I AM Present

I AM Present

Monday, December 13, 2010

Going Forward Doubt-Free

Since last year I’ve thought we’d not be making it on the planet beyond Christmas 2010. Or Christ-mess as someone called it. I’ve even been silly enough to invite the skeptics and critics amongst me to throw ‘vrot’ (bad) tomatoes at me, if overt signs of change on this planet hadn't happened by year end.

But perhaps that outcome has also shifted somewhat now. And the ever-unfolding drama that is our journey to becoming more Hu-man takes on yet further unanticipated twists and turns. So what is it that I've been waiting for? As if you didn’t already know…

Seemingly as easily as the wind changes direction, so does our course appear to, here in the density of this plane. In any event, it still comes on pretty good authority that the revelations about our galactic family and the purpose of human existence I have always foreseen are still to take place. This is after plans on this count have shifted back and forth over the past few years.
Yes, actually manifest on this dimension, within earshot and vision of our deeply limiting senses. What a relief!

On the plus side, the extra time spent waiting has provided some great opportunities for the further developing of those much-needed qualities such as patience, acceptance and surrender within me. I’m getting the image of a piece of metal being lovingly worked to transform it into a more desirable form.

I was just thinking the other day how much of my life’s longings have been played out outside of this body (in parallel and etheric existences). Which has naturally bred immense dissatisfaction. How many of you feel similarly? This is mainly because I’ve had the misfortune of actually remembering a lot of these potentials-in both visions and dreamtime. I say misfortune because as far as this goes, the ‘ignorance is bliss’ maxim is definitely preferable! Yes, choices not taken, not made and opportunities subsequently missed on both the relationship and work front of my life have cruelly made themselves known to me. What in the goddess’s name has my Hissy (pet name for my Higher Self) been thinking here? I say enough with the torment already. Alright, I admit that some of this has been self-imposed!

But drama queen histrionics aside, the good news is: I’ve acknowledged it all, mourned and grieved the last energetic remnants within of broken contracts with others and timeline journeys not taken. And most importantly, have released any regret and disappointment related to these. It's a certain step into further limitation without that happening and choosing additionally to remain in unforgiveness of self. As this too can then impact negatively on that potential timeline of your highest possible choice.

I am now what I consider to be clear and free. Yippee! And…hopefully prepared enough to never let a single opportunity further for growth and fulfillment pass me by again.
Although this sounds contradictory, I keep being told: I've now chosen a new and even better timeline than the last in the one regard. This can happen when the timeline choice involves two people and one (not me, in this instance) decides not to follow through on a mutual soul plan. In this case, as I understand it, I get an even more potent opportunity. To quote my beloved Nada in a chat of a few days ago: ‘All that you have ever dreamed of and much that you haven’t is now to occur. Seeing’s believing, LN, for this doubting Thomasina!

But doubts aside, I want to share with you some really inspirational moments I’ve experienced over the past few weeks.
I did a process granting myself permission to receive more in all aspects of my life a few weeks ago. After discovering how residual traces of the past could still be influencing me, even though I’d done the ‘work’. 24 hours after this short and what I felt was an encoded process, I had a beautiful experience. Sitting in bed and contemplating, just before going to sleep, I suddenly felt the presence of a group of around 10 people, standing in semi-circular fashion around my bed. They felt modern and looked it in their dress. I can see, hear and feel things clairsentiently and etherically. In fact, they felt like my inner earth family and friendship connections from there. Each stepped forward in an almost-sacred, ceremonial manner and placed a beautifully wrapped gift on the bed for me.

I remember one packaging in particular in an elaborate and shiny green and gold wrapping with a big gold bow. I asked what was going on. And was told these were gifts for me, of me. This group of beings, or one in particular, told me they were gifts of my own Self. My own multi-dimensional ‘gifts’ that they had been safeguarding for me, some for eons of time -as we know it on the surface. And now it was time to return them to me for my personal use and expansion. I wasn't too receptive that night and didn't get any more info from them as to their origins.

I’ve experienced something similar to the energy of this group once before. It may even have been the same folk. It was much more frightening to me then, though. It was a couple of years ago sitting on my lounge couch. I had just got through something particularly tough, obsessing about leaving the earth plane before my mission was officially complete. And I was still feeling very fragile about it all. That night my attention was half-focused on the TV when I suddenly felt this group rush. There were again a whole gang of them, seemingly rushing forward, coming at me in semi-circular fashion again. And again they felt modern. I later ruled out the possibility that they had been ancestors or dead family members. It literally felt as if they were calling me to come to or with them, or coming to fetch me to take me someplace.
I immediately went into fear and resistance, not knowing who they were or what was happening. ‘Oh my goddess’ I thought, ‘This is it, I’m about to leave my body, aaargh!’

I never did find out whatever that experience was supposed to have been about either. We were stonewalled each time I and a psychically-connected friend tried to get answers. And sadly, a disconnect between me and my inner earth family had already begun at a conscious level. Not necessarily because of that experience, but I’m sure it could have added to it.

Last Tuesday was my birthday. I still get excited about them at the ripe old age of 48, believe it or not. The day began with a friend taking me out to brunch. Our venue was a vegetarian restaurant cum art gallery overlooking a bay on the Indian ocean. It was a rare, wind-free day for our neck of the woods. We were the only diners on the balcony and as my friend and I were chatting I kept feeling urged to look up towards the sky.
Suddenly I saw psychically/etherically a dark circular dinner-plate shaped starship hovering above, over the sea. On a curved banner attached to one of its sides read the words: ‘Happy Birthday, Shellee-Kim’. I was gobsmacked, as you can imagine. No one else saw this, not even my sensitive friend. This has never happened before. And for sure that was the best birthday gift ever! With not an iota of doubt.

Magic, madness and mystery