidence Appearing Real is the opposite of what you want.

*Make the most of each and every day – live it as though it were your last. Really LISTEN to the birdsong, smell a flower, marvel at someone and something. And then...bless each and everything and thank God for your experiencing of it. Including you! You are living life - in the ways you can. For every uncomfortable day's worth of experience, you can find these many other blessings to balance it out with.

*Anger, depression and the need for revenge (against your perpetrators) are all low frequency responses. These persons/psychopaths and their invisible parasitic equivalents, the dark forces, feast on such low frequencies. And why it is IMPERATIVE that you immediately take yourself up into the higher, lighter frequencies.

Suggestions To Raise Frequencies:

Start singing one of your favourite songs, out loud. Or sing it to and for God, within you.

Re-member one of the happiest times in your life or a beautiful memory that evokes love. Repeat.

Do something that really stimulates your passion.

Watch/listen to your favourite comedian for 10 minutes – have a good, all encompassing belly laugh.

If you're a physically expressive person, start dancing to music you love.

EN-JOY yourself, in short.


Depending on what you came to earth to experience and who you are as soul, you will have varying degrees of protection from God and His Lighted emissaries. Besides your Guardian Angel.

Whether we're conscious or not of it, we're all on a journey to living God's will, life and heart through us. And we're at different places on the journey. I'm particularly thinking here of those who haven't been inclined towards God, but may consider themselves spiritually open seekers or Truthers.

I'd like to suggest that you call on God for His guidance and protection. Asking daily for the protection is imperative.
Ask Him to bring you His Lighted specialists to protect you at all the levels of your being. There are experts on everything in the higher dimensions – if it exists on earth, there are invisible beings that can help heal/counter it.

May each and every one of you that I've encountered, and the many more I haven't, be blessed in the peace and protection of God. And may you find the ways and help that will ease, soothe and centre your body, mind, heart and spirit.

Comfort and Love
In the Power of the One Authority

We cannot know the Truth of ourselves without knowing the Truth of our world

Friday, June 23, 2017


23 June 2017

by Mother Mary

through SK

It is with great joy that I come once again to greet you through this one, Shellee-Kim. Of course, we know her by a different name :-) But the names matter not in the face of who you all are and be, and what you have come here to do.

It is time to begin your respective missions; to embrace the fullness of yourSelf that you may know what these missions of service are. For you have not come for nought, but for most specific purposes and reasons.

We, of the Lighted realms, look on in anticipation of far more of you much more quickly arriving at the Truth of yourSelves now. This period creates the opening you have been looking for for so long.
While some of you have been holding on by your shoestrings, others have felt the end of this incarnation for them was near. Yet others have sensed a deep testing within these sensations – and feelings you have had about yourselves, life, the world and God.
You are not quite done. But moving into this next phase is a magnificent opportunity to far more easily heal of yourselves – for once and for all.

It is with great pleasure that we also can now come even closer to you – than we have previously been able to. And so we again remind you to call upon us for our assistance, no matter the issue. If we cannot assist, we will gladly put you in touch with those that can. It is how we work in our realm :-)

We are of the Sisterhood, the sacred and holy Daughters of God. And we finally come to make our presence known upon the earth. This has been a very long time (of yours) in the making and for reasons known and unknown have produced the seemingly-ongoing delays you have experienced. But be that as it may, these are propitious times ahead, indeed.

[SK: I'm given a mind movie of a cricket match; someone running to the final? Wicket as 'strike out'/game over occurs. Not even sure what it means, as I don't like and know nothing about sports or cricket]
Running to the final wicket to proclaim this 'game over' is exactly where you all are right now. And it is for you, our beloveds on Earth, to proclaim it. As you continue to re-member yourSelves, this is precisely what will simultaneously happen.

As the very mask of your little selves, your personas, fall to the ground – in a manner of speaking – so will you know the real you; the glorious Godly you. Once this is glimpsed by you, no longer will you be able to remain separate from yourSelves. God has ordained this and so it is.

How wondrous are the times and opportunities in which you live on the Earth, beloveds. As has been stated previously, you are the envy of many onlookers from elsewhere across galaxies.

For too long the ones who believe they control you and the fate of your beloved planet Earth have convinced themselves of many things. For one, that they would emerge the winners. Yet while they have quietly been tormenting you from behind the scenes, so intent were they on your destruction, that they didn't look behind them to see what was coming.
They have seen it now. You could say they have seen the Light, though they like it not one bit. and they have realised they walked into their own booby trap. This is their outcome which is now at hand. From here on out the Light becomes ever more bright, along with your growing sense of yourSelf. This is your outcome.

We wish you so very well and much success in the times ahead. You are being equipped to more than adequately handle what comes.

I AM your beloved Mother Mary
Grateful for this opportunity once again
And carrying much love to each one of you.

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Our Re-membrance At The End Of An Elaborate Game

20 June 2017

Our Re-membrance At The End Of An Elaborate Game

20 June 2017

We are great, experienced and wondrous souls. All of us – without exception.

We came back from the future to this time-space on this beloved planet, Mama Earth. We came because each of our records and personal history had/has something unique to contribute to the planet, her people and to our own continued evolution on our respective journeys back to God.
None of it was a mistake – cruel or otherwise.

It was only the density of the experience each of us has had that could not be foreseen. Or rather, our reaction to it. For indeed, the vibrationary ‘sludge’ that has affected us in our physical experience has been paralysing for many Lightworkers. Combined with the forgetfullness…of who we are.

Though the successful outcome of this grande finale may well be known by all in the higher dimensions of Light(including your very own Selves), it was not seen that you – our prized brethren currently on the Earth – would NOT be able to overcome the density surrounding you with the purity and strength of your Light.

Of course, this does not alter the outcome, but it has been a major reason for the repeated delays, as you perceive theM. This – being caught up in the vibrationary ‘sludge’ – and combined with the other factor in identifying with the ego more than you identify with your Higher/God Self has also been both cause and compounded the effects you have experienced on Earth.

This is by no means to apportion blame. But rather, an answer that some/many of you may wish to have a little clarity on apropo delays.

I used the word ‘sludge’ earlier. A very apt word it is, too. As for many of you, your walk upon the Earth has literally been like trying to move through sludge/mud much of the time. I speak here particularly of etheric/spiritual experiences which then filter down into the physical mind-body experience.

Though there are a few who have been successful at freeing themselves that their walk is a Light-er one, by far the majority have not similarly been able to do so. More’s the pity.

However, as you now go forward you will clearly begin to know and see and feel
within you when you are ego-identified. These responses will begin to feel foreign, out of place; to you who would walk in God. You will be aware with a new level of objectivity and consciously choose to move back into the Truth of you…your Higher/God Self.

This has already begun for many of you. Now you are to feel it with greater intensity as you move to more permanently claim back ALL THAT YOU ARE.

I speak these words today to offer comfort to you all. It comes with my love. The game of not knowing who and what you are is at an end. Your minds and emotions will no longer lag behind your souls – and nor will your hearts.

It is time to be all you came here to be. That time is now.

Blessings be poured upon each of you as you spread your wings.


This short sci-fi movie script is perfect for many of us. My only objection is the scriptwriter's outcome as being a negative one for earth. I said so in the comments on youtube.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

The 8 Stages Of Conscious Evolution - Stephen Parato/Stevie P

Have you ever wondered…

About what level of consciousness you’re truly at?

Not in terms of it being a contest, or to say you’re better/worse than other people, but as a kind of inner GPS that simply tells you where you are.

As humans, we tend to have very distorted and biased perspectives, especially when it comes to ourselves.

It’s really easy to go on a yoga retreat and think you’ve transcended stress forever, or think you’re enlightened after reading a few spiritual books.

This is why it’s crucial to have references that “tell it like it is” and objectively reflect where you’re at.

I recently came across what can be described as a map of consciousness. It’s a research paper by Justin Faerman entitled Mapping the Evolution of Consciousness: A Holistic Framework for Psychospiritual Development.

This paper describes, in plain English, eight stages of consciousness. And it’s not abstract or woo-woo. It’s straightforward, simple to understand and backed by a lot of research.

Here are the stages outlined in the paper…

The 8 Stages of Conscious Evolution

Note: The first 2 stag

es are considered lower consciousness, while stages 3-8 are considered higher consciousness. This is not a judgment of being better or worse, but simply a means of classification.

Stage 1: Life Happens to Me (Externalization)
Stage 1 is categorized by patterns of externalization and an overall victim mentality. The dominant emotions are fear, disdain and hopelessness. There is also a belief that life cannot be trusted.

In this stage, blame is placed on other individuals, society, government, nature, disease, etc. and other elements believed to be outside of one’s conscious control and influence.

The motivating forces of stage 1 are safety and security.

Dominant Belief Structures:
Life is not safe; I am not safe

Mantra for Evolution:
“God does not play dice with the universe.” – Albert Einstein

Stage 2: Life Happens by Me (Control)
In this second stage, individuals realize that they have some degree of control. Yet this control is often motivated by fear and survival.

For example, war is an extension of this stage of consciousness. The enemy is perceived as a threat, and because of this, people believe they are morally justified to kill, eliminate or repress that enemy.

We also see various reflections of this stage of consciousness in our collective world. Look at how most people treat the environment and interpersonal relationships. Or consider the dominant mentality of politics and business.

This level of awareness is cut off from the following deeper understanding: Life is not a random series of events over which control must be exerted, but a deeper reflection of the internal psychodynamics of a person’s own mind and consciousness.

Dominant Belief Structures:
I must make it so; What I cannot control will destroy me.

Mantra for Evolution:
“If you bring forth what is within you, then that which is within you will be your salvation. If you do not bring forth what is within you, then that which is within you will destroy you.” – Gnostic Gospels

Stage 3 : Life Happens in Me (Creator)
In this stage, the individual begins to understand the direct connection between their own perceptions, beliefs and emotional state and the conditions of their life, relationships, experiences and reality as a whole.

This level of consciousness is represented by a fundamental shift, from disempowerment to empowerment.

In order to fully complete this stage, an individual must undergo a deep transformational process that includes the purging of all perceptual distortions (limiting beliefs) and the healing/release of all emotional wounds and traumas. The emergence of consciousness into later stages is observed in direct proportion to the evolution of an individual through this process of deep inner healing and transformational work.

Dominant Belief Structures:
I am in control; I am creative

Useful Psycho-Spiritual Practices:
Mindfulness, Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing therapy, Emotional freedom techniques, Neuro-linguistic programming, Trauma release exercises, Psychotherapy, Ho’oponopono, Introspection

Mantra for Evolution:
“Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakens.” – Carl Jung

Stage 4: Life Happens For Me (Receiver)
In this stage, we see the evolution of the self into the beginnings of deep joy and peace.

As the resistance to perceived undesirable circumstances in life falls away and one begins to understand that there is an intelligent ‘flow’ operating in every moment guiding the evolution of consciousness on both an individual and collective level through what could be dualistically termed positive and negative experiences.

The individual realizes here that even in great suffering, there is great wisdom and potential for expansion and evolution and that nothing is out of place, ever has been or ever will be.

Dominant Belief Structures:
I am loved; I am supported

Useful Psycho-Spiritual Practices:
Seeing everything as perfect, Surrender, Acceptance, Letting Go, Embracing Flow and Effortlessness, Meditation

Mantra For Evolution:
“Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at the moment.” – Eckhart Tolle

Stage 5: Life Happens Through Me (Philosopher)
At this stage of consciousness, the individual begins to understand and observe that the Universe is evolving itself through them.

The individual begins to realize that all perceived suffering or negative events are either:
a) Created or called into their reality by aspects of their own consciousness in an effort to be resolved and transcended as part of their individual evolution and as part of the larger collective evolution or…
b) Exist due to their conscious or unconscious resistance to what is unfolding, which is essentially a resistance of oneself.

Individuals in stage 5 live more through their intuition, as intuition becomes clearer and clearer as one moves up the stages.

Dominant Belief Structures:
I am safe; Everything is perfect

Useful Psycho-Spiritual Practices:
Intuitive Development, Kinesiology

Mantra For Evolution:
“Everything in the universe is within you. Ask all from yourself.” – Rumi

Stage 6: Life is Me (Sage)
At this stage of awareness, the individual begins to understand that reality does not exist independent of consciousness, and therefore consciousness, or awareness if you prefer, is the causative factor of the universe and all that exists—that consciousness is creating all reality.

Individuals in this stage experience a profound sense of unity and oneness with everything.

When an individual fully enters and embodies this stage of awareness, their simple presence itself becomes a transformative experience for others. Individuals in this stage often become teachers or leaders, dedicate their lives to service of others or seek solitude to spend time in introspection, although they may also choose to live very normal and inconspicuous lives.

Dominant Belief Structures:
I am one; I am whole

Useful Psycho-Spiritual Practices:
Service, Contemplation, Meditation

Mantras For Evolution:
“You are an aperture through which the universe is looking at and exploring itself.” – Alan Watts

“Stop acting so small. You are the Universe in ecstatic motion.” – Rumi

Stage 7: I Am Infinite (Avatar)
Individuals at this stage of growth begin to transcend the physicality within which we are proverbially ‘trapped’ until we reach this point.

Here individuals begin to harness conscious control over this process by directing their awareness in such a way (through belief, emotion, thought, visualization, the manipulation of energy, intent, accessing transpersonal aspects of the self and likely other mechanisms not yet discovered) as to be able to make use of these ‘higher order’ quantum-transpersonal abilities of the self.

Individuals at this stage perceive and know themselves to be limitless and are in various sub-stages of actualizing that reality beyond a simple intellectual understanding.

As individuals move more deeply into this stage they proportionally complete lower stages which leads to an embodied confidence, power and knowingness, which is palpable to most all who they come into contact with.

Dominant Belief Structures:
I am infinite/limitless; Anything is possible

Useful Psycho-Spiritual Practices:
Esoterics, Visualization, Kabbalah, Sound/Vibration/Mantra, Qi/Nei Gong, Kriya Yoga

Mantra for Evolution:
“Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.” – Albert Einstein

Stage 8: I Am Energy (Mystic-Shamanic)
Individuals at this stage tap into phenomena like:

The ability to project consciousness across space and time, which encompasses the ability to see, experience and remember aspects of the self existing in other dimensions of time (past, present and future).
The ability to interact with and communicate with other forms of consciousness such as plants, animals, objects and consciousnesses not currently existing in physical form.
The ability to intuitively pick up sensory data beyond the limits of the physical senses.
The ability to feel, read, manipulate and project subtle energy that is otherwise unperceivable to those in lower levels of stage development and virtually unrecordable with current scientific instrumentation.
Those who have near death experiences as well as users of psychedelic drugs or plant medicines (ayahuasca, DMT, LSD, mushrooms, etc.) are often able to have highly embodied first-hand experiences of this state of awareness pre-development into this stage, giving them a proverbial taste of this reality without necessarily having done the psychospiritual foundational work necessary to experience this stage organically and therefore they often lack a deeper understanding of the larger framework of what is happening along with the ability to maintain it beyond a transitory phenomenon, still nonetheless forever changed by the experience.

As an individual becomes more grounded in the later phases of stage eight—which encompass this dimensional awareness—and simultaneously completes their evolution through lower stages, one would theoretically achieve complete enlightenment or non-dual self-realization.

Dominant Belief Structures:
Everything is energy; I am awareness; Reality is an illusion

Useful Psycho-Spiritual Practices:
Energy healing, Esoterics, Visualization, Kabbalah, Qi/Nei Gong, Kriya Yoga, Meditation, Visualization, Remote Viewing, Astral Projection, Telekinesis

Mantra for Evolution:
“We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.” – Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

Although this model ends at stage 8, this doesn’t imply that no further stages exist and that somehow stage 8 is the pinnacle of conscious evolution. However, any claims as to what happens beyond stage 8 at this time are simply conjecture.

stages of consciousness

At this point, you probably have a pretty good idea of where you’re at.

When the descriptions are objectively laid out, it forces you to be honest with yourself.

It’s also helpful to accept where you’re at right now, while continuously learning and growing. Don’t resist where you are right now or beat yourself up, neither of those serve your highest interest. Choose love, gratitude and compassion in each moment and you can’t go wrong.

Here’s another important point: you’re not limited to one stage! Chances are that you’re dipping into different stages on a daily basis. But it should be fairly apparent as to what stage you’re grounded in at this point in your life.

For me, I’m pretty grounded in stage 5, though I often fluctuate between stages 3 and 6. I’ve tasted stages 7 and 8, yet these experiences have been few and fleeting. Sometimes I’ll even find myself in stage 1 or 2, and that’s okay. It’s all a part of the human experience.

This framework is beautiful because it allows you to effectively calibrate where you are. It naturally creates self-awareness. Awareness is the first step toward any change, and transformative in and of itself.

I encourage you to read the full paper, which you can download for free here:
Mapping the Evolution of Consciousness: A Holistic Framework for Psychospiritual Development

Which stage are you in at this point of your journey? Is this framework helpful for you?

Leave a comment below.

Much love to you on your path.

Friday, June 2, 2017


2 June 2017

Apologies for a late update but I've had computer interference – on my borrowed computer! Fortunately, this latest one's now been sorted for me – thanks be to all relevent invisible Lighted ones for your love and service.
However, this makes it THREE computers in less than FOUR years that have been massacred!

Maybe like some of you, I'm so used to things not going smoothly, I almost expect them not to. Which in turn creates them.
It's like being addicted to a life of mishaps from misshapen understandings. That Catch 22. Because where it all begins is in our perceptions. That is once we know we've created and continue to create all our experiences. It's not about beating up on the self then, but more about knowing what it will take to change patterns which give rise to modes of response and thus our decisions and choices, minute by minute.
Though I do now, I had no conscious idea that for years I've been afraid of my own power, for instance. So choosing to live without it has meant the creating of all sorts of unnecessary suffering I've chosen to endure. When I didn't even have to.

Then I remind myself I've also created a home with a lovely warm bed and warm things to wear now that winter's here (though deep state are doing deliberate weather interference to continue creating the 'drought' here to justify us paying for God's water is one of the current tricks), a few similarly-passionate friends and life in a valley of renowned and spectacular natural beauty. Which, in itself, is something I never take for granted, praising it and God for the opportunity to be here and witness all of it.

In some ways all of this is pretty stale stuff. Because it's an entirely different paradigm we're living in now. Which essentially means to me our minds and bodies just haven't yet fully caught up/caught on properly to the new consciousness blueprint, if I can call it that. Meaning we're still sort of playing out that which is dead and buried like stuck records. Or living the Ground Hog Day syndrome. At least some of us I know are, including me.

But while we're living in our little corners of the globe playing out our various lives, I find it comforting to have the actual proof through our similar feelings in this cycle– about ourselves and the world. Women who are that bit in touch with themselves and their God Selves lead the way here in my observation.
As women, we are or naturally become synched up in our menstrual cycles when we are in close proximity to one another for a period (no pun intended) of time.

I'm having that kind of 'synched up' experience of late with an assortment of women. I am really grateful for those who are crossing my path – and vice versa. These are no run-of-the-mill women. Though some who read here may tell me I'm idolising again :-) Some of these are definite daughters of God and the wise 'crones' amongst us. And even though I know there's no such thing as coincidences, I have this very strong sense of a behind-the-scenes orchestration at work; that Hand of God's at work, moving us all hither and thither, like chess pieces; like pawns. I know this is always so in all of our general daily lives, but somehow I feel it more distinctly than usual this year, particularly through these auspicious meetings. And it's especially so through these wise women contacts.

What I've felt during and after these meetings are the silent whispers between us. Or the echoes that linger long after our contact. That the meetings' objectives are sometimes far removed from the reasons we think we're meeting for. That these contacts are activation ones, primarily.

That this contact is sometimes as much as or more to act as a necessary catalyst or trigger on the trail that each follows, taking us to His house of authentic Creation in His way.
Whether it's the young child who 'hates her life' , the incredible musician who refuses to compromise on her integrity, and so 'struggles' to make her mark, the poet who knows from whom and whence she springs or the detail-obsessed artist who's flair has skyrocketed a career in food. Then there's the wise elder, readying herself for her own role...and so it goes on.

I've always known and felt – as many visitors to this city do – that this is an extraordinary place energetically, full of extraordinary people, including specially hand-picked daughters of God. Which I guess translates into how the visitors often describe it as a city 'where anything's possible', fall in love with it and want to (and often do!) go home, pack up and move here. This is what they most often feel. The people and the place are not divided, but one. So I guess if your frequency/vibration is not resonant with that of a location's, you move on – in one way or another. You leave it for one you are attracted or drawn to.

Much the way you are to other people. So once again I'm privileged to be part of a gathering of wonderful women – though it may be a silent one for now - happening almost exclusively on another dimension.

We are in the process of creating. We are innovating. We are joining in unity through our diverse culture. Whether this is for now or/and preparing towards a future manifestation of the expression of the Feminine Divine in all its glory, I'm not certain.

Whichever it is, I want to bless and express gratitude to our beloved Mama Earth for allowing us to continue walking on her; Nada, Mother Mary, Nebadonia and IMS(Infinite Mother Spirit). And all the other unnamed ones who hold the lineage for the Feminine Divine principle. You all impulse us, especially as women, to know. TO KNOW.

Thank you for blessing us all with your presence, support, nurturing and great love.


Our Creator God reminding us:

Let The Sunshine In: From 2:18

Saturday, May 20, 2017



All ev/devolution and growth appears to be taking place through the manifestation of its opposite currently -destruction. Destruction of the human mind. Currently in this beautiful land, the related 'carelessness' that promotes the death culture through lack of empathy which Lisa Renee spoke of in a recent blog is easily seen here. Individual and collective social mores have seemingly been flushed down the toilet and replaced with the negative alien agenda's implanting of this into the collective mind.

One of the visible forms of this over the past few months here is in the absolute disregard of human life by other human life forms. In South Africa there have been no less than 19 girl children that have been murdered -mostly after being raped - since January this year. And that's just the reported figures. In this country due to deep mistrust of the police force who have been exposed as serving themselves and not the community, many crimes of this nature go unreported.

Basically, whatever this NAA latest download is, it is misogynistic in nature. As we know, misogyny is a hallmark to globally maintaining the rule of patriarchy on this planet.
Creating or/and keeping men in a state of rage from childhood is necessary to fuelling this gory state of affairs.
The upside of this phase is that I've heard and seen an equal amount of empathy, kindness and compassion here of late collectively, and in spaces that one would least likely expect. So I'm thinking this is also the natural gravitation of people towards their own consciousness 'grouping'.

Here's what came through me while crying and musing over this further stripping of human-ity:



To those my beautiful brothers:

Lost in the dark consequences
Of their urges that compelled them
To violate and shatter the souls of
helpless and terrorised girl children

To you my brother in God
I know who you are
You could easily be my brother
My father
My son or my lover

To you, beloved heart of God's
You who were coerced
Into believing you
Were on the planet
To protect your womankind
You who believed it was your
Role and duty to do so

Now look again...
You took it upon yourself
To accept this, doing so (in part)
Yet feeling ill-equipped
Or you didn't do so
And chose instead to violate the ones
You and they thought you loved.

How, dear brother, can rape and murder
Of a 14 month old girl toddler
Be an expression of any kind of Love?

Did you not have it in your mind to be kind
To your 4 year old niece when you saw her
After a lengthy absence?

Instead your 'kindness' was demonstrated
In the pain you inflicted upon her
And now she tries to navigate
Through the shards left in your wake
Suppressing her suffering and pushing away
Anyone and everyone that tries to get close.

Did you think, beloved brother, that it was
All harmless fun (for you)...
None of which means anything –
Except for the fulfillment
Of your own animal urges in that moment?

Where and how, dear brother, did you get
To understand and accept your action would
Be meaningless and have no impact...on
The lives of many?
The lives of the many that radiate
From that damaged girl child

Was it easier violating the 10 year old who
Seemingly-responded to your 'games'?
Her rape will ever be invisible blood
Stained on your soul
Until you are taken to
Empathetically re-live
Her very woundedness as your own

That concealed blood is smeared across your
Mind, sometimes so you can't think straight

Reminding you of your own fragmented
Memories, harbouring the deep secret
You've been keeping – especially from yourself

Of the shame of those powerless days and nights
When you were brutally and unthinkingly
Sexually violated.
Even as your own soul
Fragmented and shattered into a thousand pieces

Taken you were, quietly in the night. Or
Roughly - depending on your tormentor's
state of mind at the time

Sometimes it was a deliberately violent act
impulsed by deep-seated rage and easy
To act out on society's most vulnerable

Much like the world's male people
Have been plundering
Other sentient life birthed to bless
Them with companionship
Unconditional love and protection
Or their sacrificial offering
Of sustenance

Appetites of men grow ever
Hungrier as the generations
Between boys and men are
Birthed, die and are re-birthed

It matters nothing other than to
Fulfill bestial itches in
The opportunities provide

Your secret's safe with me.
Will you share the pain of your
Own violation that compelled
You to prey on the powerless...
That you could feel more

The many hurting, missing and
Dead young innocents call
Upon you.
Pleading with you to share
Your own pain, your guilt, your shame...
YOUR own dark secrets you find
Too unbearable to face.

Their lives are shaped by how
And what you do with your own.

Another generation of young
Adults-in-the-making await your
Awareness and action.

Your experiences, dear brother,
And the subsequent tattered lives you
Have left in your wake is far
More common than you may
Think or believe.

For some of you, though, it was a
Real or perceived rejection
Rather than one form or
Another of the abuse perpetrated by the
Adult male 'god ' who's attention
And approval you sought
In your young life.

Whichever it is
Your experience has created
A self-hatred resulting in
A world of disempowered

Time now to change the repetitious
Cycle of destruction that
Relationships may know healing -
No matter the gender.

Time to right the wrongs by
Acknowledging the pain that
Silently eats at you because you
Give it no voice. You give it no
Allowance to be...and thus to free you.
And then all others your life
Impacts upon.

Dear brothers: your sisters have
The power – the authentic power – to
help you free yourselves.
Are you willing to allow them?
Are you brave enough to expose yourselves
To the nurturing wisdom of the womb?
The support and soothing of the Mother
Lies within you, as well as without.

Are you willing to help your sisters help you
To break the false power that has
Enchained and enraged you?

The same rage which compelled
your sordid, sexual violations
Of the ones that looked to you
For the protection you yourself


Sammy Jay, a British busker may just be Janis Joplin reincarnated. This jazzy blues and her voice is exactly my kind of fix. Enjoy!

Saturday, May 13, 2017



I'm happy to share that through all my shit of recent weeks and months - since it started last June actually - that my cyber and general communications have been restored to me. :-) Not without a little help from my invisible friends and the Lighted realm and my HS, of course. Bless you all for blessing me with this repair job!
Though not without casualties. My Mac was interfered with to the point where it's now completely unuseable, ditto my backup HP which was massacred long before then. However, I've been blessed with the temporary use of someone's computer which is working perfectly for me!

And the 9/10 month long bugging of my landline has finally ceased. Two weeks ago my line was cut altogether and until earlier this week I went without both computer and phone for a couple of weeks.

Since last year the local goon agents employed to put me under surveillance and who worked through our monopolising telecommunication company Telkom, would sometimes forget to give me a line and my first attempted call of the day would ring directly through to Telkom's corporate branch -lol.

Since my line's been restored and I'm not shouting at people to shout back at me to hear (interference signals were that loud), it feels luxurious and I will never again take this for granted.
But that's just an update on my personal affairs and not what this blog's about.

This sentence in a recent Heavenletter has been on my mind all week:

It may well be that the more you are sure you would know what you are doing, the more ignorant you might be.

Today and yesterday's Creator Writings highlight this, in a way, and how the ego works constantly to divert us from our reall growth, our real healing- even or particularly when we feel sure we're 'working on ourselves'.


Yes, by using our negative feelings about ourselves, such as guilt, which makes one feel like you WANT to and need to keep apologising or begging for forgiveness, the ego keeps helping us maintain our feeling BAD about ourselves - in one way or another. The blaming of self is very different from being responsible for self.
For each and every one of us it will be something different we
are dealing with - dictated to and coloured by our personal experiences and feelings about those. And more importantly, the feelings we have and hold about ourselves, as a result.

This is where it gets tricky. I personally, have spent decades on what I thought was honest-to-good solid work on myself and what I thought was visible healing. I'm not negating anything I did here and while there was healing and the building of becoming a more emotionally-intelligent person, I realise this could only go as deep as it could go.
No matter how many ways, means, methods or techniques I applied to freeing myself, I'd never been able to get beyond a certain state of being.

Why? Because of the unconscious self-saboteuring and false be-lie-fs held deep within. Which I guess determine the ease of ability or difficulty in letting go [also which I've written about numerously before].

Now here's where it gets trickier. Sometimes in doing our daily spiritual cleansing/connecting can actually support the wily ego with its created self-deceptions – instead of moving forward, healing and growing.

So this question of being utterly certain about what I think I know - first about myself, as everything starts within me - can easily be the very thing that blocks me...from knowing me.
And if I hold onto doing things as I always have, it becomes rigid. Rigidity is pounced on by the parasites – it's part of their sustenance. You need only look at the rigidity of be-lie-f of those in organised religion to see that.
So one week I woke up compelled to let go of doing all my daily spiritual cleansing/connecting. Apart from my protection.
I wanted to experiment.
I felt really uncomfortable at first, like I wasn't committing to my path. Those were the programmes of guilt being activated, to get me to return.

After close to a week, I realised that this holding to patterns was a major obstruction to letting go. I really wanted to shake my ego up by doing this – and I did. I managed this way of being for quite a few weeks, but then slowly began to re-entrench myself in the daily spiritual exercises. During this period it was the 'letting go of holding on' to even these practises I was testing myself on.

The thing is, in the light of how little we know about our subconscious and how it deals with the processing of our conscious daily experience, I ask how much did God expect of us this time around?

A fraction of sincere seekers have managed to master themselves sufficiently by being able to surrender themselves fully to their HS & God within to resolve this.
The other type I've seen that have also had good success in their mastery have been those healers who can see/feel how and where the parasites are at work on both others and themselves.

Though I've done everything in my conscious power with the first to resolve myself with inconsistent successes, I don't fit in the second category either.
Hence, the more I journey upon my daily, weekly and monthly path on this consciousness adventure, the more I realise how little I know. Mainly because the only true Knowing comes from continuous and consistent alignment with your God forces/your HS &the God within/your God Complex - whatever name you call that.

If we all had the vision to see how the parasites operate without our conscious permission in and around us and the related emotional and mental symptoms of limitation and fear that subsequently manifest, we could really take charge of ourselves in a new way.
But most of us don't have that gift.

So its a bit of a Catch-22. The less we live without constantly being able to draw on our God forces within, the more open and vulnerable we are to having our consciousness and thus, minds and emotions, interfered with by the parasitic forces. And much of it without our conscious knowledge or permission being granted.
Frankly, I think the vast majority of us are therefore, spiritually schizophrenic :-)

What to do to discern then if the subconscious has such power – to keep us from the goalpost or keep shifting us away, if we get too close to our goal of surrender or clearing ourselves?

God sees and knows our sincerity/lack thereof in all of our hearts. He knows what motivates us and why. He also knows what we need to resolve ourselves. In my case, and quite a few others I know, I'd say I've been trying too hard. Which has just proven to get in the way of...being.

My suggestion is to drop everything you do for a week – except your 2 x daily protection. Create the space for fluidity, ie [inner] movement to happen – always of course, choosing daily to do God's will, not yours. I noticed when I first did this my dreams went all berserk – in a good way. The ego and subconscious didn't have anything to fight with and were freaking out, as I'd withdrawn myself and my energy.
What's to lose in doing it for a week?

I also intended every night before I dropped off to sleep to bring up with the help of my HS-God Self/GA and Lighted specialists to acknowledge and embrace all of my shadow parts that the parts knew I loved and accepted them.

We are already magnificent beings that have allowed ourselves to become sidetracked by our egos. So striving towards something we are already is a waste of energy. We just need to know our entire power source is had by plugging into Source/HS.

A couple of weeks ago I was given a beautiful visual repeated over several days [but I'm still using it to visualise with] of me with all these many cords/thick black wires above my crown that had just been pulled out of something. And then I saw myself offering the cords and plugging all of them back up in to God/HS fully.
I also see myself currently pulling out cords continuously from my amygdala [sp?] in the brain, the so-called home of the ego. We are physical beings so we need physical references. I find such pinpointing helpful.

What's comforting for me right now is knowing how little I Know, while I don't have 24/7 access to Source/HS. In that I can more easily hand trust over to my God forces who know and see the bigger picture, my subconscious resistances and all parasitic attempts to bombard my consciousness and the results.

Unless it's given to me to understand, I'm not even trying to anymore – including in dreams. Personally, I'm just too damn tired to be doing any of that right now. It's my little self way of getting out of my big Self's way...

None of this is to say I'm not taking response-a-bility for my life and my creations each day. It's just that I loaded myself with so much pressure for so long before [fear of success/failure or both] that it produced little movement in the ways that matter.

Ascension or being recycled (into a sunflower, I hope)...? I choose Ascension and all that that brings. What my HS/God within chooses for my life may or may not be the same.
What I'm really trying to say is – at the deeper level – I have little to no idea of what I'm doing. But finally, that's quite okay as I'm not trying to control any outcomes of anything anymore.

I'll happily eat whatever I'm dished up. Which doesn't necessarily mean I'm not choosing my favourite foods :-)

P.S. Excuse any seeming-contradictions here, but I am a constant, moving and changing work in progress. So I could change my mind on anything said here by next month, or sooner.


I love this local jazz-funk artist, Ernestine Deane. This country, like all countries, just overflows with wondrous talent. Listen carefully to her lyrics; they match my current head/heart space:

'Rise again my friend, as you feel the blessing take you by the hand
Though you've been spinning round in circles
Though you been dancing out of time
There ain't nothing that you can do to re-arrange the songs

You've never been alone
There's been a guiding Light inside you
Leading you closer to the One
Every smile and every tear you wear
Is gonna take you there

Trust the plan, trust the plan
Think again...'

Saturday, May 6, 2017


Dear Darkies

Know this and know it well:

Your more-intense attempts since the 22/4 to destroy my life and living experience WILL NOT WORK.
No, I have NOT curled up into a ball of depression and neither am I contemplating suicide.

You may track me with your overhead surveillance as I move between computers [with/without any technology] all you like.

You may continue to shut down servers of libraries, businesses and domestic users alike that I visit.

You may continue to block my entry to my mail, access to my sites and can continue whatever further attempts you like.

You may continue to block me from posting ads on local sites about my health products to prevent orders from coming to me and whatever
other devious means you can muster up with your tech in attempts to bring my life to a halt. Including corrupting all my clean, new flash drives.

You have already disabled both of my laptops and switched the sound on and off at will, amongst many others daily-changing tricks...

Your final cutting of my phone line completely in an attempt to destroy my work after 10 months of massive sound interference
is something of a relief, frankly.

What does all this mean to me and what effect is it having?

This is what you want to know - that your ongoing efforts are having your desired outcome, right?

Of course I know you're there. How could I not - you scream so loud for my attention.

You remind me of a little boy that used to live with his parents across the road. He was only 7 or 8, but he used to scream and shout all hours of his waking day. Not because he was being abused in any way, but his parents were the type of people that were emotionally-unavailable. They would just switch off, shut him out or let him be babysat by the television.
The more they 'ignored' him, the more desperate were his screams to 'be heard'.
His angry home behaviour led to aggressive behaviour at school subsequently, desperate for his peers attention but it all backfired.

Now he has a younger brother he can either torment - training him into following in big brother's footsteps. Or he's learned kindness.
I don't know which he's chosen as they'v moved away.

Apart from that, what is the effect of not playing ball with you? And how are you going to be fed if I choose not to play?
Your answer:
A huge THANK YOU for re-routing me and my precious energy into the only direction that matters. Reminding me to plug myself into God/my HS's will.

Allowing you to do what you are doing suits God's/my HS's will. And if you have to BE USED BY HIM right now, then I ACCEPT whatever it is He/my HS wishes to teach me through these means. I can do no other.

One would think I was a galactic superstar or some planetary VIP, about to single-handedly bring your MO to a total halt, the way you carry on. But that's all your choice.

Apologies if all this is exactly NOT what you wish to hear.

PS. You guys are really great in providing clues and confirmation, in the Light of other incoming energies/occurrences. :-)

Wednesday, April 26, 2017


Just to say:

The darkie tech agents must be working overtime and under a great deal of pressure. The petrified parasites they work for are clearly in shit creek and are happy to show it by such actions!
I've had my phone line cut completely now - after such terrible interference was introduced on my phone line, I couldn't hear. My machine's hard drive was either crashed or a serious virus introduced last week, which is still there and makes the machine unuseable. I cannot do my work towards my deadline on it or type on any doc.
The idea now, I think, is for them to attempt to destroy my working life completely.

Nontheless, I've moved to Plan B and I will post something on Friday or Saturday.

Thanks for understanding[typing this took more than 1/2 hour]

Sunday, April 16, 2017


14 April 2017

There may well be absolutely nothing we all have in common with each other on earth. We may not speak one another’s language, share the same culture or lifestyle. We may have vastly differing customs that we judge as ‘better’ or ‘worse’ than our own, when in reality they are just ‘different’.

We may regard one another with skepticism, with hesitation and even outright hostility due to this, and before we give an-other a chance to connect with us. We may not even be able to find connecting points through common ground. And we may find entirely different things to laugh at and be outraged by.

Because of all this we may be so very good at automatically shutting ourselves off from others, when we haven’t even given the other a single open and objective moment to share of themselves.

We have pre-judged that which we have perceived according to the various frameworks that we live within and have set up for ourselves.

But, when we take that extra moment BEFORE the judgements and our clouded perspective/perception arises to overtake our little selves, to just stop and look into the eyes of an-other, we will see God there.
Asking Him to ‘come in’ in that nanosecond before responding, can help a whole lot.

You don’t have to like or dislike what you see when you look into the eyes of an-other. You don’t need to contrive your feelings of ‘tolerance’ , ‘compassion’ or ‘love’ because you feel you must. In other words, you don’t have to do anything. And it's best that you don't DO anything, but rather just allow God to (a)rise out of you.

You have only to give an-other a chance to be. Just as you would like to be given that same chance by others In the world. And be open to WHO and WHAT you’re seeing. I mean, really see-ing.
For when you look into that other’s eyes for a short time even, there will you see God.

God is there standing in that other before you, even as He is in you. Expressing Himself in all His glory, His uniqueness and His Light, dancing right there in front of you.
Is this not an amazing opportunity to experience God physically? To know Him through the physicality of another in this way?

Focusing on God’s Light and Glory in another in whatever context your interaction is, leads to see-ing more more of Him more often.

One of the ways I do this is by appreciating how amazing and unique each of us are; that He made us all so different. Like snowflakes – no two alike.
Then I feel myself going into awe that this being in front of me is also being animated by God, as I AM.

Yes, that’s what can happen on one of my ‘good’ days when I feel successful in God's unfolding within me. ☺

Practise this with those babies who cannot speak yet, or animals. It’s easy with babies to see and feel the presence of God, Because they’re closer to Him and the world from which we’ve all come. Beings that aren’t talking are still communing telepathically with us. But because they can’t verbally interact, it may be easier to start here, feeling God in and through them.

I’m privileged to have a child in my neighbourhood who lights up my life when she plays outside. She has to be one of the most joyous little beings I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing who is constantly singing and laughing. It’s so infectious! God is sooo alive and expressive within her so often.

The idea is to feel the unity in God with an-other, for this is the one thing that bridges all life on Earth. This is what we all have in common with one another.
Beyond duality in our ‘home’ worlds, I’m sure we are all enthusiastically in love with each other, even as we are with our very own sacred Selves. We are in awe of each other for being such beautiful expression on our grand God adventure.

Feeling it is Knowing it; Knowing it is to feel it. I feel putting this into action at this time is imperative. Because, if for no other reason, it is the very opposite of what those forces attempting to dominate our consciousness want. They cannot easily and smoothly operate and expand upon their hidden agenda if we FEEL the unity with other God beings, our brothers and sisters. They are petrified of us accessing and maintaining this state as it has the ability to spread like wildfire to the hearts and minds of others. The high frequency of true unity in huge numbers of people is likely the darkies' greatest threat!

It's what the `KZ's consciousness war is all about: keep manipulating outrage and anger at an-other in the public mind. Then divisions BETWEEN people can be easily maintained in order to continue ruling us!

I’ve seen something quite amazing happening here recently in that regard, with people who’ve never stood up before, now standing. But, as written about in my last post, not in anger and aggression ie. Fear, but in the spirit of unity and peace.

We live in an era where people are uncomfortable with holding each other’s gaze for longer than necessary. And according to which customs and culture you’ve been raised in.
In some, like here in Africa, it’s a sign of respect for an elder person to not look a person straight in the eyes, for instance.

But going beyond that, holding another’s gaze with kindness and acceptance and acknowledging them as the expression of God that they are, is helpful all around. It's actually wonderful service you can do.

It would be the greatest thing if we could automatically be will-ing (and therein lies the rub, I just heard!) and able to do this in our interaction with others as a matter of course.
Instead, for most of us most of the time, we allow our minds and feelings to be overcome by our preconceived judgements, prejudices, our defenses and guardedness. Which all does nothing to help us see and interact with the God that the other is.

Although it’s difficult to re-member, if we keep calling God that His thoughts be voiced, His feelings, His reactions and responses, etc take centre stage and not ours, that’s very helpful. And you can feel the difference in your day when you do this.

We are beings living in duality here and until we return to that natural state we have to effort to re-member our surrender to Him. For that is part of the surrender that He wants of us. It’s what gets us closer to Him.

So, next time you get on/off public transport or out of your car, ask God to accompany you in all your interactions. Before you answer another in an interaction – whether at work, home, shopping or out at leisure – re-member in that split second before opening your mouth...
State: ‘I call you in God. Let not my will be done, God, but Your will be done in all things’. However many (dozens? of) times that’s necessary.

Until we really know and are living that state of total surrender to Him, one way or another we can do nothing but keep reminding ourselves to allow and call the God presence in.

Start by experimenting with just one day where you intend (I always call for the expert Lighted help) to re-member as many times in the day as possible to call Him in to override your little self.

You may have one amazing day which feels almost surreal in Him and then it may seem to belly flop. So what? You’ll have a greater reference point from that experience now to spur you onwards.

Then it will be easier to see Him in the eyes and words of an-other.


This is one who didn't steal lyrics like Bob Dylan. Rodriguez the real thing, but only found his musical career at 70 years old. I get he had some hard music industry karma, but may be wrong. For some reason he become a (white) SA musical icon in the apartheid era here. He was more famous here than in his homeland of the US!

Saturday, April 8, 2017


Yesterday was perhaps the greatest day of the year for me so far!
I really do believe this country collectively broke through the glass ceiling of FEAR!
That self-censoring programming that many here have bought into for so long just seemed to vanish yesterday.
I would energetically call it a definitive turning point in the affairs of man here.

An important Khazarian Zionist date, amongst others, yesterday 7 April 2017, South Africans of all cultures, colours and creeds came together in the 10's or 100 000's. Most took to the streets to protest against our cloned 'president' Jacob Zuma. Some even put the figure at around 1 000 000.

This entity is another KZ clone without conscience, like many of them. Just how many years ago the original was murdered is anyone's guess. I'm feeling quite a time before his original election/KZ-forced installment as president, ten years ago.

However, like many KZ-installed leaders in many countries, evidence of his criminality is in the 780+ criminal charges brought against him. Not that that went anywhere in terms of our freedom, as the KZ's here also control the judicial system who conveniently dropped all charges against him a few years ago.
That, amongst very much else, is what we as a people have chosen to accept and put up with for so many years.
But now...we have risen!

Yes, there is outrage and anger collectively. It was what the shadow government/deep state attempted to capitalize on this week. Knowing how easily the middle-class respond to fear here, they chose to spread fear-mongering through the media. Once they caught on to how many more people than usual were intending to march, their MSM presstitutes suddenly talked about the marches that would be anti and ‘pro’ Zuma. Suddely ‘pro’ Zuma marches were worked into newscasts. Suggesting that there could be clashing and violence – a typical tactic.

They continued their campaign by inciting fear in the impoverished areas across the nation also. In my area alone, two more innocents humans were shot in the few days preceding the march at a drug and crime-riddled suburb nearby mine. And at my neighbouring township, there was coincidentally a ‘flare up’ of zenophobia – supposedly locals attacking Africans from other countries living in the same township.

Instead, these were murders and flare-ups executed by deep state’s agents slaves covertly going about their usual dirty business. This time to ensure as many as possible would be too paralysed with fear to leave their homes and join the march. Which sort of had some effect.

Yet a march outside the gang-riddled area still got off at 6am. I was invited to attend in my professional capacity, but there was no ways I was getting up at 4.30/5am.

Despite that, many more than usual came out of the woodwork yesterday. The majority of suburban main roads going into the centre centre were lined with humans voicing their concerns and standing together in solidarity. Many for the first time. And next time, there’ll be even more people present. Because next time the people will be able to see through the media lies and know them for what they are - in advance.

During the early part of the week I made numerous requests with the Lighted realms for what I wanted to see happening on the day-the external conditions and in how people would feel internally, if it was in God’s will that it all be so.

The day before the march, I asked for further galactic and celestial assistance that the people marching have the right and the freedom to express without the interference of the darkies tactics. I also went to connect with the Higher Selves/essences of all marchers.
And a whole lot more about very specific things I wanted prevented. I know it must have helped.

Overall, this was a very good experiment. And despite covert threats being made here and there, the protesting masses were unharmed by agent-slaves in disguise.

There were many moments yesterday when I was moved almost to tears over the Godly presence in/around people at the locations I was stationed at. I had my placard with me which read: ‘And You Thought We Were Sheeple?’.

There was such an harmonius, peaceful contagion of the most positive kind that spread between people. A sense of already being triumphant, just by taking the action of being there. It was a mixture of that same feeling of unity when Mandela became president or winning the world Soccer cup. Except better...at least to me.

In the past, complacency aka fear of rising especially from the middle-class, was justified by memes such as ‘ we are powerless to do anything about it’ or ‘why protest as it won’t help’.

Yet something absolutely beautiful has happened...we are seeing through our own collective victimhood that has allowed the abuse to continue for so long. And, moreover, we are choosing to take our power back. Power (aka our sovereignty) and unity work hand in hand to strengthen each other.

But, even more importantly, there was an inordinately high number of people who echoed these and similar sentiments. Rather than overtly being there to ‘fight against’ the man or system, many were there ‘for’ unity.

Some of the comments video-d were:

'We are here to support the country',said one young male marcher.

While an unnamed biker said:
'The idea is to show the world that in unity we have power'.

'[What Zuma’s doing]It's going to hit the impoverished the hardest...I'm here as a representative for them' said one woman.

From a country that has feared rising so much for so many years, that people here now talk about rising for the sake of unity is like a dream come true for me.

I, for one, am so very privileged to have been part of this breakthrough here.
A new cycle’s begun and it’s the start of something big.